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Submitted by Harvey (View user info) at 2005-05-17 11:09:22 EDT
How have we made it to this point? How could we go from what we had to this, and so quickly. For a while, everything was beautiful. Now there is nothing. I loved you, still do really, but that's another story altogether, and now all we do is argue. It seems like the only way we can talk for more than five fucking minutes these days is if we have something to bitch about. You can say it is all me, I really don't care. But if it's going to be all my fault, I will take advantage.
You tell me now that all you want is to make me happy. Being with you, being nice to you, loving you is what makes me happy. The only thing you had to do to make me happy was be there with me. It didn't even matter where, I just wanted to be with you. All I ever tried to do was keep you happy.
Finally, it seems you have figured out the one thing I thought was apparent the whole time. You said it almost perfectly. I don't like for people to get close to me. The people who know most things about me know because I have told them or they were there with me to experience them firsthand. There is no reason to get close to lots of people. When too many people know too much about you, bad things can happen. You can never really tell who out of your friends is not who you think they are until it is too late. Besides that, I hate for people to be talking about me. Keep my name out of your mouth and I promise, I can do the same. When someone I have not talked to comes to me and brings up something I never said to them, it infuriates me. All that aside, you managed to make it into the select few I would have considered my closest friends. That is a very small list. My trust is extremely limited. I've done my best to narrow it down from all the people I know to this point, and so far, I have only really been wrong once, and it took you to show that to me. That is not to say you're that one person, because you know, just as well as I, what the fuck I am talking about on this one. Whose to say that, with a little more time, that list won't find its way into single digits.
For a long time, you were the exception to my rule. For some reason that remains beyond me, I was remarkably comfortable with you, as you were with me. For me, this is basically unheard of. Girls just do not want to hang out with me and do the things that I do. For weeks, we did the same thing. We always met at the same damn party, had a few drinks and then snuck off for the inevitable bowl. Bowl after bowl after bowl after bowl. We would spend hours just talking and smoking. For the longest time, we didn't even kiss, but I still liked spending my time with you. Then it got a little more serious. A whole lot of people found out it was getting serious about the same time I did. Kind of noticeable on a crowded dance floor, but it was great, I'm glad it happened. I consider that part of our relationship, but you maintain to this day that we weren't serious then and claim that nothing you did should have led me to believe anything else. I just found that out a couple days ago. Good to know...wait, not really...fuck
Whether we were or were not at that point is irrelevant. Very shortly after that night, it became official. The more time I spent with you, the more time I wanted to spend with you. The first part of our relationship was amazing. We kept the craziest fucking hours, late nights and early mornings were almost an everyday thing for a while. I don't think I've ever had so much fun with any one person, but it was great. Every night was another movie I don't remember, nothing important enough to take me eyes off of you. I could look into your eyes until mine dried up. There is no way to explain how happy being with you made me, holding you close to me until we both eventually drifted off to sleep. One of my favorite things about spending my nights with you was waking up to the sound of your voice, running my fingertips across your smooth, cool skin or just lightly through your hair, and grinning the smile I can't keep inside as I open my eyes to see the first light of my day reflected off your smiling eyes. There really is no feeling like waking up beside someone you love. I can't even tell you how many times I would wake up during those nights, but I never had trouble getting back to sleep. Every time, I would just take a good look at you, close my eyes and smile as I gave you just the littlest kiss. You never woke up and I always fell right back asleep. There's something in the way you fit when you lay next to me.
