Maybe I'm related to Peter Pan (896 hits)
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Submitted by Lojope <lojope.at.juno.com> (View user info) at 2005-03-05 12:51:32 EST
Call me immature, and I'll say "Thank you." Tell me I act like a child and I'll say "Thank God!"
I don't want to grow up.
I want to fall back and make snow angels without common sense telling me how I'll be cold and wet for the rest of the day. I want to dance in public when there's no music playing. I want to scream at the top of my lungs when something upsets me and not care who is watching or what they will think. I want to blow my money on a ridiculous novelty item and not care because it's not like I have bills to pay anyway. I don't want to have adult responsibilities and worries and commitments and fears.
I want a new boyfriend every two weeks. I want a relationship full of excitement, the kind where your heart races when he's in the room and your face flushes when he looks at you. Where everything means something, "Oh my God his hand touched my hand, did he do that on purpose? Does that mean he likes me?" I want to whisper and giggle with my friends and send one of them over to find out how he feels. I want stolen kisses in secret and fire in my belly from just holding hands. I want to write little hearts in the margins of my notebooks and ponder in class about how my name sounds nice with his last name.
I want to say "I want to marry you" and have it be understood as a wish and not a promise. I want plans for the future that last only until a new boy smiles at me. I want breakups with heartaches that only last until the pint of Ben & Jerry's is empty.
I want Friday night sleepovers complete with Truth or Dare. I want running outside in the snow with barefeet to be the most daring thing I've ever done.
I want to ask, "How many people have you kissed?" instead of "How many have you slept with?" I want genitals to be "privates" and fucking to be "doing it." I want sex to be something we talk about under our breath, something we wonder about, something foreign and exciting and scary.
I want to be in love like I'm 13 again. When love that will "last forever" lasts for a month and nobody cares. When hurts heal faster and grudges fade instantly. When the history doesn't haunt you and "let's just be friends" can really happen. When commitement was a game, just something we tried out.
I want to live for the moment and be a child forever.
I don't want to grow up.
User Reviews
Submitted by Durae (user info) at 2005-03-07 16:01:01 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
yellow alert.
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2005-03-07 09:18:51 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
Yeah... I didn't look at the date Ashlee. Ah well.
Submitted by QueenAshlee (user info) at 2005-03-07 09:09:33 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2005-03-05 15:50:17 (#)
Ranking: 0
I really bring em out of the woodwork, don't I Zak? I wonder if he registered JUST to call me a slut...
Yeah, I'm sure he registered in April 2004, just to wait around almost a year to call you a slut.
This post seems kinda... I don't know. Whiny? I mean, from what I understand, your life is pretty damned good, especially compared with most girls your age that have children. Writing about how you wish you had something else kind of strikes a sour note somewhere.
Submitted by Demolocke (user info) at 2005-03-05 23:02:12 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by Dead_0hi0_Sky (user info) at 2005-03-05 22:38:50 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
No Comment
Submitted by myredmirage95 (user info) at 2005-03-05 22:24:18 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
I know how you feel. I'm still trying to hold onto my childhood.
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2005-03-05 15:50:17 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
I really bring em out of the woodwork, don't I Zak? I wonder if he registered JUST to call me a slut...
Submitted by zakalwe (user info) at 2005-03-05 15:07:53 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
it's a bit late. you're already a mother. i do feel exactly the same though. time to think about post-uni employment...and i don't want too.
Submitted by cuthbert (user info) at 2005-03-05 15:01:10 (#)
Ranking: -1
"I want a new boyfriend every two weeks"
Slut
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i feel a strange excitement when i see a new 8000 user. and it was his first review too. you should be honoured.
Submitted by cuthbert (user info) at 2005-03-05 15:01:10 EST (#)
Ranking: -1
"I want a new boyfriend every two weeks"
Slut
Submitted by rad1101 (user info) at 2005-03-05 14:56:50 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
*slight annoyance*
But good writing?
Submitted by Durae (user info) at 2005-03-05 14:15:21 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
"Something about it comes across as vapid. "
I got the same impression as Snark.
Submitted by Freakmagnet (user info) at 2005-03-05 13:47:13 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
I agree with Snark. I wish I could put my finger on it.
Submitted by Davros (user info) at 2005-03-05 13:36:24 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
I liked this.
Not really sure why.
Maybe it reached into my "Inner Child"
Anyhoo, +2.
-Dave
Submitted by appeaL (user info) at 2005-03-05 13:36:17 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Nice post.
Submitted by Snark (user info) at 2005-03-05 13:31:21 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Hmmmm, my previous review wasn't entirely fair so here's a plus two as an apology.
Something about this post rubs me wrong. Maybe it's all the "I want".
Maybe it just seems like the desperate plea of someone who is not happy with the choices they've made in their life.
Something about it comes across as vapid.
I wish I could put my finger on exactly what it is...
Maybe later.
Well written though.
Submitted by thecaes (user info) at 2005-03-05 13:26:44 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
What a delightful post. You got your point across really well.
Submitted by Snark (user info) at 2005-03-05 13:25:14 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
You know... it's possible to have most of that and be an adult too.
Just a thought.
Also,
I want a solid gold island in the pacific... or a blow job... whichever comes first.
Submitted by SweetBaise (user info) at 2005-03-05 13:20:27 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
I've been thinking the exact same thing recently
Submitted by mikethescottish (user info) at 2005-03-05 13:08:02 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Tsk. Women these days, it's all 'want, want, want'.