Diary Of A Kaote - part 8 (End of the first story arc) (608 hits)
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Submitted by kaos-king (View user info) at 2005-09-16 18:30:48 EDT
Last Chapter - http://www.ubersite.com/m/75258
Ed had been standing outside Andrea's dorm for about thirty minutes. A half hour seemed long enough to gather up his courage. He couldn't believe, after all he had seen, he was so freaked out about this. This one, little mortal girl was really causing havoc on his system. Somewhere, the powers that be, were laughing at him. He had to get his shit together, and face Andrea. Things hadn't been right for two weeks. Not since they had parted ways after the damn angels had interfered.
He stood there contemplating. How do you tell someone you are sorry for being yourself? How do you apologize for following your heart? He knew why she was angry with him, and he didn't blame her. He had sheltered her from some of the more nasty aspects of Chaos. It wasn't all fun and parlor tricks. There were decisions to be made that would effect the outcome of the human race sometimes. How could he have blown it so bad? And more importantly, how could he make it better?
Another moment of anger overtook him. Who was she to question his means and motives? He was a true Chaos Avatar, born into the role of Agent. It was his duty to answer the hard questions of life. Of course, she would go with saving millions of people, that would only...
"Hello Ed."
Ed spun around to come face to face with Andrea. All his anger was washed away when he saw her. He just felt empty again.
"Hey."
"We should probably talk."
"Yeah, um... I was waiting for you. Well, I was going to come up, I mean."
"I know," she said with a small smile.
Edward Sands followed the Minor Kaote through the locked and coded door. Such precautions really couldn't have kept him out, but he didn't want to intrude to much. They didn't say anything to each other on the ride up the elevator to the seventh floor. Wordlessly, she lead him into her room. Once inside, he sat down on the edge of her bed, and nervously began playing with one of the zippers on her book bag. Andrea slipped off her jacket, and causally tossed it over the back of her computer chair. She dug out a huge black hoodie sweat shirt and pulled it over her delicate frame. The thing was big enough for her to swim in. Ed told her as much.
"I love this hoodie because it's so big," she replied. "It's like being wrapped in a blanket."
Andrea curled up on the head of her bed and hugged one of her pillows, not making eye contact. Ed said nothing. They stayed like this for a few minutes. Andrea coughed, Ed played with the zipper. Andrea looked out the window, Ed played with the zipper.
"I was so mad at you," said Andrea quietly, still looking out the window.
"I know," said Ed, gaining hope at her use of the past tense.
"I couldn't believe you would allow all those people to die."
"It was more complicated than that."
"I know that now."
Ed pushed the book bag onto the floor and turned to face Andrea. He gently pushed her knees with his fingers so she would turn and face him.
"Tell me. Explain it to me. I want to understand."
She sighed. "I'm so new to this. I can't begin to say I know what it's like to be you, to be one of your kind. When those, those beings," she shuddered," showed up, you didn't even blink. A normal day in the life of Edward Sands. That was almost too much for me. I almost lost it."
"Experience. You get used to it."
"But that's what I'm saying. I don't have any experience. And I voted on something that will effect the fate of humanity. That's way too big for me, Ed. I never asked for this."
"Neither does any other Kaote."
She ran her hands over her face, dry washing it. She looked like she was searching for the right words.
"I've had a couple of weeks to think about what has happened to me. Really think about it. And I'm scarred shitless, Ed. I see now what it means to be part of the metaphysical community. What being a Chaos Avatar really entails. It terrifies me. I'm not always going to have you there with me. What am I going to do then?"
"Kaotes are always in touch, Andrea. We always stick together. In fact..."
"As close as you and Natalie stuck together?"
A dead cold passed over Ed. He had not anticipated this. He had thought about telling Andrea all about the Australian Kaote, if the right part of the conversation came up. It never occurred to him, that in these last few weeks, she would find out.
"I deserve that. I deserve that, and I'm sorry. I want to explain. Just... how did you find out?"
"I heard whispers in the void shortly after it happened. After our... falling out, I investigated. Just to see if I could. It worked."
