I never thought it would end like this (kind of long) (996 hits)
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Submitted by Holly (View user info) at 2005-03-04 11:05:18 EST
I've always wanted to die since I was a small girl. I remember imagining my death while sitting in class in third grade. I can't remember much from my childhood but I do remember faint memories of molestation and abuse from those who were supposed to protect me from harm. I remember hating myself so badly for deserving such punishments. I also remember holding the pain pills and wondering if anyone would care if I took the entire bottle. I don't know what kept me from going through with it. Maybe it was hope that things would get better with time though they never did.
I don't know what it is about me but I seem to attract bad situations. I've been molested more times than I can count but I've managed to avoid being raped so I guess that's a plus. I've been abused emotionally and physically by people I just wanted to please. Every best friend I've ever had has backstabbed me for their own gain. I remember one of my best friends told everyone I was sleeping with my boyfriend when I was 12 years old. Truth is, I hadn't even given him an innocent kiss on the cheek yet. This gained me a reputation of being a slut and it gained me a nice beating from my mother. I remember one friend throwing herself all over my boyfriend every time my back was turned and having person after person approach me to tell me all about it. I remember my very last best friend, who was dating my brother, trying to fuck my husband when I welcomed her into my home for several weeks.
Every person I've ever gotten close to has turned their backs on me in one way or another. My husband cheated on me and up until now I always told myself there would be no second chance for cheating or abuse. The only reason I'm still here is because I have nowhere else to go and I think marriage is worth a second chance after all. I would also leave the most amazing job I've ever had behind and a city I've grown to love. I also just cannot live in this city alone. I gave up everybody back home to be here so I might as well try to make it work. If it fails again, I will gladly turn my back and leave. A large part of me knows it won't last and the day I found out I knew we would never be the same. He knows too. Everyday for us is a fight to be together despite all that has happened. We've been through a lot in one year.
I love my family but growing up my mother and I hated each other. We were both completely miserable with life but rather than talk to each other about it she would verbally and physically abuse me to get out her frustrations and I would silently hate her. I wonder if anyone has ever wondered why I was so quiet and reserved all of the time. They all just assumed I was shy but I was afraid to speak because I was afraid everyone would see how worthless I am. It seemed like if I kept quiet no one could hate me.
I am very ashamed to admit that during my teenage years I even took up cutting because I had no other outlet for all of the frustration. My mother pushed me to the limit every single day telling me what a fuck up I was and how worthless I am to every one. To me it was both a punishment for being such a waste of life and it was a way to make my pain physical instead of emotional. I couldn't handle what I was feeling inside and I much rather see it carved into my arms and legs. I can't really tell you at what point I stopped and why but it's been years since I've even thought about cutting myself. It's not because I have a better opinion of myself because I really truly hate myself. I can tell you that during those times I never cried and now I cry way too often. I suppose it was just a release. No one ever knew what I did to myself in private. I managed to keep everything I was experiencing to myself.
As for boyfriends, my luck has been fair. They were my only source of confidance as they always thought I was wonderful and I've been proposed to several times. I broke the heart of a few and a few broke my heart. I made the mistake of falling in love with my brother's best friend and after being in love with him for 9 years he finally showed interest in me. We became way too close and he decided it was too risky and completely turned his back on me without giving me an explanation for several months. He came back years later and redid the entire situation and left me crying and feeling like a used idiot all over again. I don't know why I don't just learn. Love makes me incredibly stupid I suppose. The last boyfriend I had, I was with for 2 years. We seemed to be perfect for each other but toward the end he became very depressed and shut me out completely. When we would actually talk he would say how he would probably cheat on me if we ever married and he would say whatever he could think of to make me cry. I finally got sick of it and left him the day before my 18th birthday. Shortly after I married my current husband. The ex boyfriend called me and begged me to leave me husband to marry him instead. I don't know what the change of mind was but he harassed me and my family and friends for month to get back with him. I finally managed to cut him off completely.
At this point in my life I feel incredibly alone. My brother was always my very best friend growing up but he left when I was 16 to join the military and since then our bond has become weaker and weaker. Getting married was what broke our connection for good. I haven't seen or spoken to him for more than 10 seconds for over a year now. That feels like my biggest loss.
