I Love this world. (725 hits)
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Submitted by Rockstar (View user info) at 2005-07-16 21:19:26 EDT
"I won't be reconciled to it simply because it's a stone wall and I haven't enough strength to break it down"
The world is a hole, the world isn't a hole. I love this world, I hate this world. I love to hate this world.
A woman was murdered in London on Friday. She had married a man she met in a tribe in Africa, and brought him to London. The man could not understand English, used windows because he couldn't operate doorknobs, and killed the woman because he hadn't a clue what was happening and thought he was being sold to slavery.
This, in a newspaper full of political commentary and the matters that shake the world, interested me for a passing minute. I read the whole article. It's terrible but who the fuck reads the newspaper to be anything other than to be entertained. News is just something to talk about, sport's there to divert our attention. But divert our Attention from what? Aliens, conspiracies and battleships, no doubt. Or possibly our little humdrum lives. No matter what you are or what you do, work is there to take up time. People say we need freedom. Fuck freedom, what I need is beautiful monotony. If my life could pass without being bored I would be content. Boredom is that savage time where we are aware that we will die and we are squandering the remaining moments.
I switch on the TV, I hear from the TV, that the TV is run by Shylocks and Inbreeds. What the fuck is the point of politics, it's a game played by players. It's a job, played by those who convince us it's not a job, not a play. Why do we need a country, why do we need a nation? We need it to give us space to breathe, that we can set up some glorious monotony that we love! If there was no roads we could not move and would get bored of our inertia, if we hadn't got health we would die. We need this country like we need the ground beneath our feet, and the air in our lungs. We need politics to keep our mind away from a life of freedom, where we would get bored and die in exasperation at the boredom of choosing everything.
Blow Me. Sex, S&M, looking down on her, plugging her, knowing that I've found a way not to be bored. To pass time, and how the time does pass, when I'm looking out the window and it's sun, when my muscles ache and she's got a big smile, and I'm covered in sweat and I feel like a fucking million dollars. And I want a million dollars, and I know that with a million dollars I'll be just as bored but with higher quality crap, that doesn't break when I drop it, that stores a 1000 songs but I can fuck for longer than it's battery can even remotely last. GOD I want that Sofa, the one with leather seats and a fridge in it. I want to kill whoever came up with religion because it is a lie. It's a lie that makes boredom alright, because this boredom isn't alright because when you die
-You are a bird in a room of light between two infinite darkness's, but dammit you are fucking vulture, might as well eat-
I love to rip my skin because I know I'm there, pushing the door open. Pain passes so fast, no hint of boredom, is it worse, is it better? What the fuck could be worse than death; nothing, so pain is better than boredom, because being bored is just waiting for death. I'm done waiting, I want my monotony now, I want to shit the apple of knowledge, go back to a life where I didn't know fun, where I had nothing to compare to; where I could live with the boredom. Where boredom was only a little lie, I want the womb, warm like two fingers in a pussy, no feeding, just to live in hibernation, aware that I'm there, Nirvana, living breathing Nirvana. Aghh I'd love to have a million dollars, I'd buy crates of champagne and share it with the peasants and dance with a beauty in a black dress and fuck, wasted on cocaine. I'd be happy in my womb of wealth, till it ran out, than I'd hate monotony. I don't want a million dollars because what can life offer that beats the monotony. I'd run wild in Africa, paint myself with mud, live in ignorance, get AIDS. What would I care if I had AIDS if I couldn't tell the difference. Except that I felt sick a little more.
Because it's YOU, don't think that it isn't. It's not your boss, it's not the politicians, it is your family and friends; you know why. It is SEX, all you married yous who hold them tight and think thank fuck it happened to me, and she's smiling and thinking the same thing, and you squeeze them because you want them to know, but they already know. And you love it, because at that moment you have beautiful monotony, not store bought not homogenised. Now it's got a battery, and sometimes it only lasts as long as you can fuck, but you love it anyway, because that's not a thousand songs, but it is. And no-one will ever record them, and no-one will ever listen, but you hear them anyway, and if you're lucky so does she. That's I-tunes and if that's fucking corny than I could care less, because with a million dollars you can't buy that. No champagne, no cocaine, because cocaine is a rush, but all it does is speed up the boredom, because cocaine won't keep you alive.
