I, Human part 6: Detachment (499 hits)
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Submitted by A-Daamage (View user info) at 2005-10-19 01:46:55 EDT
http://www.ubersite.com/m/62726 - part 1: Desolation
http://www.ubersite.com/m/62785 - part 2: Passion
http://www.ubersite.com/m/63538 - part 3: Confusion
http://www.ubersite.com/m/66740 - part 4: Decision
http://www.ubersite.com/m/68469 - part 5: Resolution
I have the hardest time making myself go to sleep. I only slept for 5 hours last night and it's almost midnight, I have class in the morning, and I just can't get in the mindset to rest. I'm exhausted to the point of seeing vague shapes in my peripheral vision. The only time I seem to want to go to sleep is when depression threatens to rear its dull, lifeless little head and I began to think about all those regrets that I've tried to relieve myself of, to no avail of course. And lately I can't seem to conjure a practical reason for why I continue to function. I eat, I learn, I shit, I shave, I talk, I work, I drive, I pay, I do this, I do that, and through all this I feel more and more like I'm the character in someone else's dream. Am I here? Does any of this matter?
Emotions don't seem real anymore. I laugh at humorous moments during TV shows or movies, but only because it's funny, not because it struck any chord with me. I release anger after confronting stupidity but only because it seems the necessary thing to do. Honestly, it just doesn't matter to me. People have their endless bouts of pseudo drama that make me want to be around them less and less. No one has any real problems anymore. With more and more people allowing themselves to fall into the mindless pit of the media and sports, the world becomes more and more dull and lifeless. My only escape from all this excess of nothing is through the music and art of those who can still think for themselves and don't really give a fuck what the rest of the world is doing.
People really couldn't get much more boring to me (oh man I hope I don't regret typing that). I can try to discuss the intricacies and mysteries of the universe or try to rouse debate over the existence of God and be met with nothing but a neverending sea of uncomprehending or apathetic eyes, but as soon as I mention reality TV, sports or marijuana, suddenly people want to talk to me. Are people this boring everywhere or just here? Maybe I'll move when I graduate college this Spring, hopefully to a place where baseball, weed and reality TV don't exist.
Any ideas?
"I'm right here where you left me, experimenting;
bored out of my fucking mind
Please give me a sign, please show me a sign,
please show me that you're alive
There's got to be another way,
another place for me,
please help me, please....
You'll never be what you try to be if you want to be it
God help the king of nothing
It's getting late, I'm getting old
and every night I just sleep
We never talk
And every night I look to the sky
and I pray to God they'll hear me
And if that's all there is,
if this is it, won't someone tell me?
'Cause I'm so fucking sick
of all you sick stupid people...."
- Spirituality, Strapping Young Lad
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Submitted by HighFructoseCornSyrup (user info) at 2005-10-24 01:26:02 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
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Submitted by A-Daamage (user info) at 2005-10-19 16:41:05 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
M - I wholeheartedly agree. Devin is the shit.
Ruth - From what I've read, I doubt I would find you boring.
W - Thanks for the kind words.
Submitted by Wrightcopy (user info) at 2005-10-19 14:26:30 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
The series reminds me of two series I've done for two different art classes where, to put it simply, I made things that represented emotions I commonly felt. But these are a lot better. Keep it up, I look forward to as many of these as you can come up with.
Submitted by Wrightcopy (user info) at 2005-10-19 13:58:40 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Only 3 reviews? What's up with that? This is good stuff right here.
Submitted by ruthless (user info) at 2005-10-19 13:34:30 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
You know what really scares me? When I start thinking that *I* am boring to other people.
Submitted by pen_name (user info) at 2005-10-19 12:53:06 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
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Submitted by morontian (user info) at 2005-10-19 09:56:12 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
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