I'm Looking For Sex (Part 2) (1277 hits)
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Submitted by Rawrg the Wise and All-Knowing (View user info) at 2005-08-03 13:55:07 EDT
If any of you had read any of my earlier postings, you would have read me pissing and moaning about how I hadn't gotten laid since the Chiefs' nine game opening winning streak ended 2 years ago. Well, for the past 3 months, I've been getting some. Good some. Some so good that I'm proud to say that I have on average posted roughly less than twice a month since said some had first occurred. It all started with my friend, Stephanie.
I had known Stephanie for year, but recently had been hanging out with her for a few weeks, an attractive girl, but there was no sexual tension between us, so we kept it friendly. One night, she called me about some dinner plans we had made, and I thought, 'She's probably going to blow me off...' but instead she asked if she could bring her ex-boyfriend's little sister along for dinner. I had just been getting comfortable with being single and was really not in the mood for dinner to be spoiled by the awkward getting to know someone bullshit, but I didn't want to some across as an asshole for no reason, so I said yes.
Long story short, we had dinner, she thought I was cute and Stephanie hooked us up on a date that weekend. We hit it off, and while there were no sparks, both of us had horror stories to relate. My ex had left me because I was going nowhere, which in turn allowed me to fall apart even more. She hadn't had sex with her boyfriend for the last six months and only saw him once a week to fight with him. While there were no sparks, we felt so comfortable that we ended up having sex that night... and the next morning, and after that, we had sex on average of about once a day from there on out.
We had a lot of things in common, unfortunately, none of it was really good for any of us. We're both chronically lazy, we sleep in all the time. We have a fear of exercise, effort and emotional intimacy. We lie when we say that we're honest people. We don't really care about other people all that much. We're burnt out, we don't know what we do except we do know one thing: we want to put it off until tomorrow. Still, we didn't really get on each other's nerves too much except for our love of arguing and the pompous necessity that we have to be right all the time.
Another thing we had in common was sexual chemistry. I felt like a king stud too. The boyfriends she had had before were mere amateurs and one was the son of a preacher, a real nut job who would deny her advances on a regular basis. I mean, I may have had only one partner in the past, but I had plenty of practice. In two years, I know I had sex at least 450 times, (conservative estimate) and doled out many times that in orgasms. (or so she told me... I'll believe her to try and salvage my dignity) So when it came to this new girl, she came, quite frankly. She came a lot. Anyone who's been in a relationship knows that when the girl is coming, things are normally peaceful in the land of Nod.
Side note: I am not the king of sex, nor do I claim to be, but I will state that I think I'm halfway decent in the sack for the following reasons:
1. I ask questions a lot as to what they like.
2. I listen to what they tell me.
3. I genuinely get off on a girl getting off.
4. I have a fragile ego which means I work hard at it.
5. I know what a tongue is for, and it's not just for kissing.
We became close and soon this relationship felt like my last relationship: very serious. That's when things got dicey. Things had moved so fast, that the adjustment period for both of us ended up stressing us out and causing us to fight over minutia like a couple of crack heads fighting over the number of gears on a ten speed bike (Scanner Darkly reference). After a few weeks, I felt like I didn't love her the way I should and I needed to end this before it got messy. I couldn't be an asshole that just used a girl who loved me for sex, so I went over to see her and broke it to her softly. She cried and made me feel like an asshole, then later, she came over and told me that she realized that she didn't love me either. So we had sex and we agreed to be more casual about things.
We actually started having lots of fun with things this time. Things were casual, we went out on dates, we laughed while walking hand in hand, you know, like couples do in movies. It was great. Then we started to admit that we were pretty much boyfriend and girlfriend by default and we started saying "I love you." Again. Really, neither of us minded, we were happy and we didn't fight like we used to. We agreed that the one thing we had was sexual chemistry, even though our interests and philosophies differed at times. We ignored it. We were getting laid. We were happy.
Then recently, things got a little too serious again for my liking, being the man, I was feeling cornered. I also received a letter from Nicole, a girl I had met some time ago but had never exchanged numbers with. All she knew was where I lived, so she left me a letter where she said she wanted to hang out but didn't have my number so she left me hers. All of this mixed in and part of me wanted to be single again and chase down my true love. I mean, we both knew that we weren't "in love" even if we did love each other. So I broke it too her again that perhaps we needed to back off. She was upset, but not crying or breaking down. Both of us didn't know how to feel and it was awkward, but last Saturday, we broke up.
So on Sunday I called Nicole and set a time to hang out, while my now ex-girlfriend was asked out by some guy named Jared that day at the local pool. She and I hung out for a few awkward hours, getting lunch and strolling through the local Dick's Sports, talking about how we felt. Overall, we were sad, but we had committed to the break up. So we gave each other one last kiss and parted ways that night to each other's date.
Nicole was a nice girl, but was kind of a bore. She laughed at everything I said and didn't have much to say. She was cute, sort of, but as I looked at her, I realized that we had no comfort with each other or chemistry. I thought about being the type of guy I wasn't, putting the moves on her and getting some just for the sake of credentials, but that's not me. I looked at her and knew that I could never kiss her. We went out and talked movies for a bit, I bought her a drink and took her back to her car. I didn't lay a hand on her the whole night.