I'm in the womb, and it's in my head. It's a comfort zone, I love it and god do I hate it. That little ball of fun, when monotony kicks into overdrive, when I see that woman in the black dress, when I've got my dick in my hand, when she's got my dick in her hand. When I'm there in the warmth, because we all want to crawl back in, and we do, but not for ever, just so long as the beautiful monotony continues. As I'm lying there, I know I've done something right, that this warm monotony could live forever and I'd never grow bored of it. And I see a couple divorced, and I think that freedom is boredom, and as they walk away from each other, I see freedom opening up, full of money and politics. Give me the night shift, when everything is busy, and my arms ache as I work, because the office is busy and around me the staff fly, as monotony sets in. Beautiful monotony, fast paced and distinguished, as each moment is beautiful and unique and than give me a break, where I have free ice cream. And I'll look back on the beautiful monotony, free of boredom, free of freedom. Maybe it's free of sex, maybe as I'm eating my ice-cream I'm thinking about fucking. Or if you are lucky and you are married, and you do not live at night like I do, but are at home with your beautiful wife; and If you are in lust, than she is beautiful, and you are watching her sleep, and you think to yourself I am asleep in a room, and I am between two infinite darkness's and all I want is this beautiful monotony to continue, till I open the door and in my dreams I step out of the room and into the darkness, and I do not care for I was not bored, than I love you.
And if you are reading this, and you hate it, and you love freedom, and you love boredom, than to me you are the man from Africa. And you are in alien territory, and you do not understand the language, and you see the stone wall, and you want to break it down, but you haven't enough strength. Know I love you too, and I want you to move to Africa, and I want you to give the peasants the champagne, and I want you to dance with the woman in the black dress. And I want you to divorce and cover yourself in mud. But know that you do not choose when you open that door and step into the darkness, and know that with all the freedom in the world you cannot lie again in the womb. For it was not choice that brought you into this world and it wont be choice that takes you from it.
User Reviews
Submitted by Teephphah (user info) at 2005-07-27 09:02:01 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
A) I thought this was incredible. Got a little lost in the stream-of-conciousness from time to time, but still amazing. You should post more.
B) You just left THE most scathing (and completely accurate) review on my UberMadness post that I've seen yet. Thank you for the valuable input. Seriously.
C) You rock.
Submitted by axisofjesus (user info) at 2005-07-18 06:43:50 EDT (#)
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Kicker of all ass (+2)
Submitted by karamazov (user info) at 2005-07-17 21:44:26 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Hell yes I'm basking in victory. To be honest I realise it's all a matter of preference, and even though I plan on learning until I'm dead and unable to give a shit, I'm a hardheaded bastard and was really just arguing for arguments sake (I still concede nothing), and I apologise if I came off sounding pretentious. Here's a +2 to balance out the other, it definately was worth spending the time to reason this one out.
Submitted by blank_mind (user info) at 2005-07-17 21:05:58 EDT (#)
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You know what, I'm taking this way too seriously. Karamazov eat shit huh?
Submitted by lordofthedance (user info) at 2005-07-17 20:51:15 EDT (#)
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Rambling...but there was some goodness. So +1.
Submitted by blank_mind (user info) at 2005-07-17 20:50:57 EDT (#)
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The whole point of my post is that boredom isn't monotony.
And I'm aware of Aristotle's conditions of logic, don't fucking condescend me (The A equals B equals C but A does not equal C that you refer to), and I'm also aware that It's pretnecious and narrow minded. All dogs would be mammals if all mammals were dogs! If I change the definition of B, than logic does not always hold together.
So, to me all life is boring. Everything is boring. Because boredom is waitng to die AND HERE WHEN BOREDOM IS B THAT IS ALL IT IS. This is in my post. And we are always waiting. If you consider that waiting to die is all a human does at base level, than you cannot deny that all life is boring. If you do not believe me, that this is what boredom is, than consider that the less you have to do, the closer you get to this base state, and the more bored you are. This is what Heideggar said, and it is my basic premise for B. So, now that we've boiled it down, you claim monotony is boring. I fucking agree, because I've just claimed that life is basically boring.
But Freedom is opening ourselves to this boredom, monotony isn't. Life, and Mind, isn't fucking Logic. If we were in anyway Logical, life would pass us by.