Every time I speak to my mother she tears me apart for getting married without her permission and blessing. She tells me how I failed everyone and broke everyone's heart. God forbid I finally do something for myself and attempt to be happy. God forbid I squirm my way out from underneath her thumb and go out on my own. I would much rather be with my cheating husband than to go back and live with her. At least here I have freedom. She wouldn't even let me leave the home to be with friends until I turned 18 and only when my brother was home visiting and went with me could I then. I sat at home day after day cleaning and being screamed at. I wasn't even a bad child. I never cussed, drank, did drugs, or slept around. I always obeyed my parents and did exceptionally well in school. I was in advanced classes all throughout school. Hell, I never even talked back to my parents. I just sat in silence while my mother screamed at me for being depressed. What the hell did I have to be happy about? The extent of my rebellion was dying my hair unnatural colors and dressing somewhat strangely. The craziest thing I ever did was get a tattoo when I turned 18. My mother decided not to speak to me for weeks after that. The only reason she didn't do worse was because my brother was home visiting and he always defended me. However, Usually whenever my father or brother tried to defend me, my mother would punish me more out of spite and to get them to shut up. They learned to just keep their mouths shut for my sake.
I remember once sitting in my bedroom working on homework the night before my 16th birthday when my mother angrily called me to her. I couldn't think of anything I did to cause her to be angry but then again, she never needed a reason. It turns out my brother told her she was too hard on me sometime during a fight they were having. He told her to shut up and went to his room. I resented how much he could get away with. I often time got slapped for saying "Okay" to my mother. Apparently agreeing is talking back. She ended up blaming me for my brother not liking her and she blamed me for the fact that my father wanted to divorce her. She threw several things at me and told me I would spend my 16th birthday locked in my room and I wasn't allowed to speak to anyone for a month.
No, I can never go back there. It would kill me.
So lately, every time I would close my eyes, without even willing it, I could see myself dying. I see my heart being run through by some unknown object. That's why I'm not surprised that right at this moment there is a pole from the back of that truck or a piece of debris or something jammed into my chest. I guess I was in a car accident with that truck and another car. I can't really open my eyes to see what has happened but where my hands lay limply in my lap, I can feel a thick liquid pouring onto them. I'm assuming that's my blood. I wonder if it's coming straight from my heart. I wonder if my heart is finally being drained of all the pain that I couldn't seem to get rid of. I'm starting to feel cold from the loss of blood but after seeing my life flash before my eyes, I really don't mind. I'm actually starting to feel better. I wonder how much time I have left? I know I'm going to die but I wonder if I'll see the face of my husband one last time before I go. I don't know if I'm going to die right here in the car of if the paramedics will manage to get me to the hospital first. I can faintly hear people screaming in the background and sirens coming from every direction.
I wonder if my mother will regret that her last words to me were "Get over yourself, you whiny little bitch," because I was sad I hadn't heard from my brother in so long. I wonder if my brother will regret ignoring my last 10 emails. I wonder if my husband will regret letting me drive to work alone on this rainy day in my car that's been known to slide so easily in the rain. Usually he drives me on days like this but today he was just too tired and more concerned with catching up on sleep. I was fine with that. I promised to drive extra carefully today. I really did too. I don't think this accident was my fault but I think I may have rolled over a few times in this tiny little sports car. This car doesn't even weigh a ton so I see why it wasn't much protection. My airbags didn't even deploy. I wonder if he would have drove me if this still would have happened. I know we would have left a few minutes later because he would have wanted to get breakfast first. I hope he doesn't blame himself.
I wonder if anyone will have regrets? I wonder if anyone will blame themselves. I hope not. I fear my funeral will be full of tears of regret and guilt instead of sadness that I am gone.
I can distantly feel hands on my shoulders, pulling me from the car. This will be the last bit of human contact I experience. I never thought my life would end like this.
User Reviews
Submitted by Ivy (user info) at 2005-05-28 02:54:00 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
You seem like a genuine person and I'm sorry that you've experienced so much pain in your life. Know that there are truly good people out there and karma has an interesting way of rewarding people for the energy they put out into this world. Have faith in yourself and beleive that you are worth more and stronger than your current situation. There are people out there who will love you unconditionally and not hurt you or take advantage of you. Put yourself out there and find those people- though you will probably get hurt again (as we all will- it's inevitable) at some point in time, you will find what you are looking for. Peace.