I called up my recent ex and told her that I wanted to see her tonight to which she replied, "I need to see you too." God, we were so much alike, it was terrible. She came over, we kissed and were both too tired to allow the urge of wanting to have sex right there become a reality. We slept together that night, never letting go of each other.
The next morning, when we woke up, we started to talk about it. Her date was a loser, a rich mama's boy who whined about meaningless kid things and treated her to Taco Bell on what he had offered her as a "dinner date". I turned to her and we looked at each other. "What are we going to do with each other?" I asked. To that she replied, "Fuck like rabbits I guess."
So here we are on Wednesday, and I don't know what to think about us. We could be the world's oddest fuck buddies or we could be a love story in the making, I have no clue. I have realized though that it's the little things like this that keep bringing us closer together. Will we make it? Will we last and end up getting married? Will we end up burning each other in a love triangle? Will we simply lose interest and go our separate ways? I don't know.
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She didn't answer her phone any of the 5 times that Jared called her yesterday. We were having sex.
User Reviews
Submitted by Serious_Melvin (user info) at 2005-08-05 05:42:57 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by kaos-king (user info) at 2005-08-03 16:28:25 (#)
Ranking: 2
Rawrg, I hate you. I need to find a chick...
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Fuckin' A, man. Fuckin' A. This post depressed me for some reason. I need to get moving.
Submitted by fallenangel (user info) at 2005-08-03 19:45:26 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by Mr-Boo (user info) at 2005-08-03 16:23:49 (#)
Ranking: 2
Don't look for someone you can live with - look for someone you can't live without!
Submitted by Crystle (user info) at 2005-08-03 19:18:03 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Rawrg, I hate you. I need to find a man
Submitted by kaos-king (user info) at 2005-08-03 16:28:25 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Rawrg, I hate you. I need to find a chick...
Submitted by Mr-Boo (user info) at 2005-08-03 16:23:49 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Don't look for someone you can live with - look for someone you can't live without!
Submitted by DarthFaded (user info) at 2005-08-03 16:15:51 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Well since you have never had a successful relationship that didnt end, except this one, I would say that you don't know what true love is.
It sounds like you have an honest relationship, based in communication, and mutual respect. Hate to tell you man, but it sounds like you found true love already...
It is great to find someone that is everything you could want, but when you are also everything to them, that is a blessing.
Run with it man...
Submitted by Yams (user info) at 2005-08-03 15:41:10 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Relationships based on sex seldom work. Who knows, you may just be the exception!
Submitted by MANICMOTHER (user info) at 2005-08-03 15:19:37 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Sounds like it's going A-OK. +2 for honesty with her, most men don't do that.
Submitted by Professional_Peon (user info) at 2005-08-03 15:17:39 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
*sigh*
I need an extra boyfriend
Submitted by ballchick_handjob (user info) at 2005-08-03 15:09:34 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
I like you.
Submitted by MyNameIsTim (user info) at 2005-08-03 15:04:20 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by Rawrg (user info) at 2005-08-03 14:13:32 (#)
Ranking: 0
When you get burned, you subconsciously can't get into love like you used to...
Men who can't commit often times have been destroyed by someone in the past. Be kind ladies and understanding.
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true fucking story.
Submitted by munkeypants (user info) at 2005-08-03 15:00:09 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
interesting...
Submitted by Xcuses (user info) at 2005-08-03 14:24:04 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I don't see a bright future for you and this lady friend of yours. Sounds like your young (don't remember if you put it in your post and didn't read the first one) so I think it's ok to have some casual fun as long as you guys are honest about it with each other.
Submitted by RamJetMax (user info) at 2005-08-03 14:23:16 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
You should get a diary.
Submitted by Average_Dan (user info) at 2005-08-03 14:15:20 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Sounds like you and this one have a great relationship.
Enjoy it while it lasts~!
Submitted by Rawrg (user info) at 2005-08-03 14:13:32 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
When you get burned, you subconsciously can't get into love like you used to...
Men who can't commit often times have been destroyed by someone in the past. Be kind ladies and understanding.
Submitted by Jeanneee (user info) at 2005-08-03 14:11:10 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
You and I are a lot alike. I would tell you to make a commitment to this girl, but that would be pretty hypocritical of me, considering that commitment is pretty much my biggest fear. So good luck with all that.
Submitted by jgreening (user info) at 2005-08-03 14:09:12 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I dislike you, though. Having sex all willy-nilly while others have none...
Submitted by ruthless (user info) at 2005-08-03 14:01:22 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Awww...
Submitted by Shlongy (user info) at 2005-08-03 13:58:50 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Join the fucking club.
Submitted by Rawrg (user info) at 2005-08-03 13:56:38 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
FYI: Part one is NSFW.
Submitted by Rawrg (user info) at 2005-08-03 13:55:55 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Part One: http://www.ubersite.com/m/56121