Flirting with disaster? I'm kissing the apocalypse! (724 hits)
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Submitted by rollerboognish (View user info) at 2005-03-06 17:04:24 EST
-dedicated to Shi-Kuo Chang-
I walked out on her last night. There was nothing else I could do. Every word, glance or movement raised the pitch of the argument, already a deafening threat to sanity. One more sob, one more scream, one more fucking accusation, and something much worse would have happened.
I've done everything I can think of to calm myself down. There isn't a square inch of this room that isn't covered in shreds of paper, shards of glass, broken furniture. I am a caged beast, and I've never been farther from recognizing myself. I swore it was a demon I saw seething at me from the mirror, so I got my rifle and shot six holes in it.
I've spent the last seven hours mutilating all the memorabilia, garishly twisting and rending every cherished gift and symbol, making ghastly caricatures of our special words and moments. I intended to show her all this, to mock her with it, but I won't be so juvenile. I have a better idea. I have an idea that will be better for everyone.
You have to understand, our love was perfect. To describe it would be to defame it. No story, song or film has ever done it justice. More importantly, I had faith in our love. The kind of faith that starts holy wars and genocides.
The nervous energy in my body has nowhere to go. It has crushed everything in its vicinity and it won't be exhausted. I won't sleep tonight. I will build a monument. I'll make something that everyone can see, so that everyone will remember me and my lesson: Love was my God, and God is dead. But what difference will a monument make in a world where permanence is only as long as an attention span? I won't build a monument; I'll dig a hole.
I nearly send the telephone flying off the table when I pick up the receiver. My adrenaline-powered fingers are like jackhammers on the buttons. I jab, and the flimsy keypad cracks. Still, I hear it dialing, and a voice greets me. The demon I saw moments ago speaks now.
"Trigger the attack."
"You- But- I don't understand! Things have been so quiet lately, I haven't even heard any-"
"Do it. I'm telling you, man, it's all over. Do it now, or we're fucked. We're fucked either way."
He hesitates. He knows who I am, and he knows he has no choice. We both know there's no way our country - or any other - will survive what I'm ordering him to start. He doesn't know that that's the point.
"Yes, sir."
Over the phone, I hear the countdown begin. I give us about 24 hours, if we're lucky. The fundamentally crippled human race will be euthanized. No more children will come into being and have to discover for themselves the impossibility of love. I have done what nature has been aching in anticipation for since the beginning of time. I am the savior, and she, she is my creator. She...
Oh, Jesus Christ. I just know as soon as she turns on the TV and sees the news, she'll call me and tell me I've overreacted.
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Submitted by ETS (user info) at 2005-03-31 15:13:48 EST (#)
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Submitted by darko (user info) at 2005-03-09 14:38:23 EST (#)
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this post was a bit too smart for the likes of uber.
Submitted by Holz (user info) at 2005-03-09 14:30:00 EST (#)
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Submitted by Jeanneee (user info) at 2005-03-09 14:17:37 EST (#)
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kick-ass
Submitted by JonnyX (user info) at 2005-03-09 14:08:55 EST (#)
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cool.
make it longer though - I want more words dangit!
Submitted by rollerboognish (user info) at 2005-03-07 02:23:42 EST (#)
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ass.
Submitted by static416 (user info) at 2005-03-07 01:38:14 EST (#)
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Trigger the attack?
What?
I don........
OOOHHH!! He's the PRESIDENT!!!!!
NOW I get it!
Interesting. Veeeeeeeeeeerrrryy interesting.
Submitted by rollerboognish (user info) at 2005-03-07 00:30:52 EST (#)
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Damn, I've gotten "not too shabby" on two of my recent posts. Next time I'm going for "not shabby enough."
Submitted by olivia_tremor_control (user info) at 2005-03-06 19:00:41 EST (#)
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Submitted by shibby (user info) at 2005-03-06 18:22:41 EST (#)
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not too shabby
that is all