"Andrea, I felt horrible about it. That day when the Host came I was trying to ask you about us, but it wouldn't come out."
"I wasn't so much angry, as I was hurt. No, I was shocked. I wondered if that kind of stuff happened all the time. If you two were an item. We weren't together, so I couldn't be angry with you."
"I wonder about that," he said.
"Wonder about what?"
"If we were together. Sometimes it felt like we were. I actually went to this old friend of mine, she a demon by the way, and asked her advise on it."
"Ed, I'll be straight with you. I was falling in love with you. You're attractive, charming, smart, everything I would want."
"I see a 'but' coming."
"But we've seen too much together now. Rather, I've seen what you see now. Your life, your mission, your world. If I have to be a part of that, even a little bit, I'm going to need someone grounded here on Earth. Ed, if I have to live my life as a Minor Kaote, I need a mate who is normal. I understand that now."
Ed nodded. It wasn't that difficult to grasp. Someone in Andrea's position was bound to come to that conclusion. She was already an anomaly, she wanted to be as ordinary as possible. Having him as a boyfriend would taking kicking and screaming in the opposite direction.
"I want to be cool with you Ed. There will always be a part of me that cares about you deeply."
"We're cool, I promise. No matter what, you're my Minor Kaote. I'm kinda stuck with you. I'll just have to tell Duncan that we're not sleeping together."
"Who?"
"You'll meet him. He's an asshole."
Andrea leaned over and gave him a hug.
"You'll always be my Eddie-Bear."
"Eddie-Bear!" said Ed, slightly disgusted.
"That's what I called you in my diary."
"Wow, Andrea, that's lame."
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Submitted by Axolotl (user info) at 2006-10-26 13:46:53 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
He looks like you...
Submitted by munkeypants (user info) at 2006-10-01 00:45:02 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Ditka (user info) at 2006-01-07 22:49:25 EST (#)
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Auto +2 already read series just giving author his due.
Submitted by RyuFu (user info) at 2005-09-28 11:47:00 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
WHAT!?
Oh, come on, man! Not even a little...? Alright, let's move on to the next arc..
Submitted by Brdn_Nkd (user info) at 2005-09-19 10:19:42 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
great as always. Does Ed have gas there? Just kind of waving it away? Just kidding, I'm feeling a bit off this morning.
Have you tried publishing any of your work?
Submitted by GaidinCanuck (user info) at 2005-09-17 08:57:24 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Excellent work (again).
Looking forward to your next story.
Submitted by kaos-king (user info) at 2005-09-17 05:10:45 EDT (#)
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Benny, in Ed Sand's world nothing is clear cut, especially with Heaven and Hell. The Kaotes themselves as a group may not have any enimies, but the individual Kaotes can certainly piss someone off. In the "Saving Grace" series I introduce a number of new supporting characters and set things up for the "Fallen Faith" series. That's when the conflict really begins, leading into "The Search" series.
Submitted by Benny (user info) at 2005-09-17 04:55:36 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Cool story. I look forward to reading the next series. I am curious as to whether Kaotes' have any enemies. They seem to get along with both Heaven & Hell so I'll be interested to see what conflicts arise in the next series.
Submitted by Barnymeinhoff (user info) at 2005-09-17 04:53:13 EDT (#)
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I would have dropped 1 for the charicters beard but I dont want to be renmembered as a cunt.
Nice writing.
Submitted by thecaes (user info) at 2005-09-16 23:33:54 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Ed is wearing a Green Lantern shirt. Cool.
Your stuff is good man. Though for someone who writes as much as you clearly do, your spelling is a little wacky. You seem to like to add or subtract identical letters when you shouldn't...for example, in the post and replies, you said 'scarred' when you meant 'scared' and 'glarring' when you meant 'glaring.' Just an observation.
You also don't do a lot of...um...I don't know what the technical term is, but you don't have a lot of narration around the dialogue parts. You usually have just straight quotes from the characters without any direction or implication on how they are speaking. I'm the exact opposite. I can't decide which style works better for the reader.
