I Burned All Your Letters (450 hits)
Category: RomanceRating: 0.66 on 9 reviews (Rate this item) (V)
Submitted by Graeme Porter <graeme.at.tsd-ltd.demon.co.uk> (View user info) at 2005-08-15 08:49:54 EDT
I burned your letters, you bastard.
I took them outside and I burned them. I burned them all, and you know what? I feel much better for having done it.
All the letters you wrote to me, even the first ones I treasured for so long.
I did it last night.
I stood there in the evening chill, an easterly breeze fanning the flames, causing the smoke to billow out over the roof of our - my - house.
The fire crackled and spat as the leaves I'd lit were consumed.
I read each one, one last time, just before I added it to the pyre. And I cried, damn you; real tears, streaming down my face, making my eyes sting even more than the harsh light from the fire did.
I watched each yellowed page curl, brown up, and burn through, wisps of smoke puffing up from each sheet as it turned to ash.
Some of your letters hurt me so much as I read them that I just had to tear them apart, the same way that you've torn me apart. I scattered them across the fire, but the breeze and the rising heat from the flames made some of the pieces fly into the air, like confetti.
I remembered our wedding, the confetti, the reception, and even the photographer - very clearly, as though it were yesterday - better than any photograph could remind me, it was all still there in my mind.
I cried harder then, great sobs, racking my whole body, doubling me up with sadness and despair.
Still, I kept throwing the letters on the fire. Your first love letter to me. The first time you told me you loved me was in a letter, you were too scared to say the words out loud.
I thought about the time we spent together, all those years that we wasted with our petty fights and squabbles. All that time, we were too afraid to find what the real problem was.
I read the letter you wrote to me from Thailand, when you told me what you had done, and how sorry you were. Still years ago, you had an affair, and yet we still spent more years together fighting and making up, and all because I was too afraid of what life would be like without you.
That letter went on the fire in pieces, and I remembered how I felt about it when I read it the first time.
I expected to feel better about myself after I'd finished tearing up your letters - hoped that it would help me move on.
I hoped that, there, in the last dying glimmers of the day, the flames would remove all the misery of our past from my heart and let me move on, at last.
My God, I was wrong.
All I could think about then was why I fell for you in the first place. It was your words. All your kind words, all those sweet things you wrote to me, for me, about me; I cherished your gift with a pen more than anything. I remembered it all.
And I burned all your letters.
I'm sorry.
I'm so sorry.
I love you, and I still want you back.
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Submitted by BobLobla (user info) at 2006-07-18 09:59:15 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
http://www.ubersite.com/m/90582#2064268
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Submitted by munkeypants (user info) at 2005-08-15 23:44:13 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by Xcuses (user info) at 2005-08-15 09:46:13 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
why do I not want to delete text messages from an ex?
cause I'm screwed up in the old noggin
Submitted by highlander (user info) at 2005-08-15 09:27:39 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Not -quite- the response I was looking for...
But hey.
Incidentally, I'm a guy, not a girl, and this is not a true tale in any way, shape or form.
Submitted by Spam (user info) at 2005-08-15 09:17:01 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
doesn't deserve a -ve.
Submitted by Vulva (user info) at 2005-08-15 09:13:28 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Submitted by Fleadh (user info) at 2005-08-15 08:55:44 (#)
Ranking: 2
Women, bah, mental cases the lot of em..
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Submitted by Fleadh (user info) at 2005-08-15 08:55:44 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Women, bah, mental cases the lot of em..
Submitted by egadz (user info) at 2005-08-15 08:55:42 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
Submitted by apollo88 (user info) at 2005-08-15 08:52:06 (#)
Ranking: -2
you cried emo tears???
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ROFL!
Submitted by apollo88 (user info) at 2005-08-15 08:52:06 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
you cried emo tears???