To those who don't know me (730 hits)
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Submitted by lessthanfour <ossum.at.ossum.dot.net> (View user info) at 2005-03-28 04:29:49 EST
To those who don't know me: I am a bad person.
Perhaps that is a bit harsh, but it's close enough to the truth for me. A lot of people would try to hide it; pretend they're normal, put on the Ken and Barbie faces and head out into the world, smiling and nodding and laughing and hoping to god they can keep themselves in check. I prefer to be up front about it. It's much more my style. So consider yourself warned: I'm a bad person.
Don't get me wrong, now. I'm not evil. I'm not Hitler, trying to extinguish an entire culture from the earth. No, my style is much more subtle, much more refined. I prefer to take my victims one at a time. I painstakingly burrow my way into their lives until they don't know what to do without me, and I feed on the love and desire and dependance and sex. I feed and use and take until there's nothing left.
Then I move on.
Hitler was a butcher. I, however, am a craftsman.
Sometimes I realize what I'm doing, and have second thoughts. In a desperate moment of clarity I see how... wrong what I'm doing is, and I stop. I see how they love and depend and respect me, and how precarious their balance is, how they are teetering on the edge and are blissfully unaware of how everything is going to crumble beneath them. In that one desperate moment I am a good person, and I know right from wrong (and more importantly, give a fuck about the distinction). My flaws go into recession, in that one desperate moment.
Fortunately, moments pass. I don't know how I'd live with myself, otherwise.
Sometimes it amazes, and almost scares, me when I think back on the ruined lives I've left in my wake. Faces and names which were once so important are grey and faded; conquests which no longer matter. Old wounds which once seemed life threatening are now barely visible scars. The scent of a perfume which was once my favorite now barely triggers any memory at all.
But I'm getting tired. Tired of using and taking and feeding. And the desperate moments are turning into desperate hours. And pretty soon I'm going to go to sleep. When I wake up, I will get what I deserve and remember all the faces (and how they looked when I left), and all the names (they will be chanted in my ears ceaselessly), and I will smell her perfume for all of eternity (the vomit clogs my nostrils but I can still smell it). But first, I'll write a note for whoever finds me. I've even got the perfect first line.
"To those who don't know me: I am a bad person."
User Reviews
Submitted by shitfuck (user info) at 2005-05-21 13:26:49 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
less than negative two :(
Submitted by bulldog (user info) at 2005-05-21 13:15:52 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
Go take your test that you're late for, fail it miserably, get totally depressed, and drive into a Mack truck. Really fast.
Submitted by Feijuada (user info) at 2005-05-21 12:57:46 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
this soxxorzed teh ballzorz
Submitted by lessthanfour (user info) at 2005-05-21 12:47:47 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
No, I've never read it.. I've heard of it in reference but I don't know what it's about. Should I check it out?
Submitted by Istaros (user info) at 2005-05-04 23:20:29 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
pretty common, actually. have you read Wilde's The Picture of Dorian Gray?
Submitted by polyamorousaj (user info) at 2005-05-04 23:11:49 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
word
Submitted by Lisa (user info) at 2005-05-04 23:08:12 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
You go to my school, don't you?
Submitted by corn_nugget (user info) at 2005-05-04 22:51:48 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
JESUS man.
Fucking shit.
That hit a chord. God damn it... "you" are the person I fear. I was staring at your post, in shock, thinking "Woah, did *so and so* write this??".
Yes, the writing was great, it envoked feelings, and wow.
Submitted by lessthanfour (user info) at 2005-03-28 13:24:29 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
People, I plea to you:
Despite what the writings of several popular uberusers would lead you to believe, I have a shocking relevation for you: Ubersite is not a blog! It is a place to post writings. Some of these writings are certiainly true. However, here is a literary style, it used to be somewhat in vogue.. I believe it's called... fiction? Fiction. Right. It's when something that isn't true is told as if it were. Sometimes these stories are told in the first person setting, and are based in reality, and may even incorporate real things (exciting I know!), but that does not make these stories real.
My sarcasm well just ran dry, and I'm late for a test, so enjoy your reading.
P.S. Yes I'm really dead.
Submitted by olivia_tremor_control (user info) at 2005-03-28 12:06:42 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by Jeanneee (user info) at 2005-03-28 10:48:11 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
Borderline Personality Disorder
Submitted by rad1101 (user info) at 2005-03-28 09:01:35 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
funny how people cannot seperate the author from the protag.
Submitted by TheSpook (user info) at 2005-03-28 08:19:45 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
+2 for using everyone. It's the only way anything gets done.
Submitted by munkeypants (user info) at 2005-03-28 08:03:07 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by Natsukau (user info) at 2005-03-28 07:37:46 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
Bad? I'm not sure. Retarded? Quite possible.
Submitted by knucklesnelson (user info) at 2005-03-28 07:16:53 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
good for you
Submitted by Faith (user info) at 2005-03-28 05:59:21 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
The negative ranking is for sounding like you could be my ex. Otherwise, good writing.
Submitted by DanielH (user info) at 2005-03-28 05:47:11 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Faces and names which were once so important are grey and faded; conquests which no longer matter.
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Becoming jaded is not the "Less Than Zero" most make of it, everyone is a vampire in that respect. There are many terrible masks we wear, but the most treacherous is the mask of virtue. You've taken yours off (at least here). Try doing so in real life.
Become what it is you were meant to be, but in full honesty and without a mask. Find others of your kind. They are out there, their name is Legion.
Submitted by Ivy (user info) at 2005-03-28 05:41:50 EST (#)
Ranking: -1
Yes, remember how thier faces looked when you left, cause believe me, you are a distant memory in their minds as well, and they have probably long since moved on and have you to thank for teaching them to grow and become stronger. "Ruined lives you left in your wake?" Please. Girls never make the same mistakes twice. Each new boyfriend his hotter, smarter, funnier, cooler, and just better than the last. I'm sure they'd thank you if they had the chance.
-2 because you're a bad person.
+1 because the writing's not bad.
Submitted by Avals (user info) at 2005-03-28 05:11:48 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Woah... Harsh, man. Totally harsh.
You aren't really ... dead, are you? Cause that would be a total bummer. Like, totally!
Submitted by FuckTheArmy (user info) at 2005-03-28 05:05:46 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
I am not a bad person.
Submitted by PoloboiGC (user info) at 2005-03-28 04:35:03 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Better to be what you are then to get trampled used and walk all over..
I was you became a nice guy and am regretting it.
Man stay the fuck way you are.. I'm going back to my former self... peace