Submitted by podium (user info) at 2005-03-22 17:59:55 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
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Submitted by mrwolf (user info) at 2005-03-05 07:32:05 EST (#)
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Submitted by Holz (user info) at 2005-03-04 11:31:57 (#)
Ranking: 0
It's all true except for the ending (obviously). I couldn't really think of a way to make my boring life more interesting and by the end it already seemed way too long. Maybe I'll get better at this with time?
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Ouch. I'd go travelling one day without telling any of the bastards and never come back...
You have nothing to lose people wise, so why not up-root and go meet some folks elsewhere.
With regard to the writing. You have the same issue as me that you are at work, and that makes proof reading difficult. You will always get better if you keep trying. And I thought this was great.
Fiction is my favorite thing to write so...
If you want a tip on fiction then set the scene with a description of the place the character is in but make sure it doesn't take over the whole piece and make it too long, I tend to do it a coupld of times throughout the story just to remind the reader where they are.
Base the characters on yourself or someone you know to start with so that the traits are easy to remember in your own head as you are writing them.
Finally, don't think too much about the way the story is going. Your imagination will take over and the story will write itself once you have a starting point.
Submitted by Joemama (user info) at 2005-03-05 06:52:10 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
You made me think, of something, that the
playwright Arthur Miller said.......
Submitted by MrWillard (user info) at 2005-03-04 16:21:42 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Not everyone is a raging asshole. Like I keep saying, come on down to georgia and I'll take care of you.
More realistically....send me an email if you want: wavaughn.at.comcast.net
Submitted by thecaes (user info) at 2005-03-04 15:11:02 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
I've read a couple of posts like this lately. I fear my spirit is being crushed.
Wish I could help you, but you seem to be doing pretty well on your own.
Submitted by girlintheworld (user info) at 2005-03-04 13:40:13 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
http://www.ubersite.com/m/50548
Sorry for the linkwhore, but you might understand.
Submitted by Holz (user info) at 2005-03-04 13:35:45 EST (#)
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Submitted by Professional_Peon (user info) at 2005-03-04 13:21:59 (#)
Ranking: 2
See I knew you could do it.
*thumbs up*
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Submitted by ess-arr (user info) at 2005-03-04 12:57:28 (#)
Ranking: 2
+2 Holl
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Thank you!!
Submitted by Professional_Peon (user info) at 2005-03-04 13:21:59 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
See I knew you could do it.
*thumbs up*
Submitted by ess-arr (user info) at 2005-03-04 12:57:28 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
+2 Holl
Submitted by Holz (user info) at 2005-03-04 12:24:55 EST (#)
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Submitted by Stin (user info) at 2005-03-04 12:07:21 (#)
Ranking: 2
"I'm not really concerned with people calling me a pity whore. You'll get that from people even if you're just feeling depressed one day. I just felt like mixing fiction with non-fiction because I thought it would be somewhat interesting. I say, write what you feel like writing. Sometimes it's good to get shit out for yourself. If you do ever need to vent and you don't want to put it up on here, feel free to email me. klepto.kitty at mad.scientist dot com."
Honey, I vent a lot on here; I'm somewhat known for it. I just do it in little chunks, post by post. Check it out sometime. Thanks for your offer; it goes both ways. clcampion.at.hotmail.com
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I have checked out some of your stuff but that was when I did my linkwhore post and I read a huge amount of posts that day. I remember specifically liking something about yours so I added you to my favorites to go back to.
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Submitted by Teephphah (user info) at 2005-03-04 12:06:15 (#)
Ranking: 2
Fuck . . .
This is going to sound really corny and cheesy and all of that, but I think you and I have very similar souls. You've been through a HELL of a lot more than I have, no question. I've actually had a very blessed life, whereas you've been delt you a really, really, really shit hand. And I'm sorry.
You're being accused here of holding on to things that hurt you. That's probably true. But I do it too. And I don't know why, either.
Man. I just wish I could think of something to say to cheer you up . . . without somehow taking advantage of the vulnerability you are sharing. Without seeming like "I'm busting a move."
I want to "help" you somehow . . . but I have trouble even helping myself. Besides that, it sounds like you, intermittently at least, are doing a pretty good job of taking care of yourself.
All I can say is that I personally love reading your stuff. Then agian, I'm an emotion whore.
At least you know that some anonymous name out in the aether would miss you.
