Ecstasy : Coming Up (1635 hits)
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Submitted by Spam (View user info) at 2005-10-25 05:27:42 EDT
Part 1 Dropping - http://www.ubersite.com/m/77028
Part 2 Crashing - http://www.ubersite.com/m/77213
"Mate," He says with a chuckle, "you look like shit."
I don't know if he's trying to raise a smile or if it's just a factual observation but either way, he gets no reaction, I'm not confident enough in my ability to manipulate the muscles in my face, so instead I just let my head loll on the back of my chair and close my eyes.
Not one of my better ideas.
The removal of vision seems to shut down all other external senses, the only things that exist in my world now are the pressure in my chest and the turmoil in my head as my mind tries to deal with a chaotic mass of half-formed thoughts that are barely sensible at the best of times. My heart is tearing itself apart and I can almost feel the blood racing around my body, dispensing more of the poison in it's wake. There's a prickle across every inch of my skin as each individual hair uncurls itself to stand on end - I don't have to open my eyes to know that I've got goose pimples to go with it. So Why am I still fucking sweating? This whole thought process is played out over of the thumping baseline of my heart and the rhythm section of breathless inhalations that echo around my head far louder then is necessary.
H E A T
I've now completely lost all feeling in my limbs and with my eyes still firmly shut, they may as well not exist. An icy grip ensnares my groin as gravity shifts slightly and reality starts to revolve around me. Soon I'm completely disorientated, no concept of up and down, or left and right, no concept of anything at all. My whole universe is contained within a floating bubble of consciousness created by my random thoughts echoing across the infinite. Nothing else exists bu...
"Dude. Take this"
My eyes snap open and reality slides into focus in a blur lasts for a brief eternity.
Rob is squatting in front of my armchair so that he intrudes on my field on vision, he's coated in perspiration but there's a joyous grin on his face as he pushes a glass of ice-water in my hand and closes my fingers around it.
"Drink." he says.
I try to mumble an objection, earlier fears of water-poisoning resurfacing. He interjects in a reassuring voice:
"You're coming up dude. The feeling's gonna be a little intense because we Fucked Up and these pills are pretty fucking strong. You'll be okay in a few minutes though, just ride it out and try to go with it." His plastic smile remains as he continues, but something in his eyes changes, like he knows exactly what's dominating my thoughts. "If you were gonna die, I'd've left already"
Relief. With one hearty team speech and a lame joke, he's laid waste to the plethora of paranoia that I was in serious danger of succumbing to. Rob's a fucking pill monster, if anybody knows what they're doing, it's him. He says this slow motion hell will subside, so that means it will. I'm gonna be okay. Jesus Christ, I'm gonna be okay. I fucking love this guy.
My whole state of mind shifts poles into positive and The Fear I felt previously evaporates far faster then the sweat that's practically steaming from my super-heated body ever will. I still feel weak but now, armed with an optimistic outlook, I am amble to relate it to the light-headed euphoria experienced after a bout of intense fucking. A lazy smile slowly ambles it's away across my face and even though I can still barely see anything but white noise through the slits of my eyes, I realise that actually it's quite enjoyable.
Seizing the moment, an enterprising group of neurons amongst my mushy grey-matter decides to take the initiative and out of nowhere It's delivering a pep talk to the rest of my collective consciousness. 'It's all just the drugs man,' says my internal voice, 'What you're experiencing right now is caused by the chemicals in those two pills mixing with your body chemistry. You're not going mad. Things are going to be a little tough for a few minutes as you try to adjust but then everything's gonna be peaches and cream. Even if it's too much for you to handle, whatever happens is only going to last for this night. Tomorrow, everything'll be just fine. Try and enjoy it. It's all just the drugs.... Tomorrow everything'll be fine.' The reassurance feels good. Really good.
I take a sip of the water I'd almost forgotten I was holding and shudder with pleasure at the sensation of the near-freezing liquid sliding down my throat and dousing the inferno. Christ that tastes good. I look down and see that I'm intensely massaging the palm of my left hand with the thumb of my right. Curiously, this strips me of all agitation and the twitchiness of earlier crumbles under the weight of concentration I appear to be putting into this one relaxing act. Then, doubt needles me for a second as I dwell on how strange I must look, sitting here rubbing my palms together like some sort of Bond villain seconds before big Jim gets the worlds most technologically advanced circumcision. I need something else to think about.
