One Last Goodbye (696 hits)
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Submitted by ugaly <UG_A_LY.at.hotmail.com> (View user info) at 2005-09-12 00:49:30 EDT
There are some things that just weren't meant to be I guess. I remember everything. It hasn't even been that long, but time just moves so slowly now. It all started with Briana. She sat next to me in my Calculus class, and we became friends. Then high school ended, and we drifted apart. We e-mailed, but not too often. She spent that summer touring Europe with your family, and then stayed home for a year to save up money for school. She moved up here then, right next door to me. We spent a lot of time together. Neither of us knew anyone else and neither of us really wanted to be there; financial aid is what drew us both here. I ignored the fact that she liked me. Ignored the rumors coming from my roommates, and ignored the confirmations coming from hers. She was too important to me to risk losing over a stupid mistake. She deserved much more than I'd have ever been able to offer her.
That's when you started talking to me; trying to coerce me into dating your sister. The fact that I wanted to didn't make any difference to me. I couldn't risk losing the only friend I had. But you convinced me that I wouldn't screw up. So we dated for a short time, and then I said something I shouldn't have and screwed it up. We continued being friends though, so I was wrong in some aspect.
Then you came up to visit Briana. I was shocked. I'd seen you before but never knew who you were. I'd passed you in the halls of high school, never being able to stop myself from staring at you as you walked by. You were the first person I always turned around to watch walk away, knowing that you would never be apart of my life. I would have tried then, but you had that asshole boyfriend of yours so I suppressed my feelings.
Then you graduated and moved in with Briana. The feelings that lay dormant for near two years stepped up again. The torture was unbearable. There I was with Briana as my best friend, who wanted to date me again, and then you, her more attractive, more entertaining, and more interesting sister, taunting me. At first I justified doing nothing because you still had your boyfriend. Then I justified it because I knew I'd seem like an asshole if I went for you instead of Briana. I didn't care anymore though. After five months of seeing you every day I went for it despite the fact that you were patching things up with the boyfriend back home.
I was more than surprised when you agreed to go out with me that night. I was even more surprised when you asked to do something the next night. I'd expected to screw everything up like I always had before. We slowly started spending more time together. I started to notice that you stopped leaving every time your phone started ringing. Now you just turned off the phone, and crawled back into my embrace.
But that bastard stole you away from me. I went running without you for the first time in five months, and came back home to the sight of flashing red and white lights. I had a small fear that it had something to do with you, but brushed it off, figuring that I was just being paranoid. It wasn't until I saw Briana crying hysterically on the snow-covered concrete that I realized what had happened. I saw the lone black body bag lying on the floor in your apartment. I don't remember what happened after that. Briana said I stood there with a tear in my eye staring at your bag until the coroner pushed me out of the way to take you away forever.
I was a broken man for a long time after that. I don't think I attended a full class session for the rest of the semester. I constantly left because I would start to tear up. I couldn't concentrate. My boss threatened to fire me. I stopped going to church, but went again because it was the only place you felt close.
It'll be six months tomorrow. I'm still a shell of the man I used to be, but I'm doing a little better now. You still aren't here to fill the emptiness I have inside. The memories of having you close are unbearable. I miss your laugh, your smell, and your touch. I can't get your face out of my head. So many restless nights spent staring at the mental slideshow of times spent together. I'm sorry but I just can't take it anymore. I came here today to tell you that this is my last visit. I love you, and I always will, but I can't keep coming around, or I just won't move on. I'm sorry.
User Reviews
Submitted by JonnyX (user info) at 2005-09-12 19:08:23 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
For soem reason, I thought you were a girl (until the end, obviously) - it made it seem better, for some reason...
Submitted by CaptainThorns (user info) at 2005-09-12 15:16:16 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by LadyPlural (user info) at 2005-09-12 12:54:51 (#)
Ranking: 2
I really hope this is fiction. Either way, excellent piece of writing.
Submitted by LadyPlural (user info) at 2005-09-12 12:54:51 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I really hope this is fiction. Either way, excellent piece of writing.
Submitted by shark25 (user info) at 2005-09-12 12:48:01 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by Berty (user info) at 2005-09-12 07:05:50 (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by PokeyPecker (user info) at 2005-09-12 03:16:06 (#)
Ranking: 2
Fact or fiction, this is top notch.
Submitted by Merlina (user info) at 2005-09-12 11:56:44 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
beautifully written
Submitted by MANICMOTHER (user info) at 2005-09-12 11:25:29 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Beautiful.
Submitted by TigerLilly (user info) at 2005-09-12 10:17:02 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
So sorry....
Submitted by sinna (user info) at 2005-09-12 09:12:01 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by JustPassingBy (user info) at 2005-09-12 09:09:31 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Very well written, beautiful...
Submitted by theroo (user info) at 2005-09-12 07:07:05 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Wow.
Submitted by Berty (user info) at 2005-09-12 07:05:50 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by PokeyPecker (user info) at 2005-09-12 03:16:06 (#)
Ranking: 2
Fact or fiction, this is top notch.
Submitted by MrSparkle847 (user info) at 2005-09-12 04:15:45 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Poor soul.
Submitted by Quale (user info) at 2005-09-12 04:09:42 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
good read. sorry for your loss. words are not enough.
Submitted by Magic_Monkey (user info) at 2005-09-12 03:39:29 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Sorry for you if its a real story ..
Submitted by thorpe (user info) at 2005-09-12 03:26:45 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I've been ignoring this for a few hours now.
Glad I read it.
Submitted by PokeyPecker (user info) at 2005-09-12 03:16:06 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Fact or fiction, this is top notch.
Submitted by TuTs (user info) at 2005-09-12 02:31:19 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I cannot comment.
Submitted by williamson (user info) at 2005-09-12 02:25:13 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
My god...
Submitted by kaos-king (user info) at 2005-09-12 02:20:06 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Fuck me running, this should have a LOT more +2's filling up the bottom of the page...
Submitted by Psycosis (user info) at 2005-09-12 01:09:47 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by earth_collapse (user info) at 2005-09-12 00:52:30 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Very nice.