Keep your head up and please keep writing.
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As for the piece itself, BEING an emotion whore, I could have done without the fictional ending. I thought it was fairly easy to tell what parts were, and what parts weren't real. The sincerity just wasn't there in the fictional parts, and they didn't really shine for me for that reason (again, see: emotion whore). The only interesting part for me there was being able to see how someone whose been through all you have would fantasize about their own death. (Why being pierced through the heart by a pole? - for example.)
And Caul is right, there is a real "martyr" feel to the ending, although it appears to be martydom without a cause.
Speaking of Caul, that quote at the end of his reply . . . I loved it. It reminds me of a couple lines from the song "Coolidge" by the Descendents.
"I looked up one day and saw . . . it was up to me:
You can only be a victim if you admit defeat.
(Don't admit defeat.)
I love that song.
-Teephphah
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Honestly, Your encouragment is one of the reasons I've stayed here and tried to write again instead of running away for fear of being bashed. I guess I should accept that some people like fiction, some like non-fiction and no matter what, someone is going to hate my work. I think I'll just continue to write whatever strikes me and hope that someone enjoys it.
"Why being pierced through the heart by a pole?" When my husband cheated, all of the pain I felt was centered in my heart so I felt that the destruction of my heart would be the only thing to ease the pain but now I realize that time will heal me even though it may take a while.
And don't worry about cheering me up. Things get better every day. Life is full of ups and downs and I know I will be depressed on and off throughout life but overall I am pleased with where my life is going. I plan to have a nice house and children and all of that someday. Despite my past, I am determined to have a good life and I've been giving the opportunity to have a lovely life.
Submitted by Dannie (user info) at 2005-03-04 12:14:46 EST (#)
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Submitted by Stin (user info) at 2005-03-04 12:07:21 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
"I'm not really concerned with people calling me a pity whore. You'll get that from people even if you're just feeling depressed one day. I just felt like mixing fiction with non-fiction because I thought it would be somewhat interesting. I say, write what you feel like writing. Sometimes it's good to get shit out for yourself. If you do ever need to vent and you don't want to put it up on here, feel free to email me. klepto.kitty at mad.scientist dot com."
Honey, I vent a lot on here; I'm somewhat known for it. I just do it in little chunks, post by post. Check it out sometime. Thanks for your offer; it goes both ways. clcampion.at.hotmail.com
Submitted by Teephphah (user info) at 2005-03-04 12:06:15 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Fuck . . .
This is going to sound really corny and cheesy and all of that, but I think you and I have very similar souls. You've been through a HELL of a lot more than I have, no question. I've actually had a very blessed life, whereas you've been delt you a really, really, really shit hand. And I'm sorry.
You're being accused here of holding on to things that hurt you. That's probably true. But I do it too. And I don't know why, either.
Man. I just wish I could think of something to say to cheer you up . . . without somehow taking advantage of the vulnerability you are sharing. Without seeming like "I'm busting a move."
I want to "help" you somehow . . . but I have trouble even helping myself. Besides that, it sounds like you, intermittently at least, are doing a pretty good job of taking care of yourself.
All I can say is that I personally love reading your stuff. Then agian, I'm an emotion whore.
At least you know that some anonymous name out in the aether would miss you.
Keep your head up and please keep writing.
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As for the piece itself, BEING an emotion whore, I could have done without the fictional ending. I thought it was fairly easy to tell what parts were, and what parts weren't real. The sincerity just wasn't there in the fictional parts, and they didn't really shine for me for that reason (again, see: emotion whore). The only interesting part for me there was being able to see how someone whose been through all you have would fantasize about their own death. (Why being pierced through the heart by a pole? - for example.)
And Caul is right, there is a real "martyr" feel to the ending, although it appears to be martydom without a cause.
Speaking of Caul, that quote at the end of his reply . . . I loved it. It reminds me of a couple lines from the song "Coolidge" by the Descendents.
"I looked up one day and saw . . . it was up to me:
You can only be a victim if you admit defeat.
(Don't admit defeat.)
I love that song.
-Teephphah
Submitted by polyamorousaj (user info) at 2005-03-04 11:57:41 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by Holz (user info) at 2005-03-04 11:57:24 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
Submitted by Kraven (user info) at 2005-03-04 11:45:58 (#)
Ranking: 1
It didnt make me smile, but i will still give it a positive rating. Was well written and i think sometimes expressing how you feel by writing helps sooooo so much.. I hope things do turn out better for you.
