A fear of holding hands...part one. (1048 hits)
Category: RomanceRating: 1.94 on 19 reviews (Rate this item) (V)
Submitted by Incredible Barnymeinhoff (View user info) at 2005-10-22 12:06:30 EDT
( In keeping with the season.)
Just before I go to sleep, In that time between my waking mind winding down and the potentially abstract oblivion of sleep and dreaming there exists a third state of consciousness. In this state my mind works on the two levels and slips and slides back and forth between them.
Neither fully asleep or awake I can be thinking of something as mundane as a conversation had with a colleague at work and slip from that into another time and another world and another life infinitely more interesting than the one that awaits me should I choose to open my eyes.
In recent days however I have become ever more aware that I am no longer alone in my thoughts during this silent time and increasingly I am aware that I am not alone in this house.
Last night as I lay there on the couch trying to ignore the cramp developing in my leg and turning my mind to happier times I could feel my own thoughts being tuned out like the slow turn of a radio dial and the thoughts of someone strange to me began to take precedence in my own mind.
The thoughts were female, there was no doubt of that but they were incoherent and violent in their intent. Whoever she was she was angry and it was clear that it was I who was the cause of her displeasure. Jumbled threats and profanities coursed through my mind as I struggled mentally to regain control of my own head. She was it seemed quite mad and the language seemed to come from one who had not spoken out loud for an eternity and had forgotten the pattern in which the words should be spoken. This caused her a further frustration that intensified her anger but as the fear my situation caused pushed me closer to full consciousness the visitor seemed to slip quietly from my mind again and I was once more alone with my thoughts.
At first I was terrified and my heart was beating so fast I feared that my situation would be worsened still by a coronary explosion. I was scared, scared to open my eyes in case the strange girl would be there in the darkened room to greet me. I was scared to keep them closed in case my thoughts should be invaded once again.
As time passed and I started to relax a new fear began the slow creep from the back of my mind, the fear for my own sanity.
Tiredness brought with it a release from my anxieties. Also I remembered the old adage that for one to consider oneself mad was a fair indication of ones sanity. I resigned myself to the fact that I had had a bad dream and nothing more sinister and with that I relaxed and began to wind down.
It was then that an ice-cold finger began a slow and torturous caress of my face; I lost control of my body and senses and began to shriek like a child.
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Submitted by Misanthropic (user info) at 2006-01-06 07:24:40 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Well written, and engrosing
Submitted by MisterBadger (user info) at 2006-01-06 07:00:14 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Fat Davros +2.
Submitted by The_Cyst_Master (user info) at 2005-11-30 23:31:20 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
creepingly awesome
Submitted by MandaPanda (user info) at 2005-11-30 23:09:52 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
I've had similar experiences.
Submitted by Professional_Peon (user info) at 2005-11-08 12:16:56 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
GET OUT OF MY BEDROOM!
Uber is full of stalkers today
Submitted by TigerLilly (user info) at 2005-11-08 11:27:36 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Good writing.
Submitted by Spam (user info) at 2005-11-08 11:19:02 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Nice
Submitted by jack11058 (user info) at 2005-10-26 09:29:38 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by Fabit (user info) at 2005-10-24 11:34:37 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by inbreakingnewsT.A.N. (user info) at 2005-10-24 06:49:08 (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by Fabit (user info) at 2005-10-24 06:28:09 (#)
Ranking: 2
Well written mate, looking for ward to pt2.
I'm genuionly impressed with how many people seem to believe that this actually happened!!
Genius
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I'm genuinely impressed with your grasp of the Queen's english, spelling, and the fact that you managed to read all this. Looking forward to seeing you repeat next year.
Well written Barny, Fabit can use this as a guide over the Christmas break
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I'm genuinly upset with my horrendous spelling today. I must practice before the morning. I think it's a result of using a computer solidly all day. When it's something that doesn't matter so much (like uber) I relax and go to ratshit!
Submitted by inbreakingnewsT.A.N. (user info) at 2005-10-24 06:49:08 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by Fabit (user info) at 2005-10-24 06:28:09 (#)
Ranking: 2
Well written mate, looking for ward to pt2.
I'm genuionly impressed with how many people seem to believe that this actually happened!!
Genius
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I'm genuinely impressed with your grasp of the Queen's english, spelling, and the fact that you managed to read all this. Looking forward to seeing you repeat next year.
Well written Barny, Fabit can use this as a guide over the Christmas break.
Submitted by Berty (user info) at 2005-10-24 06:37:53 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by Fabit (user info) at 2005-10-24 06:28:09 (#)
Ranking: 2
Well written mate, looking for ward to pt2.
I'm genuionly impressed with how many people seem to believe that this actually happened!!
Genius
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I know, the very idea that someone would lovingly 'caress' a male uberer is absurd, let alone Barny.
Submitted by Fabit (user info) at 2005-10-24 06:28:09 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Well written mate, looking for ward to pt2.
I'm genuionly impressed with how many people seem to believe that this actually happened!!
Genius
Submitted by forthewin (user info) at 2005-10-23 00:01:28 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Perfectly written, I'd say.
Submitted by sparkle_pink (user info) at 2005-10-22 15:59:08 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Sounds like you had a panic attack.
Those are really scary the first time they happen.
Submitted by ghola (user info) at 2005-10-22 15:56:04 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by Barnymeinhoff (user info) at 2005-10-22 12:22:03 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
I managed to fuck up entering the gruberfest so I thought I would do a spooky post or two.
Submitted by badassmofo (user info) at 2005-10-22 12:15:12 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
are you coming out?
Well you have me interested enough to read the next.
Submitted by Bubba2341 (user info) at 2005-10-22 12:11:25 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Step away from the crack pipe. Now.
Submitted by missedthepoint (user info) at 2005-10-22 12:09:52 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
sweet jesus man -
i'll send you some of my valium