I, Human part 5: Resolution (635 hits)
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Submitted by A-Daamage (View user info) at 2005-06-14 01:05:08 EDT
http://www.ubersite.com/m/62726 - part 1: Desolation
http://www.ubersite.com/m/62785 - part 2: Passion
http://www.ubersite.com/m/63538 - part 3: Confusion
http://www.ubersite.com/m/66740 - part 4: Decision
You know, it's amusing how nothing surprises me anymore. And despite that rather unfortunate result of a concatenation of less than favorable events, I am still sometimes amazed at my own inability to rectify my behavior. I somehow still allow myself to enter into situations where that eternal grinning jester mask - hope - pokes and prods its way into my mind before I can shut it out. And as with every other situation preceding it, things fall apart and that ugly mask makes a clean getaway, laughing into the night. Oh, if only I could catch up to it, throttle it, somehow turn the tables and make it pay.... such a revenge would be priceless. Of all the qualities I am given as a human being, it is that damned vile mask that I strive to dispel myself of most. It has been the cause and catalyst of all my regret, all my pain, all those things that refuse to let go, burying their vast hooks into the soil as I struggle to outrun them, only succeeding in tightening their unyielding harness.
From now on, I will defy hope. I will cast it to the wind without a single glance in its direction. I will work hard, I will earn my way, and I will do so without looking forward. All things I receive I will know came from my sweat and my will. Hope will not get past these ramparts. Without hope there is no regret, no dwelling on failure. There is only the days and nights, the hard work of man and the promise that we are born and die alone. I place no dependence on anyone but myself. Do not look to me for comfort, for I will tell you that comfort is nothing but a dodge to distract yourself from the cold reality of life. We are nothing and do not serve any great purpose. We live, we die, and nothing cares, save our own pathetic pride in ourselves. We believe we are oh-so-important, but the universe moves on with or without us on this tiny blue speck. We are the spurt of a match caught in a hurricane. When we go, nothing will notice. Nothing will notice.
"How long can this all go on? How long 'til it's over? How long 'til it all comes down? And how bad do we need a new reminder?" - Life, Devin Townsend (Ocean Machine)
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Submitted by Wrightcopy (user info) at 2005-10-19 14:24:24 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
These are good.
Submitted by A-Daamage (user info) at 2005-06-17 06:33:05 EDT (#)
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Apology NOT acce.... oh who am I kidding? I can't hold a grudge for shit. No problem, man. Thanks for the rating.
Submitted by Banga3386 (user info) at 2005-06-16 17:54:26 EDT (#)
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I was just reading an old post of yours in which you and others were discussing metal musicians; I realized what a complete pompused dickhead I was being. For that I apologise. I drink entirely too much and say stupid shit.
I just wanted to try to make amends, if you cared or give a shit.
Good day sir,
Banga
Submitted by ruthless (user info) at 2005-06-14 18:10:30 EDT (#)
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hmmm....
Submitted by Berty (user info) at 2005-06-14 17:58:34 EDT (#)
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Submitted by A-Daamage (user info) at 2005-06-14 17:37:59 (#)
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Love is fine, but the worst unhappiness is a happiness remembered, and I have some very happy memories.
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Good answer.
Submitted by A-Daamage (user info) at 2005-06-14 17:37:59 EDT (#)
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Love is fine, but the worst unhappiness is a happiness remembered, and I have some very happy memories.
Submitted by Berty (user info) at 2005-06-14 07:39:34 EDT (#)
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What of Love?
Submitted by thecaes (user info) at 2005-06-14 07:34:23 EDT (#)
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+2 for intelligence and introspection.
Submitted by A-Daamage (user info) at 2005-06-14 03:47:31 EDT (#)
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I should say the same to you, man. Keep writing and we'll keep you on most heated.
Submitted by stevie_says (user info) at 2005-06-14 03:44:23 EDT (#)
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+2 for being a trooper.
Submitted by A-Daamage (user info) at 2005-06-14 03:24:33 EDT (#)
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I like contemplating and trying to understand even just a little of this vast blackness we float through.
Submitted by simple_catalyst (user info) at 2005-06-14 02:55:13 EDT (#)
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you like existentialism?