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I agree. I used to write a lot of poetry to help me deal but I know better than to post that here. I am doing much better now, Thank you.
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Submitted by Badlands (user info) at 2005-03-04 11:40:42 (#)
Ranking: 1
Submitted by Holz (user info) at 2005-03-04 11:31:57 (#)
Ranking: 0
It's all true except for the ending (obviously). I couldn't really think of a way to make my boring life more interesting and by the end it already seemed way too long. Maybe I'll get better at this with time?
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I think you're already very good at it. It isn't easy to put painful pieces of your past down on paper in a coherent manner and evoke emotion in others. Keep at it. (and keep your chin up)...you're talented.
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I really appreciate that. I'll see if I can come up with something completely fiction next time. I have trouble writing fiction for some reason so I was trying to ease into it with this post.
Submitted by TigerLilly (user info) at 2005-03-04 11:53:55 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
This is so very sad.
Submitted by Holz (user info) at 2005-03-04 11:50:14 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
Submitted by Caulaincourt (user info) at 2005-03-04 11:36:11 (#)
Ranking: -2
You remind me of someone close to me. His life is always worse than everyone. He complains over and over that everybody hates him when he's the one who keeps contact with detractors and people who don't give a shit about him.
I was lucky enough to have a rather normal life so I may look like I'm speaking through my hat.
But I have friends who had it really shitty. Who were subjected to excruciating events. Yet, they are happy.
I have no compassion for you since this displays you as a martyr, but life is a bit more complicated than that.
Like we say in frog: In most cases, if there is a scourger, it's because someone allows himself to be a victim.
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I am actually quite happy with life. Most of this took place before I turned 18 and had the freedom to make my life better. Right now, I have an awesome job and I am actually getting along with my husband perfectly. I don't really have a lot of friends but I spend every spare moment doing something I enjoy because I feel like sitting in boredom is a huge waste of life. So if I'm not working, I'm doing something I enjoy. I mainly just felt like writing something that was both fiction and non-fiction. I feel like I have much more control of my life right now than I did before I turned 18. I know if my husband hurts me again, that will be my fault but right now we're happy together so I figure I'll just ride it while it's still good.
Anyway, I agree with you and maybe I'll write something more upbeat next time.
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Submitted by Stin (user info) at 2005-03-04 11:32:28 (#)
Ranking: 2
That's the kind of account I've resisted from writing because I didn't want to be accused of being a pity whore and a whining bitch. It may yet come to you. If it does, stay strong.
Good luck with moving onwards in your life.
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I'm not really concerned with people calling me a pity whore. You'll get that from people even if you're just feeling depressed one day. I just felt like mixing fiction with non-fiction because I thought it would be somewhat interesting. I say, write what you feel like writing. Sometimes it's good to get shit out for yourself. If you do ever need to vent and you don't want to put it up on here, feel free to email me. klepto.kitty at mad.scientist dot com.
Submitted by Kraven (user info) at 2005-03-04 11:45:58 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
It didnt make me smile, but i will still give it a positive rating. Was well written and i think sometimes expressing how you feel by writing helps sooooo so much.. I hope things do turn out better for you.
Submitted by Badlands (user info) at 2005-03-04 11:40:42 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
Submitted by Holz (user info) at 2005-03-04 11:31:57 (#)
Ranking: 0
It's all true except for the ending (obviously). I couldn't really think of a way to make my boring life more interesting and by the end it already seemed way too long. Maybe I'll get better at this with time?
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I think you're already very good at it. It isn't easy to put painful pieces of your past down on paper in a coherent manner and evoke emotion in others. Keep at it. (and keep your chin up)...you're talented.
Submitted by tidalfae (user info) at 2005-03-04 11:36:19 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
i liked the distant feel to the recollections, it set the mood really well
Submitted by Caulaincourt (user info) at 2005-03-04 11:36:11 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
You remind me of someone close to me. His life is always worse than everyone. He complains over and over that everybody hates him when he's the one who keeps contact with detractors and people who don't give a shit about him.
I was lucky enough to have a rather normal life so I may look like I'm speaking through my hat.