Cigarette.
There's a Benson in my mouth almost before I make the decision and without thinking, I grind lighter wheel against flint and push down on the button to release the gas that ignites on the subsequent sparks with a faint 'thwap'. A hazy flame shoots forth from my fist, glowing and flickering.
I stare at it in rapt wonder until I start to feel the flint-wheel growing hotter against my thumb.
"That..." I say to Rob in an almost breathless whisper, "Is the most amazing thing I've ever fucking seen."
There's a derisive snort from one of the pot-heads but that doesn't much matter, even if the image hadn't stripped my vocabulary down to the monosyllabic, there's no words in my arsenal to explain to them the profound sense of beauty and peace I feel just watching this flame dance for me. If they don't understand it, then it's not worth my time to describe it.
Rob's about to retort on my behalf when a bassey note from the TV throbs through the room and reduces everybody to silence, stoner and pillhead alike. It's a car advert, but I couldn't tell you the make - as soon as the note hits me my head empties completely and I don't even notice that I've closed my eyes and begun swaying rhythmically, letting the music flow through me. Nothing is said for the entire 45 second duration of the piece as everybody is taken away to their own personal plai,n even the pot heads are sucked in.
And then, when it's over, Rob says:
'I'm gonna put some music on'
And that's when all hell started to break loose.
User Reviews
Submitted by Linus (user info) at 2008-08-17 13:50:50 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
+2 Spam. I hope this works--goddamn thing took me an hour to write.
Submitted by missedthepoint (user info) at 2005-10-26 09:33:06 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I stare at it in rapt wonder until I start to feel the flint-wheel growing hotter against my thumb.
"That..." I say to Rob in an almost breathless whisper, "Is the most amazing thing I've ever fucking seen."
There's a derisive snort from one of the pot-heads but that doesn't much matter, even if the image hadn't stripped my vocabulary down to the monosyllabic, there's no words in my arsenal to explain to them the profound sense of beauty and peace I feel just watching this flame dance for me. If they don't understand it, then it's not worth my time to describe it.
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E-piphany: (n)
The moment during an Ecstasy trip where suddenly all the world makes sense and total harmony with the universe and all people seems possible.
Instantly forgotten once down from the peak.
(www.urbandictionary.com)
Submitted by Caulaincourt (user info) at 2005-10-26 09:24:13 EDT (#)
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No Comment
Submitted by Siren (user info) at 2005-10-26 09:07:58 EDT (#)
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I like your writing.
Submitted by Spam (user info) at 2005-10-26 08:46:27 EDT (#)
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Cunts gave me a final written warning, and told me that if have another day off sick in 12 months they would consider it an act of Gross Misconduct and I would be summarily dismessed. They also stripped me of my christmas bonus (about £1K) and told me that I wouldn't be eligable for a pay-rise for the next 12 months.
I was(am) most unhappy about it.
Submitted by rad1101 (user info) at 2005-10-26 08:32:46 EDT (#)
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did you get sacked?
Submitted by rad1101 (user info) at 2005-10-26 07:42:42 EDT (#)
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if I ever decided to do some X im coming to briterland
Submitted by Spam (user info) at 2005-10-25 14:16:09 EDT (#)
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Submitted by bobotheclown (user info) at 2005-10-25 11:44:15 (#)
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I am amble to relate it to the light-headed euphoria experienced after a bout of intense fucking.
i think the use of 'amble' here actually approaches Great Master Shandy's brilliance.
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Fuck. I missed that.
Submitted by Spam (user info) at 2005-10-25 13:39:06 EDT (#)
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20 quid??
fuck me, Brits pay on average between £1-3 pound a pop. And that's if you buy pissy amounts like 5 or 10.
Submitted by bobotheclown (user info) at 2005-10-25 11:48:50 EDT (#)
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one pound for an eccy pill????
good god, i think they are more like 30 or 40 dollars here
ie about 20 pounds
Submitted by bobotheclown (user info) at 2005-10-25 11:44:15 EDT (#)
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I am amble to relate it to the light-headed euphoria experienced after a bout of intense fucking.
i think the use of 'amble' here actually approaches Great Master Shandy's brilliance.
