The Evil Within (874 hits)
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Submitted by <brdn_nkd.at.yahoo.com> (View user info) at 2005-06-22 15:56:35 EDT
If you asked my family and friends if I was one of those kids who'd do anything for attention they'd tell you no. Press the issue and they might tell you a story of my unassuming innocence and contentment with life. They will be as floored by what I'm about to tell you as you will be.
Ten years ago I was a simple twelve year old boy. I got along with nearly everyone, the adults in the community would say things like "that Kyle has got his head on straight", or "have you ever met a more compassionate child?", or "Kyle is very nearly the smartest kid I've ever known". They'd say these things when they thought I couldn't hear but I always listened for them. Hearing these simple phrases of praise let me know that I was doing ok, the world around me thought I was a "good" kid. The more I heard them the better I felt knowing that they didn't know the other side of me.
The other side of me, full of darkness, brutality, anger, and hatred. I literally hated the people I wanted to please. I hated those around me who expected me to jump off my bike to help old Mrs. Scott take her groceries home when I encountered her walking home from the market. I despised the other children who came to me knowing I would be a good listener offering advice only when it was solicited. And mostly, I hated myself.
Every one of my "good deeds" required something equally nasty be done to compensate. If I walked Mrs. Scott home carrying her groceries I would, later, secretly sneak into her house while she was out in the garden or visiting with the neighbor and destroy the groceries I'd earlier helped with. If I listened to some kid lament the pain and suffering he or she was experiencing I would find a way to share their problems with other kids without compromising their trust, maybe I'd take the letter Jim gave Katie telling her he wanted to break up and accidentally drop it on the playground.
I know it's terrible but something in my nature has required some compensatory action for everything. I don't like it; I hide it keeping my dark secret locked within to ensure that no one knows how evil I truly am. To be discovered would leave me vulnerable, exposed, and primed for retribution.
I had come to terms with this part of me and had accepted that something inside me would require me to act against the very people I so often helped. What I'm saying is I was ok with this arrangement.
I was ok with it until I saved my best friends life nine years ago. We were down at the local swimming hole, a place called Hippy Hollow. Hippy Hollow was a couple of miles from town and could only be reached by hiking in. The hike took you over some hilly terrain until you reached Hippy Hollow, the trail ended there. Hippy Hollow was surrounded by cliffs. The creek dumped into the waterfall which dumped into the swimming hole. If the creek wasn't too high you could use a couple of people to damn up the flow of water while one your buddies sat in the bottom of the empty creek bed. Once situated everyone would jump out of they way releasing the buildup of water that would then push your buddy out over the cliff into the water below. If there weren't enough to create this wild ride it was still incredibly satisfying to jump from the cliffs into the frigid water.
Randy and I were the first ones there that day and as is customary jumped from the cliffs directly into the water, no easing in for us. It was nearly ninety that day and the relief of the frigid water enveloping my body helped me forget the world around me. When I resurfaced Randy was already climbing up to jump again. I stayed in the water enjoying the icy cold and watched as Randy lined up for the jump again. I watched as he began to run up like so many times before, countless times before, and then he stumbled. He stumbled and fell face first in to the rock above and I still believe today that I could see the splatter of blood as his momentum carried him over the cliff edge into the water. I watched transfixed as his body tumbled, so slowly it seems now, into the icy water and began to sink. The splash brought me back and I immediately swam to the spot Randy had fallen in. I looked around desperately unable to see my friend; I dove peering through the tumultuous water looking for any sign of him until finally I spotted him. The undertow of the waterfall had dragged him under and had him pinned to the floor of the pool. I resurfaced already out of breath and dove this time striving to reach the bottom, and my friend. When I reached him I pulled his arm and pushed off for the surface and I remember looking at his face and seeing blood floating away in tiny little red droplets from his mangled features. We broke water and I pulled him to shore gasping to regain my breath. I couldn't pull him all the way out of the water but as I tried he began coughing and spitting out water. He finally came to looking up at me with questioning eyes.