But I have friends who had it really shitty. Who were subjected to excruciating events. Yet, they are happy.
I have no compassion for you since this displays you as a martyr, but life is a bit more complicated than that.
Like we say in frog: In most cases, if there is a scourger, it's because someone allows himself to be a victim.
Submitted by Stin (user info) at 2005-03-04 11:32:28 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
That's the kind of account I've resisted from writing because I didn't want to be accused of being a pity whore and a whining bitch. It may yet come to you. If it does, stay strong.
Good luck with moving onwards in your life.
Submitted by Holz (user info) at 2005-03-04 11:31:57 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
Submitted by Nvtro (user info) at 2005-03-04 11:28:27 (#)
Ranking: 1
Killing yourself is selfish.
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That's why I haven't done it.
Submitted by Badlands (user info) at 2005-03-04 11:26:24 (#)
Ranking: 1
Wow. Whole lot of information there. If it's autobiographical, I really feel for you.
In terms of the piece itself, I found it somehat interesting but thought it could have been much more engrossing had you focused on a specific event or relationship and fleshed it out. Overall, not too bad.
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It's all true except for the ending (obviously). I couldn't really think of a way to make my boring life more interesting and by the end it already seemed way too long. Maybe I'll get better at this with time?
Submitted by Nvtro (user info) at 2005-03-04 11:28:27 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
Killing yourself is selfish.
Submitted by Holz (user info) at 2005-03-04 11:26:58 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
Submitted by ruthless (user info) at 2005-03-04 11:25:22 (#)
Ranking: 2
Well, I am giving you a plus two for the writing, because this is well written.
I do think you should leave the bastard.
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I agree that I should leave him.
Submitted by Badlands (user info) at 2005-03-04 11:26:24 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
Wow. Whole lot of information there. If it's autobiographical, I really feel for you.
In terms of the piece itself, I found it somehat interesting but thought it could have been much more engrossing had you focused on a specific event or relationship and fleshed it out. Overall, not too bad.
Submitted by ruthless (user info) at 2005-03-04 11:25:22 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Well, I am giving you a plus two for the writing, because this is well written.
I do think you should leave the bastard.
Submitted by Holz (user info) at 2005-03-04 11:24:25 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
Submitted by Coyote (user info) at 2005-03-04 11:18:40 (#)
Ranking: 0
Will it push you over the edge if I point out that "I wonder if he would have drove me if this still would have happened" is possibly the most poorly crafted sentence I've read all year?
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There's no edge to push me over honestly. I didn't have much of a chance to edit it since I'm at work so I'm sure it's full of poorly crafted sentences. Sorry about that.
Submitted by GodLovesALittleLovin (user info) at 2005-03-04 11:16:39 (#)
Ranking: 1
slightly above average. Lost my interest a few times.
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Since most of it is non-fiction I can see that. It's hard to keep my life story interesting when it's all been so incredibly boring.
Submitted by wookie (user info) at 2005-03-04 11:15:16 (#)
Ranking: 2
Cut off all future contact with your mother.
I always told myself I would do that growing up but for some reason I can't bring myself to do it.
Submitted by Circe (user info) at 2005-03-04 11:21:37 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
Well. That was... a whole lot of information.
I liked the ending, though. It was the best part.
Submitted by Coyote (user info) at 2005-03-04 11:18:40 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
Will it push you over the edge if I point out that "I wonder if he would have drove me if this still would have happened" is possibly the most poorly crafted sentence I've read all year?
Submitted by GodLovesALittleLovin (user info) at 2005-03-04 11:16:39 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
slightly above average. Lost my interest a few times.
Submitted by wookie (user info) at 2005-03-04 11:15:16 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Cut off all future contact with your mother.
Submitted by Holz (user info) at 2005-03-04 11:14:31 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
Submitted by Jeanneee (user info) at 2005-03-04 11:09:03 (#)
Ranking: 2
Hey Debbie Downer, if I give you a +2 will it make you want to live?
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Of course! Actually the currently wanting to die part is mostly fictional (I don't want to die but I wouldn't mind it either) as well as the actual car accident of course. The rest is true.
Submitted by Jeanneee (user info) at 2005-03-04 11:09:03 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Hey Debbie Downer, if I give you a +2 will it make you want to live?
Submitted by Adamdidit2u (user info) at 2005-03-04 11:08:20 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
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