"Monotony is learning nothing and experiencing nothing new (repetitiveness).
Boredom is caused by repetitiveness (learning nothing and experiencing nothing new).
Monotony is boring. "
A=B=C
Whoops, I guess that means you know basic logic, congratulations, I'm glad to see you've reached elementary school level.
And technically, while were on the subject, boredom isn't caused by repetivness, Boredom is caused by inertia, as I argued earlier, as I said in my fucking post. Freedom is inertia, since we need time to think. Living a free life is a boring life, living a monotonous life, is the choice because we fill it with comfort. My post covers why I consider monotony is more enjoyable, because if repetition is boring, and it is, than fear not, because your assumption works on the fact that life is infinite. Your logic is perfect if you completely deny you are alive, that you are a soul, not a human.
So yes, bask in victory. Monotony is boring, but I embrace it, for all the reasons above, because I'm alive, and I know how I wan't to live my life, and maybe it will be boring, but I'll fucking step through that door anyway, and know that I loved it.
Submitted by Phallic_Cymbals (user info) at 2005-07-17 20:26:05 EDT (#)
Ranking: -1
LOL
I found some Evanescence CDs for you to beat off to.
Submitted by karamazov (user info) at 2005-07-17 20:19:25 EDT (#)
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I'll state this simply in categorical propositions.
I did not say all boredom was caused by monotony.
I did say monotony leads to boredom.
It's basic logic, you learn it in elementary school. You might have heard it in the form of "All dogs are mammals but not all mammals are dogs."
You dictate the sensations of the body insomuch as you control what activities your body participates in and learn from experience what sensations are caused by activities (Hint: experiencing new sensation is, drum roll please... not monotony). When you participate in gruelling physical activity, your mind is processing sensation, you learn every time you participate in it when you cannot continue this sensation or when the sensation is not comfortable for example. This is NOT monotony, you are living, and you are experiencing.
The fact that my brain is tissue and not ethereal does not change the fact that it too feels sensation. What do you think chemicals like seritone or dopamine are? They are chemicals that cause sensation within your brain, also known as emotion. I never even made the slightest allusion to humans being transmundane.
In conclusion the whole debate can be simplified very easily into three points which, given any reasonable definitions of the words contained therein, cannot be argued with.
Again so you don't get confused twice, I acknowledge that there are other causes of boredom, I am not arguing monotony is the only cause of boredom.
Monotony is learning nothing and experiencing nothing new (repetitiveness).
Boredom is caused by repetitiveness (learning nothing and experiencing nothing new).
Monotony is boring.
Who the hell enjoys being bored?
Submitted by blank_mind (user info) at 2005-07-17 18:09:30 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Karamazov that's Buddhist irrational crap, and you know it. Your brain is made of dull grey tissue, powered by blood that generates electricity. An etheral spirit would contend every choice with infinital possibility and circumvent human irrationality and feelings. I'm acceptant of what I am, a human. Boredom is not monotony. Run, run as hard as you can, as far as you can, in a straight line. That's monotony, feel the pain, chemicals fucking through your body, pounding you hard, till you gasp, your lungs burn. You're not an etheral spirit, none of the sensation of the body are up to you. We have to satiate ourselves, that's existance.
Boredom occurs when we are wasting our time, I tried to express above how we get bored and it's not in monotony. It's freedom in a choice that generates our boredom.
Submitted by karamazov (user info) at 2005-07-17 17:35:53 EDT (#)
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To dispose with metaphorical allusions, preconceptions can be changed. So you can logically realise that something which you thought was an obstacle is not really an obstacle and act accordingly. If what you said is true, monotony is simply boredom with the illusion of no freedom and thus no choice.
To make a physical comparision, you can divide empty into an infinite number of pieces and each will contain the information of position. Even in empty space there exists infinite information, so since boredom is inertia, and infinite freedom of the mind exists at all times, the only explanation for one remaining inert because of preconception is apathy.
"I will not become reconciled simply because it is a stone wall which I have erected against myself and I am too apathetic too break it down."
Not nearly as poignant, is it?
Submitted by blank_mind (user info) at 2005-07-17 14:25:40 EDT (#)
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The stone wall, if you see is a quote; it's more of an example on the way we pre-determine what, is and isn't from our conceptions in society. It's from chapter 3 of Dostoevsky's Notes from Underground. You can't beat the stone wall, in the same way 2+2=4 but you don't have to accept it freely.