Submitted by hairycoo (user info) at 2005-10-25 11:43:29 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
its the off season shandy, this year its pills coz well, they are cheap. my msn money tells me to stop blowing 90% of my cash on coke, so its got to stop. ONE POUND these little ones are
triathlon is from April to September, if I make it it until then that is
Submitted by fudgepacker (user info) at 2005-10-25 11:42:15 EDT (#)
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i hate ecstasy.
Submitted by bobotheclown (user info) at 2005-10-25 11:34:58 EDT (#)
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hairy, i really think you need to pursue a natural high via good healthy exercise
Submitted by hairycoo (user info) at 2005-10-25 11:27:28 EDT (#)
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coming down......
I just managed to piss for the first time since Saturday morning
i dont expect to get it up until the end of the week
stomach still rock hard.. never sure what thats all about
suicide seemed a reasonable option yesterday
concentration levels have dropped from 10 secs to 1 second
Im in jeans and a t-shirt today and havent shaved since last Thursday
now Im ready for Saturday... anyone up for it ?
http://www.wildchild-uk.com/nextevent.htm
Submitted by Spam (user info) at 2005-10-25 11:26:44 EDT (#)
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oddly enough, I actually thought of you when typing the 'intense bout of fucking' line, not in a homosexual way you understand but it just seemed like a rather shandyesque statement. Without the literary genius of course.
Submitted by Spam (user info) at 2005-10-25 11:24:42 EDT (#)
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thank you for you comments shand... er Bobo.
The all hell breaks lose line couldnt possibly annoy you more than it does me, but as discussed in earlier reviews I got fucked off with writing about it - 'I feel this', 'I realise that', 'just then I notice...' etc etc etc.
eventually I got to the point where I had a sizable chunk of text and just thought 'fuck it, that'll do' so I banged in a nicely cliched line of text to close and posted the fucker. regret it a little now but thems the breaks.
Submitted by cuberat (user info) at 2005-10-25 11:17:12 EDT (#)
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Submitted by bobotheclown (user info) at 2005-10-25 10:42:17 EDT (#)
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good show, well descrfibed.
'all hell breaks loose' a bit annoying, but otherwise very realistic and evocative.
the awareness that you are on drugs, the reassurance of that, is a good thing i have to agree.
but don't forget that the lighter flame actually IS incredibly beautiful and absorbing, the nice drug has just helped you perceive it.
Submitted by bobotheclown (user info) at 2005-10-25 10:36:43 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
also liked how it was the friendly voice of a friend that was your lifeline
this is all very poignant, beyond the mere escatcy aspect
Submitted by bobotheclown (user info) at 2005-10-25 10:34:23 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
very good so far, just pausing as this bit interested me greatly:
experienced after a bout of intense fucking.
interesting how relazation and release from the Fear is associated with a pleasant physical feeling, of a sexual hue.
i thnk this all has something to do with the murhilidithiran chakra
Submitted by rayrayshanaynay (user info) at 2005-10-25 10:08:41 EDT (#)
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I just read all the parts and this really took me back to about 5 years ago.
Oh and last weekend. Good times!
Submitted by RamJetMax (user info) at 2005-10-25 09:57:04 EDT (#)
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No Comment
Submitted by Spam (user info) at 2005-10-25 09:49:03 EDT (#)
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Submitted by hairycoo (user info) at 2005-10-25 09:41:11 (#)
Ranking: 1
needs more rape
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at least it wasn't a zero.
Submitted by hairycoo (user info) at 2005-10-25 09:41:11 EDT (#)
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needs more rape
Submitted by Spam (user info) at 2005-10-25 09:23:48 EDT (#)
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sounds good to me, all I need now is somebody desperate enough to want to rape the HR lady and grotesque enough to make it emotionally damageing for her.
Jamie, you busy today?
Submitted by Berty (user info) at 2005-10-25 09:19:39 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Spam (user info) at 2005-10-25 09:08:56 (#)
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Submitted by Berty (user info) at 2005-10-25 09:04:01 (#)
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Submitted by Spam (user info) at 2005-10-25 08:58:56 (#)
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Submitted by rad1101 (user info) at 2005-10-25 08:45:21 (#)
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I'd like to know how this turned out.