Randy lay on the edge of the water for several more minutes while I explained what happened. "You saved my life man!" was his reply and as he shouted this to me I felt a cold dread seize me. "No. NO! Shut up Randy. I did not save your life!" If only he could have accepted that, if ONLY he would have shut up.
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Submitted by Wrightcopy (user info) at 2005-09-02 15:16:36 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
If the second part weren't already written, I'd say something like "I can't wait for the second part of this post."
Submitted by Deidra (user info) at 2005-08-10 16:48:40 EDT (#)
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I still love this post
Submitted by HateFist (user info) at 2005-07-11 13:13:17 EDT (#)
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No Comment
Submitted by Brdn_Nkd (user info) at 2005-06-23 13:59:56 EDT (#)
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I don't know that I'll make it, aside from the Survivor series I did I've been relatively quiet. But coming from you I take that as a high compliment. Thanks, B
Submitted by jack11058 (user info) at 2005-06-23 11:00:16 EDT (#)
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god i hope you get into ubermadness. not that i'd want to face you. not that i'll get in anyway.
Submitted by Jungle_Jimanee (user info) at 2005-06-23 06:51:51 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Berty (user info) at 2005-06-23 06:14:13 EDT (#)
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I'm not sure I entirely 'get' it but I liked it.
Submitted by yermom (user info) at 2005-06-22 18:54:20 EDT (#)
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Submitted by LadyPlural (user info) at 2005-06-22 18:23:45 EDT (#)
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Sweet.
Submitted by Axtumanu (user info) at 2005-06-22 17:47:11 EDT (#)
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This is awesome. Looking forward to part 2.
Submitted by Duke_Chocula (user info) at 2005-06-22 17:08:03 EDT (#)
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woop woop.
Submitted by ProgramGeek (user info) at 2005-06-22 16:54:12 EDT (#)
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You write too fucking much. But I'm nice, have a 2.
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Submitted by Creepy_guy (user info) at 2005-06-22 16:35:15 EDT (#)
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This is excellent. Keep it up.
Submitted by squirrel_master (user info) at 2005-06-22 16:25:10 EDT (#)
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Great Start - looking forward to more!
Submitted by WhatDoesThisButtonDo (user info) at 2005-06-22 16:17:47 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Jeanneee (user info) at 2005-06-22 16:08:02 EDT (#)
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Reading this made me think of the word "denouement." Not sure why.
Anyway I liked it a lot.
Submitted by Brdn_Nkd (user info) at 2005-06-22 16:05:57 EDT (#)
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Ooops, sorry yes there's one more coming tomorrow and unfortunately it was a bit rushed but it came to me and I had to get some of it down cfore leaving work. which I will now do. Thanks for reading!
Submitted by Adamdidit2u (user info) at 2005-06-22 16:05:09 EDT (#)
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Submitted by ess-arr (user info) at 2005-06-22 16:03:42 EDT (#)
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I liked this one. it felt a little rushed.
Submitted by BLITZKREIG_BOB (user info) at 2005-06-22 16:03:00 EDT (#)
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Submitted by spedmonkey (user info) at 2005-06-22 16:01:51 EDT (#)
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Dayam.
Submitted by Kre8rix (user info) at 2005-06-22 16:00:58 EDT (#)
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So did you kill him later?
Inquiring minds...
I think for the most part everyone has an inherent 'evil' in them.
It's all about balance man.
Good read, though I'd like to see more...
Submitted by Deidra (user info) at 2005-06-22 15:59:54 EDT (#)
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Wow.
Submitted by wookie (user info) at 2005-06-22 15:59:44 EDT (#)
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Good start.
Submitted by Brdn_Nkd (user info) at 2005-06-22 15:59:00 EDT (#)
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It's rough I know and I left it with a bit of a cliff hanger but I'm out of time so.... let me know what you think. any constructive criticism is welcome. Thanks for reading.
Submitted by Kre8rix (user info) at 2005-06-22 15:57:04 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Had to be the first, now to read...