My point, which I tried to express in the post, was that boredom is a state of inertia borught on by excessive freedom. Life is better served by living in beautiful monotony.
Submitted by karamazov (user info) at 2005-07-17 12:08:33 EDT (#)
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I'm sorry I'll attempt to state more clearly what I meant in my rating. I did not say there was freedom in void, I said there was only monotony, which is nothing. Also when I wrote of people bettering themselves, I did not mean that in a materialistic point of view. I meant that to break monotony one must learn something new, do something new, create something that has not been created. I did not mean that we should use freedom better oneself by obtaining new things, that may only be a byproduct of the goal in mind, if it is the essential focus it will only lead to boredom. How we live in the now, free from monotony and delusion, is to realise the choices we have in living. We can either live in freedom with thought (one does not need physical freedom to think, freedom can also be mental escape from monotony) or live in monotony and never live or experience. What I was trying to say is that monotony is not really living because you are not experiencing anything new. I'm not saying monotony is always bad either. It can be very useful as a temporary respite from pain or exhaustion, if we remember that it is only a temporary excape from the sensation which comes from experiencing (not in the sensualist sense of the word as that would be materialistic).
As for the "stone wall" I do not believe you mean it is society. If the effect which the stone wall has on us is removed then there is no stone wall, this is indisputable. So really, (this is conjecture, correct me if I'm misinterpereting your meaning), the stone wall is society's effect on us, for without effect, the stone wall would not be there. If the stone wall is society's effect upon us, than with thought we can break the stone wall, or even prevent it from ever being erected. This is because, as I stated before, we can choose thought and freedom or monotony, thus we can choose how the stone wall effects us, or we can despair and consider it insurmountable. An example might be me reading this piece. I could have read it once, believed in the wall you showed me and never experienced again, or I could do what I have done, that is think and with thought, overcome the stone wall (at least for myself). Now despite having met the stone wall, I can continue in freedom and thought. I can continue without having to rely upon void.
Submitted by Feijuada (user info) at 2005-07-17 10:47:04 EDT (#)
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No Comment
Submitted by blank_mind (user info) at 2005-07-17 06:21:56 EDT (#)
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"Submitted by Circe (user info) at 2005-07-16 22:49:28 (#)
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Wow.
Submitted by Bickerstaff (user info) at 2005-07-16 22:15:55 (#)
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No Comment "
That right there, made my whole day. You're amzing.
Submitted by blank_mind (user info) at 2005-07-17 06:12:32 EDT (#)
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Intereseting kamramazov, but you are confusing freedom as whole over freedom in the head. Civilisation is full of freedom, it's why life is often so shallow .We can waste our lives thinking improving ourselves through materialism is better than simply accepting our place, and living in the constant now. Since we cannot know what that next moment will be, why think of freedom?
But on your two main points, you have made mistakes. The stone wall I was referring to, was from your namesakes own writings, the stone wall is society, and thought isn't enough to overcome this. Unless you accept delusion as reality, which is a half life, a terrible monotony, as opposed to the beautiful monotony that diverts us from death.
And Finally, there is no freedeom in the darkness, there is nothing in the darkness.
Submitted by lordofduct (user info) at 2005-07-17 05:33:14 EDT (#)
Ranking: -1
meh...
I like what Karamov had to say in return.
Submitted by thorpe (user info) at 2005-07-17 04:44:02 EDT (#)
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Submitted by karamazov (user info) at 2005-07-17 04:20:27 (#)
Ranking: -2
Without civilisation there is no freedom. Many men farm and build so that one man can think, and when he thinks, he brings something new into the world, something to break the monotony. Then maybe two men can think, or the men who build can build new things or the men who farm can grow new things and so monotony is broken. Then the two men think and bring something new into the world and farming becomes less work and leisure, time to think and create and enjoy comes into the world and monotony is broken. Maybe with the freedom and the break in monotony comes boredom, but then the resiliency of man comes into play and he laughs and thinks and builds. He looks on his wife and creates to make her laugh which makes him laugh and the monotony and the boredom is broken. Them someone comes to take away his freedom to take away his laughter, and he thinks and he fights to protect the freedom which broke the monotony and which brought time not to be bored in and perhaps he dies, but he dies thinking of the freedom and of his wifes laughter. And so with freedom we can comprehend the stone wall and with thought we can break the stone wall, and with thought the break in monotony, the new thing is not alien anymore and the light comes in and we laugh and see the next stone wall and think. Then there are those who choose not to think and to understand the light and not to illuminate the darkness in front of them and so they focus on sensation and leave the darkness for the next one who enters into light to illuminate. They choose to blunder in darkness, holding themselves back from the light, from the unknown. They choose to blunder in monotony, holding back freedom with an inert mind fearing the freedom because they fear the boredom, not realising how to break the boredom, not realising they can choose when to leave the light and can choose when to come into the light because with both freedom and thoght, there are no walls.
