This Is For My Suffering (572 hits)
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Submitted by <honorablemention1.at.gmail.com> (View user info) at 2005-10-03 16:53:17 EDT
You don't know me, but I know you. I have never met you, I have not even spoken to you once, but I know many things about you.
You see, my feelings led me to you. When I asked her about you, she said that you were "just friends." She said that nothing was going on. You shared similar interests and that was all.
Only a friendship.
But my heart would not let me believe it.
Believe me, I wanted to know nothing about you, but at the same time, I needed to know everything about you. What you loved, hated, feared, needed, dreamed.
Little clues were left every place I turned. I picked through webpages, and laughed at how you were stupid enough to have a blog. I followed you from day to day, afraid that you would say something about her, but secretly hoping you would.
Hoping that every fear of mine would be realized.
Hoping that I had not been a fool this entire time.
But, what I wanted most of all was to crush you and curse you for being better than me. I wanted to wipe you from the face of this earth so that she would never think of you again. I imagined what it would feel like to grip your throat in my hands and squeeze your last breath from your body. I wanted to watch fear well up in your eyes and fall in tears of death.
I saw that first moment - bursting into your apartment and catching you off-guard. Your eyes showed the knowledge that the Grim Reaper had come to judge your soul. With intent in my hands, I smashed your head against the wall, blood filling in the tiny cracks in your shitty apartment walls.
When I wrapped my arms around your head, I whispered into your ear, "I could kill you now, but I want to watch you die."
I spun you around, and you looked deeply into my eyes. You shouted, "But I never did anything wrong!"
"Her heart belongs to you," I said.
Then, I put my hands around your neck, and with all of my strength, crushed your windpipe. You sputtered and cried, and as a final insult you called her name.
She could not save you.
"Honey?" she asked.
I turned my eyes toward her and asked, "What's wrong?"
"What are you thinking about?"
"You," I said.
Just like she said when I asked her what she was thinking about after we made love earlier in the day. She said it was me, but I know who it really was.
You.
I hope you pick and scrape to find me, and when you do, I hope you find this.
I am always watching you.
User Reviews
Submitted by kaos-king (user info) at 2005-10-04 01:43:50 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
Is this was cleaned up, this could have been a really good post
Submitted by Pentameter (user info) at 2005-10-03 19:47:46 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
You know what's weird...
I was thinking about that show last night. I thought about when the guy from Clutch got up and sang "Kerosene" with the guy from Drown.
They did such an awesome version of that song. Funny you should title this from the Drown song.
Submitted by Dante_Alighieri (user info) at 2005-10-03 19:35:48 EDT (#)
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Whatever.
Submitted by morontian (user info) at 2005-10-03 17:38:20 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
If you leave out the word 'was', that last statement makes a lot more sense.
Submitted by morontian (user info) at 2005-10-03 17:36:19 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Oh, I didn't think that. I was just meant in general.
btw, I thought this was well written. I didn't think to say that the first time.
Submitted by HonorableMention (user info) at 2005-10-03 17:32:03 EDT (#)
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This has nothing to do with Pentameter.
We're good friends from college, that's all.
Submitted by morontian (user info) at 2005-10-03 17:29:35 EDT (#)
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For airing dirty laundry. I love this kind of shit, God knows I do it.
Submitted by Pentameter (user info) at 2005-10-03 17:03:38 EDT (#)
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You writing is much better than this...you have so much good stuff!
Ah well...
Besos
Submitted by HonorableMention (user info) at 2005-10-03 17:00:51 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Pentameter (user info) at 2005-10-03 16:58:25 (#)
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Wow...what the hell were you thinking when you posted this?
I TOLD YOU THIS WOULD NOT GO OVER WELL DUMBASS!
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I just wanted to get it off of my chest, that's all.
I promise I'll try harder, Master!
Submitted by Pentameter (user info) at 2005-10-03 16:58:25 EDT (#)
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Wow...what the hell were you thinking when you posted this?
I TOLD YOU THIS WOULD NOT GO OVER WELL DUMBASS!
Submitted by JonnyX (user info) at 2005-10-03 16:57:58 EDT (#)
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"But I see two sets of footprints in the easy path in the sand, but where the ground turns rough, I see only one set of footprints, Lord!"
"Yes, my child, for you see, that is when I cut your fucking legs off and threw your corpse to the vultures..."
Submitted by Cam (user info) at 2005-10-03 16:57:04 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
nice...i think we have all had those moments in our lives
Submitted by Jeanneee (user info) at 2005-10-03 16:56:40 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Method (user info) at 2005-10-03 16:54:12 (#)
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Eric D. Rice makes his triumphant return to ubersite
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HAHAHAHAHA
Submitted by Method (user info) at 2005-10-03 16:54:12 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
Eric D. Rice makes his triumphant return to ubersite