My Show Goes On (689 hits)
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Submitted by Banga3386 <tanzia682.at.aol.com> (View user info) at 2005-04-04 05:39:28 EDT
Spring nights, too beautiful to describe, bring me to the place of true peace. The sounds of the Squirrel Nut Zippers' Hell, the Yeah Yeah Yeah's Maps, Sarah McLaughlan's Sweet Surrender, Big Head Todd and the Monsters' Resignation Superman, Anthrax's Black Lodge, and especially the bridge to The Cure's Just Like Heaven fill my ears and heart and set me on the course of relaxation, relief, and ease as my mind is at rest. The only things at work are my emotions, which are running on all cylinders.
With every breath I take in all that is around and inside me: The damp cool air, the smell of my house, my room, and my love. The gentle breeze reminds me of times past, the present, and what can happen on nights like this, even if I do nothing other than enjoy the atmosphere. Every factor in this night seems to work with one another to make it all perfect. My chair is more comfortable, my drink is more refreshing, my smoke tastes better, even the pen in my hand seems to connect directly with my heart to spill it all out onto my paper.
Yes, to say that I am happy would be a gross understatement.
For the first time in my life, I finally have a nice chunk of change saved up to do with it what I please. I have some debts to pay and some to be paid back to me but I will still end up completely on top of my game. To say that money is the reason for my happiness is a misunderstanding, instead the joy and the complacency comes from finally being able to see some of the hard work I've put out coming back to me in a very positive way.
"The Show Must Go On" by Queen is the single greatest song I have ever heard. I have made that title my mantra in life. No matter how bad things have gotten or how low I have sank mentally, emotionally, or otherwise, I still fight and find even the smallest sliver of strength to carry on and complete the task or overcome the obstacle in my way. Which is not to say that I finish everything I start by any means; to me it means to personally keep going and make the right decisions for myself. I have always been more than willing to help my fellow man more than myself, which is the cause for a great number of my troubles.
(Thanks to Uber, I put everything on a +/-2 scale) If the risk of reaction to my actions are -0.75 or lower, I don not participate. Anything higher than that and I will do whatever I can.
I once gave a girlfriend a 3 tier stacker ring; she didn't have room for one of the bands so I wore it. After we split I still continued to wear it. I still wear it as a reminder of all the things done to me and more importantly all the mistakes I've made. When I look at it I remember "Don't Do Stupid Shit" which can be interpreted and applied to as many things and situations as humanly possible. This little crappy ring and that amazing song have saved me and set me straight more times that I will know.
So on this beautiful Spring night, I look forward to the future, both distant and near, not because of the wonderfully positive mood I am in but because I finally have the right frame of mind to do so.
User Reviews
Submitted by Jungle_Jimanee (user info) at 2005-04-15 07:54:11 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Contentment is great.
Submitted by pen_name (user info) at 2005-04-15 07:26:51 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
wow, +2 for not being full of shit!
Submitted by ICO (user info) at 2005-04-07 14:11:26 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Well, if anything you gave my weary adrenaline some rest. Is that how you spell it? Weary?
Submitted by munkeypants (user info) at 2005-04-04 16:30:55 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
say no to bitmaps.
Submitted by Smoothe (user info) at 2005-04-04 13:50:10 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
wow. Your positivity really rubbed of on me. Umm...did I just say 'rubbed off on me'?
Submitted by BLITZKREIG_BOB (user info) at 2005-04-04 09:33:49 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
(Thanks to Uber, I put everything on a +/-2 scale) If the risk of reaction to my actions are -0.75 or lower, I don not participate. Anything higher than that and I will do whatever I can.
AAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAA!
Nerd.
Submitted by hobbs (user info) at 2005-04-04 08:06:32 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by Viciousriffs (user info) at 2005-04-04 06:53:03 (#)
Ranking: 2
I dig your perspective, man.
Submitted by Viciousriffs (user info) at 2005-04-04 06:53:03 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I dig your perspective, man.
Submitted by apollo88 (user info) at 2005-04-04 06:10:18 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
yeah, i took an E at the weekend too.