Submitted by LadyPlural (user info) at 2005-09-16 20:37:56 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
It kind of saddens me to think that you know me well enough to be able to know that the pocket-riffling is quite probably the most likely scenario to occur in such a situation.
Submitted by ess2s2 (user info) at 2005-09-16 20:11:23 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
You snarky bastard...Snarky, not sneaky. Lookkit you absorbing all this praise...I can't say I blame you. See you back on pH.
Submitted by kaos-king (user info) at 2005-09-16 19:47:55 EDT (#)
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This piece took maybe an hour, hour and 1/2 to do. I sketch it out with mechanical pencils, then I go back and ink the drawing percisely with a certain kind of pens called Microns. They come in a set of different sized tips from .08 to .005 and have archival ink in them. I color in the large sections of black with cheap Sharpies. I also always draw on Bristol Board, which is a thicker, index stock-type paper. It holds the ink better and doesn't bleed at all. After I'm done inking, I let in dry for about ten minutes before i erase away all the extra pencil lines. Then I just scan the fucker and throw it up for everyone to see.
If you would like to see more of my illustrations, check out the photo pages on my website. I haven't updated in a LONG time, but there's all kinds of stupid stuff on there...
http://antius777.freeservers.com
Submitted by ajanssen (user info) at 2005-09-16 19:33:09 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Nice job Kaos. Im interested in your art. How long does it take you to draw that shit?
Submitted by kaos-king (user info) at 2005-09-16 19:23:32 EDT (#)
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HA! Sorry Lady Plural. I guess I got carried away. You still love me, don't you? DON"T YOU?
GOD DAMN IT!!! Tell me you love me, you fucking whore, or I'll....
*is shot by Lady Plural in the head 17 times*
*she goes through kaos's pockets for change*
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Above Average Dan... I've got a shit ton more to post, So you can't get rid of me that easily. I look forward to your Pirate post on Monday. The last one WAS really good, I just couldn't get past the formatting. Have no fear! I will drink in honor of you Pirateyness tonight!!!
Submitted by Crystle (user info) at 2005-09-16 19:22:09 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I'll keep reading.
Thanks!
Submitted by Average_Dan (user info) at 2005-09-16 19:07:27 EDT (#)
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Kaos,
You are a bad mutha-fucker!!
Please don't stop posting on Uber!!
Monday, I'm going to be posting my second entry of the "Real Pirate" series,
this time with line breaks for the eyes.
Please read it and tell me what you think.
Have a great weekend.
~Dan
Submitted by LadyPlural (user info) at 2005-09-16 18:56:07 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I'd like to thank the Academy, and of course God, and my wonderful parents, and...
*twenty minutes later*
...and my great-aunt's rat terrier's former owner's ex-roommate's lover's sister-in-law, and m-
*is shot*
Please, don't ask.
Submitted by kaos-king (user info) at 2005-09-16 18:42:19 EDT (#)
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I want to thank everyone who took the time to read this series. It was very personal to me to write, dealing with a lot of issues going on in my life at the time. In case anyone was wondering, Andrea IS a real girl in my own little world and Ed's dilemia and mine were quite parallel. Things worked out about the same for both of us.
This was perhaps my most well received series on pulseHEAD. So many people asked for a conuation of this, that it morphed into quite a long and envolved tale. However, thanks to you folks, I have seen some of the glarring problems and small errors that I made with this series - Thanks for that.
I would ask you to keep an open mind about the ending of this series. I know it seems like I ended things perhaps too aprubtly, but I was already plotting out the next arc of of stories. Andrea wasn't right for Ed. No, he needed someone who would honestly challenge him, be his equal. If not a girlfriend, then at least a partner in Crime!
The "Saving Grace" series starts tomorrow.
And for those of you who wanted more action, sorry about that. The grace storyline is short, but it's there to establish a whole new crop of supporting characters. However, Some of those characters go on to have very interesting adventures. Ed being one of them. There is a LOT more coming. Please stick with me.
Thanks again to every one....
Brian Fatah Steele
Kaos-King
Antius777
Submitted by JonnyX (user info) at 2005-09-16 18:35:41 EDT (#)
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