I, Human part 3: Confusion (509 hits)
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Submitted by A-Daamage (View user info) at 2005-04-05 05:01:17 EDT
http://www.ubersite.com/m/62726 - part 1: Desolation
http://www.ubersite.com/m/62785 - part 2: Passion
It's 3 AM on a Tuesday morning, I have class at 9:30 and I'm not even close to sleepy. I'm starting to feel detached lately. Sometimes it's like I'm a character in a novel with no author, being moved along by the words on the page, not having any true control or perception. I look around, feeling my eyes roll in their sockets to where I aim them, but all the while I feel like I'm being written. Perhaps closer the heart of the feeling, I don't feel like I'm being controlled by someone or something else, merely that control isn't mine to have. I'm having a very difficult time articulating this, mostly due to the fact that I'm trying to describe a feeling that I have never heard or read put into words. As usual in this case, as most of humanity has done as long as it has been able to express itself, I have to revert to metaphors. Looking back at what I've just written, it starts to appear that I'm saying that some other force is controlling me, and that is definitely not what I'm trying to say. Urgh, this is tougher than I thought it would be. Hmm.... I'm starting to feel like a computer program that was initialized and is waiting for the proper command to begin running and the user simply left without entering the command. Damnit, that still sounds like I'm saying there is some other force involved and that's not how I feel, although the analogy is somewhat close to the mark of the feeling.
I see, I hear, I taste, I touch, I sense. I record, I remember, I feel. I talk, I listen, I understand. I shout, I cry, I laugh, I lie. I am here, I am here, I am HERE.
....aren't I?
"Come on, I know I exist. I KNOW it." - Bill Hicks
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Submitted by Wrightcopy (user info) at 2005-10-19 14:11:53 EDT (#)
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Submitted by A-Daamage (user info) at 2005-04-19 01:38:31 EDT (#)
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Hey, I'm working on one right now, but I only have so much time. I have college, work, projects for class that can only be done outside of class, various dealings with local bands, and one maybe two days out of the week for free time to spend with friends/finish personal projects, such as these posts. The next one will be posted soon, but you have to allow me time.
Submitted by ruthless (user info) at 2005-04-18 17:06:36 EDT (#)
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So... get to work! :)
Submitted by A-Daamage (user info) at 2005-04-18 02:46:28 EDT (#)
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Exactly. This may take far longer than I originally planned.
Submitted by ruthless (user info) at 2005-04-15 12:48:28 EDT (#)
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Well I think that's a great idea, and I am interested to see where it will go... good luck finishing it, though. I think that trying to describe every facet of a human is like trying to count the stars.
Submitted by A-Daamage (user info) at 2005-04-14 23:55:08 EDT (#)
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They are not related. They are my attempt to describe the human experience from every facet possible. Some are fiction, some are not. My hope is that they will add up to encompass the human condition as a sort of abstract embodiment. A sort of human archetype that does not define what it describes but is defined but what describes it. I don't know if I will ever finish it as I'm unsure just how many facets there are to the human psyche. It's interesting to me however, and I'm going to seriously try to finish it.
Submitted by ruthless (user info) at 2005-04-14 17:49:21 EDT (#)
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Ok, I was thinking that these were supposed to be related... apparently they are not individual parts of a story, but more of stream of consciousness writing with the common thread being emotion? Tell me how far off base I am.
Submitted by A-Daamage (user info) at 2005-04-05 06:00:24 EDT (#)
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Actually, I don't touch the stuff. I drink a few beers every now and then, but that's about it.
Submitted by SyntaxZero (user info) at 2005-04-05 05:51:54 EDT (#)
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too much pot.
lay off the week for a few days, you'll be fine