Submitted by karamazov (user info) at 2005-07-17 04:20:27 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
Without civilisation there is no freedom. Many men farm and build so that one man can think, and when he thinks, he brings something new into the world, something to break the monotony. Then maybe two men can think, or the men who build can build new things or the men who farm can grow new things and so monotony is broken. Then the two men think and bring something new into the world and farming becomes less work and leisure, time to think and create and enjoy comes into the world and monotony is broken. Maybe with the freedom and the break in monotony comes boredom, but then the resiliency of man comes into play and he laughs and thinks and builds. He looks on his wife and creates to make her laugh which makes him laugh and the monotony and the boredom is broken. Them someone comes to take away his freedom to take away his laughter, and he thinks and he fights to protect the freedom which broke the monotony and which brought time not to be bored in and perhaps he dies, but he dies thinking of the freedom and of his wifes laughter. And so with freedom we can comprehend the stone wall and with thought we can break the stone wall, and with thought the break in monotony, the new thing is not alien anymore and the light comes in and we laugh and see the next stone wall and think. Then there are those who choose not to think and to understand the light and not to illuminate the darkness in front of them and so they focus on sensation and leave the darkness for the next one who enters into light to illuminate. They choose to blunder in darkness, holding themselves back from the light, from the unknown. They choose to blunder in monotony, holding back freedom with an inert mind fearing the freedom because they fear the boredom, not realising how to break the boredom, not realising they can choose when to leave the light and can choose when to come into the light because with both freedom and thoght, there are no walls.
Submitted by jinhenkim (user info) at 2005-07-17 01:18:23 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
very interesting.
Submitted by thorpe (user info) at 2005-07-17 01:07:40 EDT (#)
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I had to work to get through this, I'm sorry to admit. But it probably meant something deeper than what I gleaned from it.
Submitted by thorpe (user info) at 2005-07-17 01:01:00 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Circe (user info) at 2005-07-16 22:49:28 (#)
Ranking: 2
Wow.
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Submitted by Bickerstaff (user info) at 2005-07-16 22:15:55 (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
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Submitted by Vix (user info) at 2005-07-16 22:14:17 (#)
Ranking: -2
Too Long for me... here is a -2
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These three reviews mean I HAVE to read this.
Submitted by spacemanor (user info) at 2005-07-17 00:32:20 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
lot of words
Submitted by forensicgirl3 (user info) at 2005-07-16 23:45:27 EDT (#)
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Submitted by indigogecko (user info) at 2005-07-16 21:27:51 (#)
Ranking: 1
Mindfuck. I got it.
Submitted by Circe (user info) at 2005-07-16 22:49:28 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Wow.
Submitted by Bickerstaff (user info) at 2005-07-16 22:15:55 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by Vix (user info) at 2005-07-16 22:14:17 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
Too Long for me... here is a -2
Submitted by jgreening (user info) at 2005-07-16 21:58:06 EDT (#)
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I'm a BIG fan of boredom.
BIG fan.
Submitted by Feijuada (user info) at 2005-07-16 21:39:23 EDT (#)
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Too long for me. Random +1.
Submitted by someone (user info) at 2005-07-16 21:35:53 EDT (#)
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Me and you would get along VERY well.
Great post
Submitted by blank_mind (user info) at 2005-07-16 21:31:05 EDT (#)
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Out of interest, and I don't mind if you don't answer it, but which do you choose? Boredom or monotony?
Submitted by indigogecko (user info) at 2005-07-16 21:27:51 EDT (#)
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Mindfuck. I got it.