The moral of this story is that I fucked up. I broke my own rule, I let someone I didn't really know get close to me. Don't get me wrong though, it was one of the greatest mistakes I ever made. Given the chance, I would make every decision over again. Nothing would change. I don't know how I was so ready to love you. That just doesn't really happen. I wanted nothing else. You're the coolest girl I've met in a long time now, and at the time, you seemed to love me too. A beautiful girl with the same feeling you have can never be a bad thing. But now that feeling has subsided and we are left with nothing. You've been to my house once since, and that was only about a week afterwards. You're more or less a ghost around here. Much the same can be said about me around your abode. For a while, we were almost inseparable, now I couldn't pay for your company. You used to like to be with me, now you're always busy, some important shenanigan at hand. There's no time, no energy, no reason for me to be around. Whether I am here or there, you're going to have something to do. And just like with my other 'friends', I am on the outside, only I'm not looking in. You keep your actions concealed from me, I don't know if you're trying, but it's happening. I used to care about you more than I care about myself, now I couldn't do that even if I wanted to. I let you in and put every emotion I had into our relationship, and I'm left with nothing. If I try to be nice, you tell me I'm getting the wrong idea. You say you want to be friends, but when I try to be friends, you think something is up. This is why I don't let people get close to me. I used to love spending time with you, now I don't see you. I used to love talking to you, now we don't talk, we yell. I used to love sleeping with you, now I sleep alone, if at all.
You say you just want me to be happy, but that doesn't look like it going happen. What I want is you. I want to spend time with you. I want to make you smile so I can see how your cheeks make your eyes sparkle when they move. I want to sleep with you. I want to wake up next to you. I want to tell you that I love you. Even more than that, I want you to want me. We used to be together every day, and now it is never. I let you under my skin, I can almost see the scars. You'll never let me love you again, and it's really fucking with me. The fact is, I do love you, even if you don't still love me, and I probably will for a long time. I realize you don't feel the same way about me as you did a few months ago, but I don't get why we can't be friends. Like I said before, you are one of the few. You know things about me no one else knows, and now it's like we've never even met.
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Submitted by jumpinjellyfish (user info) at 2005-05-17 17:41:44 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Jeanneee (user info) at 2005-05-17 11:16:06 (#)
Ranking: 1
Start stalking her. She'll come around eventually.
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I laughed...at this.
Submitted by loki (user info) at 2005-05-17 17:22:40 EDT (#)
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did anyone else think that said titties?
Submitted by TheSpook (user info) at 2005-05-17 14:00:54 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Adamdidit2u (user info) at 2005-05-17 13:38:28 (#)
Ranking: -2
Here's a hint
"Chicks don't like pansy faggots"
Pure awesome.
Submitted by Girlwithaclue (user info) at 2005-05-17 13:43:45 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
From someone who has loved like that and lost....
Brought back some pretty painful memories, but then it makes me smile because I am lucky to have loved someone like that.
You are too...
Submitted by Adamdidit2u (user info) at 2005-05-17 13:38:28 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
Here's a hint
"Chicks don't like pansy faggots"
Submitted by clumeister (user info) at 2005-05-17 13:29:41 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
Good to know...wait, not really...fuck
...this sounds all too familiar thanks for ruining my morning
Submitted by Hadooken (user info) at 2005-05-17 12:49:53 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
you need to try harder at not sucking.
Submitted by Shlongy (user info) at 2005-05-17 11:32:22 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
Your titles? They're the least of your problems.
Your posts suck even more than your titles do.
So fuck YOU.
Submitted by Phallic_Cymbals (user info) at 2005-05-17 11:30:28 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
You fuckin pansy. I hope that bitch gets raped then dies giving birth to a mutant fetus that you choose to raise because you're such an emo faggot which at the age of 10 rapes your mother and gives her the AIDS and then she gives birth to an even more mutated baby that teams up with the original mutant and they both dedicate their whole lives to laughing at your pansy faggot ass until you finally die of a broken heart and go to hell where you can watch this chick make out with convicted child molestors because she's such a dirty herpes ridden skank who isn't worth the magma semen that Satan ropes over her tits but is still woth 1000 times more than your pansy whining pussy whipped faggot emo ass.
Submitted by CookieLass (user info) at 2005-05-17 11:16:48 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
Keep brain from freezing.
-- Homer Simpson
Simpson and Delilah
Submitted by Sassmasterr (user info) at 2005-05-17 11:16:23 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by Sassmasterr (user info) at 2005-05-17 09:12:08 (#)
Ranking: 2
+2 'cause it's my berfday!
I'm 22 bitch!
http://www.ubersite.com/m/66440
Submitted by Jeanneee (user info) at 2005-05-17 11:16:06 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
Start stalking her. She'll come around eventually.
Submitted by Feijuada (user info) at 2005-05-17 11:10:04 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
Crap.