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I had planned another installment, but I'm getting bored of writing it to be honestm and from the looks of some of the comments that's starting to show.
Berty: I may indeed write another Disciplinary story soon as I have a meeting with HR in T- 1.5 hrs.
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<insert slightly worrying comment about abuse of the 'double jeopardy' law and rape here>
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is that where they give you the answer and you have to give them the relevant question and if you get it wrong they fuck you?
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Close. It means you hire a man to go in your place to the disciplinary, beat and rape everyone and then "frame you". You then get off from a surprise defence and then you more or less own the victims because you can do all sorts of depraved things to them with your anatomy and become immune to British law.
Submitted by Spam (user info) at 2005-10-25 09:08:56 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Berty (user info) at 2005-10-25 09:04:01 (#)
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Submitted by Spam (user info) at 2005-10-25 08:58:56 (#)
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Submitted by rad1101 (user info) at 2005-10-25 08:45:21 (#)
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I'd like to know how this turned out.
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I had planned another installment, but I'm getting bored of writing it to be honestm and from the looks of some of the comments that's starting to show.
Berty: I may indeed write another Disciplinary story soon as I have a meeting with HR in T- 1.5 hrs.
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<insert slightly worrying comment about abuse of the 'double jeopardy' law and rape here>
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is that where they give you the answer and you have to give them the relevant question and if you get it wrong they fuck you?
Submitted by Berty (user info) at 2005-10-25 09:04:01 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Spam (user info) at 2005-10-25 08:58:56 (#)
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Submitted by rad1101 (user info) at 2005-10-25 08:45:21 (#)
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I'd like to know how this turned out.
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I had planned another installment, but I'm getting bored of writing it to be honestm and from the looks of some of the comments that's starting to show.
Berty: I may indeed write another Disciplinary story soon as I have a meeting with HR in T- 1.5 hrs.
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<insert slightly worrying comment about abuse of the 'double jeopardy' law and rape here>
Submitted by Spam (user info) at 2005-10-25 08:58:56 EDT (#)
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Submitted by rad1101 (user info) at 2005-10-25 08:45:21 (#)
Ranking: 2
I'd like to know how this turned out.
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I had planned another installment, but I'm getting bored of writing it to be honestm and from the looks of some of the comments that's starting to show.
Berty: I may indeed write another Disciplinary story soon as I have a meeting with HR in T- 1.5 hrs.
Submitted by rad1101 (user info) at 2005-10-25 08:45:21 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I'd like to know how this turned out.
Submitted by Berty (user info) at 2005-10-25 08:44:41 EDT (#)
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Submitted by rad1101 (user info) at 2005-10-25 08:39:03 (#)
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this installment could have been a bit longer.
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ANy longer and it would just be tedious.
No, it was as long as it should be. Now Spam is able to tell us more amusing stories of beating women and riding roughshod over company/social policy.
Submitted by rad1101 (user info) at 2005-10-25 08:39:03 EDT (#)
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this installment could have been a bit longer.
Submitted by rad1101 (user info) at 2005-10-25 08:38:27 EDT (#)
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Sorry, I was so involved with my own post (i actually put work into that one, not like all the others I have done)
I will camp here for a bit
Submitted by Spam (user info) at 2005-10-25 08:12:58 EDT (#)
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no most heated for this installment then.
Submitted by Spam (user info) at 2005-10-25 07:09:51 EDT (#)
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Submitted by apollo88 (user info) at 2005-10-25 06:53:08 (#)
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http://www.ubersite.com/m/77689
your king has spake.
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king of snake?
Submitted by ozzy (user info) at 2005-10-25 07:09:42 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Spam (user info) at 2005-10-25 05:48:00 (#)
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Submitted by Arthur_Dent (user info) at 2005-10-25 05:44:37 (#)
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rubbish this one sam.
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Any advice?
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Fuck, I liked it.
Submitted by Fabit (user info) at 2005-10-25 06:54:12 EDT (#)
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Very cool, these posts is really making me remember good work Mr Spam.
