You’re Dominating My Thoughts. (714 hits)
Category: RomanceRating: 1.91 on 14 reviews (Rate this item) (V)
Submitted by Dervel (View user info) at 2005-07-26 07:17:10 EDT
I can't sleep at night.
I can't seem to wake up during the day.
I'm floating through life in a state of semi-consciousness. My actions are automated.
I feel numb. Dislocated from reality.
I'm overwhelmed by an intense feeling of sorrow.
I hurt. I physically hurt.
My eyes are sore. Painful, red and swollen. I haven't cried yet today, not one single tear but my eyes are dried and puffy from the long night.
Sleep didn't come. I tried to clear my mind, to not think of anything but I just can't empty my head. I block you out for a fleeting moment only for you to slip back in the instant I drop my guard.
Then you're dominating my thoughts again and I can't let you go.
I have a constant feeling, a pain in my stomach. I can only describe it as that sensation you get when you've had too much to drink and you lie down and shut your eyes. That cold pull just below your diaphragm, it makes you feel sick then the room starts to spin.
Only it's not the room, it's my world.
I lie in bed, scared and alone.
In my mind you're there with me.
I get up in the middle of the night to get myself a drink of water and we're sat in our favorite bar, I'm drinking Guinness and just losing myself in you.
I'm haunted by memories of life with you. They come swirling out of the darkness and float in front of my eyes, solid images flickering in the gloom.
Those trips down the coast and up to London are ghosts. The joyous hours spent talking about you with friends are gone, all phantoms now.
I could see things falling apart, especially as we neared the end but I refused to acknowledge them, to even consider preparing myself for this hurt.
In my head I questioned "You've done this to me before, you wouldn't do it again. You couldn't be that cruel! You wouldn't, would you?"
I pleaded that we could work things out and we would get better. "We can be good again! Everything will be okay, I know it will! I promise you it will!"
Tears streamed down my face as I desperately begged you not to make me go, not to leave me down here on my own again.
Then you left.
You just left me behind.
Alone. Scared. Distraught. Broken.
I feel nothing anymore except this awful overwhelming sadness.
I hate you.
You disgust me. I will never stop loathing you.
Until we meet again and I fall for you once more.
User Reviews
Submitted by redskieslookfake (user info) at 2006-01-13 06:59:28 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
I support Newcastle. If they were consistent, I could cope, but they keep offering me brief glimpses, before they fuck me in the ass. And they go in dry.
Submitted by mrwolf (user info) at 2005-07-29 07:00:28 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by CookieLass (user info) at 2005-07-27 16:22:14 (#)
Ranking: 2
I'm madly in love with you, Dervel. Let's elope.
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Bitch
Submitted by mrwolf (user info) at 2005-07-29 07:00:11 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by Spam (user info) at 2005-07-26 07:49:44 (#)
Ranking: 2
An Ode to Pock - By Dervel
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Bitch
Submitted by Soley_Trinity (user info) at 2005-07-28 16:48:22 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
William - A very good friend of mine.
I feel this.
Submitted by CookieLass (user info) at 2005-07-27 16:22:14 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I'm madly in love with you, Dervel. Let's elope.
Submitted by userpete86 (user info) at 2005-07-26 14:00:09 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
You've caught the feeling perfectly.
Submitted by GodLovesALittleLovin (user info) at 2005-07-26 09:50:12 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
nice ending.
Submitted by Xcuses (user info) at 2005-07-26 09:19:21 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Better than I first expected it would be
Submitted by TigerLilly (user info) at 2005-07-26 09:00:55 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by Pentameter (user info) at 2005-07-26 08:54:11 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I like.
Submitted by entrophize (user info) at 2005-07-26 08:37:49 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Nice.
Submitted by Spam (user info) at 2005-07-26 07:49:44 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
An Ode to Pock - By Dervel
Submitted by hairycoo (user info) at 2005-07-26 07:20:29 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
ahaha your team is shite
Submitted by Fabit (user info) at 2005-07-26 07:20:07 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
brilliant. I had a similar relationship with my cat....