Poison Arms (708 hits)
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Submitted by girlintheworld (View user info) at 2005-02-17 11:51:52 EST
...Someone's always coming around here, trailing some new kill...
I heard from him the other day. I knew I shouldn't have picked up the phone when he called, so I didn't. But it nagged at me for hours after. So I dialed the number. How fast things come back to your memory.
...Says I seen your picture on a hundred dollar bill...
It's not like we broke up all that long ago; it's only been off about 6 months for good, but we had been off and on for about a year. In total, we'd been together 3 years.
...What's a game of chance to you, to him is one of real skill... So glad to meet you, Angeles...
We met when we were 16. He was funny, quirky. A loner. He made me laugh. Really laugh. He put up with my family—my crazy parents, my little brother and sisters. We didn't go to the same school. He'd come to visit me on the weekends. And I fell hard for him.
...Picking up the ticket shows there's money to be made...
We fought rarely in the first two years. My parents put a lot of responsibility on me, and my mom sometimes made it so that I wouldn't see him for a month. But he was faithful to me. We talked on the phone all the time. And I knew he really loved me.
College had a funny way of changing all that. He called me one day and told me he was attracted to some other girl. I didn't flip out right away; I figured if he needed some space to figure things out, I'd give it to him. He refused my offer; instead, he came up to see me and we had sex for the first time. He broke up with me later, saying that he was too confused, and that he needed a break.
...Go on lose the gamble, that's the history of the trade...
For months, I was an absolute mess. We'd go back and forth on seeing each other on the weekends, pretend like everything was fine, but as soon as I got back to where I came from, it was always the same thing. He still hadn't figured things out; he still had feelings for her, he was sorry for hurting me.
...Did you add up all the cards left to play to zero?...Sign up with evil, Angeles...
He eventually went out with this girl—she turned out to be a real bitch and the relationship didn't last two weeks. He and I got back together during the summer, and I thought it was going to be the happiest time of my life. But the more I saw of him, the more withdrawn I became. We fought all the time. I hated him for what he had done; I hated myself even more for the games I'd allowed us to play.
...Don't start me trying now... Cause I'm all over it, Angeles...
I broke up with him when I got back to school this year—I was too afraid, too hurt, too everything. I started dating someone not long after; we're still together and I'm happy. My ex didn't understand, though I suppose he shouldn't have. He said he was going to be everything to me that he wasn't last year, and I hadn't given him the chance.
...I can make you satisfied in everything you do...
I saw him last October, thinking that we could be possible friends. I still cared about him a great deal. He got a little rough with me. There went that idea.
...All your secret wishes could right now be coming true...
I dial the numbers slowly, hoping I got them wrong. Hoping he wouldn't be there.
"Hey, you called earlier?"
"Yeah."
"How are you?"
"How do you think I am? What's worth living for now that I don't have you? Why did you have to hurt me like you did?"
...Be forever with my poison arms around you...
I know this had to end, it's crazy that it even got this far. I don't want him to hurt himself though, and the irony is that he put me through all the same stuff last year (except I never threatened suicide). It's over, I tell him. It's over, I tell myself even more quietly. I hang up the phone.
...No one's gonna mess around with us... So glad to meet you, Angeles...
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Submitted by jumpinjellyfish (user info) at 2005-02-17 16:29:45 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
I like this
Submitted by awj002 (user info) at 2005-02-17 13:46:22 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
could have been more detailed and in-depth with the reflections and such and such
Submitted by girlintheworld (user info) at 2005-02-17 12:51:40 EST (#)
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Submitted by Shlongy (user info) at 2005-02-17 12:28:12 (#)
Ranking: 1
Elliot's dead.
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Yes, but the songs... the songs live on.
Submitted by ruthless (user info) at 2005-02-17 12:29:22 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
Hmm.... not bad.
Submitted by Shlongy (user info) at 2005-02-17 12:28:12 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
Elliot's dead.
Submitted by girlintheworld (user info) at 2005-02-17 11:52:37 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
References to title and lyrics by Elliot Smith