Submitted by apollo88 (user info) at 2005-10-25 06:53:08 EDT (#)
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http://www.ubersite.com/m/77689
your king has spake.
Submitted by rad1101 (user info) at 2005-10-25 06:38:58 EDT (#)
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yummy.
Submitted by Spam (user info) at 2005-10-25 06:24:41 EDT (#)
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Submitted by rad1101 (user info) at 2005-10-25 06:19:02 (#)
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im his people.
btw
I POSTED SOMETHING THAT WASNT COMPLETE SHIT JUST NOW
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*dies*
Submitted by rad1101 (user info) at 2005-10-25 06:23:04 EDT (#)
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well, the possibility exists that it was complete rubbish, but at least it took me a while to write.
Submitted by rad1101 (user info) at 2005-10-25 06:19:02 EDT (#)
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im his people.
btw
I POSTED SOMETHING THAT WASNT COMPLETE SHIT JUST NOW
Submitted by Spam (user info) at 2005-10-25 06:18:57 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Berty (user info) at 2005-10-25 06:16:10 (#)
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Submitted by Spam (user info) at 2005-10-25 06:03:28 (#)
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There's a lot to what you say Denty me ol chum, appreciate your honesty. Have you noticed that theres been a subtle change in rating trends since Rad went off the rails? I rather like it.
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He's not going to answer you. He doesn't care about us anymore. We are no longer 'his' people.
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good riddance I say. I was getting tired of having to tolerate him and laugh at his jokes just because he was in the NVA. Commie bastard.
Submitted by Berty (user info) at 2005-10-25 06:16:10 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Spam (user info) at 2005-10-25 06:03:28 (#)
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There's a lot to what you say Denty me ol chum, appreciate your honesty. Have you noticed that theres been a subtle change in rating trends since Rad went off the rails? I rather like it.
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He's not going to answer you. He doesn't care about us anymore. We are no longer 'his' people.
Submitted by Spam (user info) at 2005-10-25 06:03:28 EDT (#)
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There's a lot to what you say Denty me ol chum, appreciate your honesty. Have you noticed that theres been a subtle change in rating trends since Rad went off the rails? I rather like it.
Submitted by Berty (user info) at 2005-10-25 05:59:31 EDT (#)
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It's a sad day when non poor Englishmen fight one another or have any sort of disagreement whatsoever.
Lets have a group hug.
Submitted by Arthur_Dent (user info) at 2005-10-25 05:53:52 EDT (#)
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it has just come across on this one that you can't really be arsed writing it.
like the music bit for example that could have been described and gone into in a great deal more depth and it just petered out at the end.
in my not so humble opinion.
Submitted by Spam (user info) at 2005-10-25 05:48:50 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Berty (user info) at 2005-10-25 05:46:06 (#)
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I'll admit that I haven't really read this. I mean I skimmed it a little, picked out the key words, something about a lighter...
Anyway, can you sum it all up in a single sentance for me?
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er.. 'rubbish'... apparantly.
Submitted by Spam (user info) at 2005-10-25 05:48:00 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Arthur_Dent (user info) at 2005-10-25 05:44:37 (#)
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rubbish this one sam.
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Any advice?
Submitted by Berty (user info) at 2005-10-25 05:46:06 EDT (#)
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I'll admit that I haven't really read this. I mean I skimmed it a little, picked out the key words, something about a lighter...
Anyway, can you sum it all up in a single sentance for me?
Submitted by Arthur_Dent (user info) at 2005-10-25 05:44:37 EDT (#)
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rubbish this one sam.
Submitted by sinna (user info) at 2005-10-25 05:43:05 EDT (#)
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Not quite as good as the last 2, but still shit hot.
Submitted by Barnymeinhoff (user info) at 2005-10-25 05:38:24 EDT (#)
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Shout out to the fiberoptic crew, MDMA clear caps at the front of the stage. Trisha from Darlington can you meet Sarah by the cloak room. they do it in fields and old bill dont know....etc boom badda boom badda boom badda boom.
Submitted by GREEEN (user info) at 2005-10-25 05:37:56 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Spam (user info) at 2005-10-25 05:28:47 EDT (#)
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It's sketchy, but I can't be arsed.