My visit with Emma (987 hits)
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Submitted by rayrayshanaynay (View user info) at 2005-10-26 09:28:09 EDT
I finally set a date to see my daughter, Emma. My Christmas card last year said I'd be in touch after the holidays. We should see each other again soon. I look forward to it.
Has it been a year already? I never made that call and my telephone number changes so often, Emma's mother can't get a hold of me. So last week I call. On the phone I shake from guilt and nerves. I haven't called or seen her in a year.
I knew when I was pregnant that she was not for me. There was a couple out there in need of a child. I found them. They had already adopted once and wanted another. "Perfect", I thought, "she'll have an older sister". Olivia is only a year or so older than Emma so they'll be close. I liked that.
I didn't see the disadvantages at the time. I know that Olivia's birth mother gives Emma presents, so I always have a gift for Olivia as well. I believe Olivia's birth mother visits more. I wonder, "Will my daughter think that I'm a dead-beat birth mother?"
It's Sunday and I'm making the drive to visit her. I have my gifts wrapped. They're in a bag on the front seat next to the apple pie I bought at the grocery store. The pie is cheap but I feel the need to bring something when I'm invited to their home.
When I get to the door Olivia is already there and yelling to Emma that "Rachael's here!" They're all dressed in their Sunday best. I now feel under dressed. I'm embarrassed that I didn't make the effort to look nicer.
Emma is absolutely gorgeous, which is hardly surprising, seeing as I gave birth to her. She is SO excited to see me. We talk and eat our lunches. Emma mostly talks. Her mother gives me tastes of what it's like having her in their lives. Her life is so busy with piano lessons, soccer, ballet lessons and, of course, Brownies. She's positively radiant or "an exuberant girl" as her mother put it. After we have cake, pictures are brought out. I never got into the whole scrap booking thing but I compliment on how nice it is. I'm looking at a book/photo album that was put together just for Emma. Olivia has one too apparently.
As I turn the pages, my eyes are watering. There's a letter to Emma on the page near her baptism pictures. The mother writes about how grateful she and her husband are. She thanks God for their gift. I decide to take most of the credit. It's so beautiful, the tears are now streaming and Emma tells me not to cry. I tell her about the day I met her parents and her sister. I tell her that I knew they'd be perfect. I knew they'd love her so much and give her all the things I wanted her to have, that she deserved to have.
Emma will be seven years old on Saturday. However, she seemed more mature when she looked me in the eyes and simply replied, "They do".
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Submitted by inion_de_trua (user info) at 2005-11-23 14:01:52 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
i keep readin stuff today that makes me cry. i really really gotta stop that. great.
Submitted by OneCheapGeek (user info) at 2005-10-26 22:22:55 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
While I congratulate you on not having them suck her out with a vacuum and crush her skull at 6 weeks, this is NOT good writing and I'm not going to give you a +2 because you "were so brave and made a tough choice" or whatever.
But, you didn't fuck anything up too glaringly, it's just a flat story.
Submitted by sideshow (user info) at 2005-10-26 18:33:43 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I was gonna rate, then I saw the perfect +2 streak. Then I thought about breaking it, then I thought about not being an ass and giving it a +2 anyways. One of my best friends is adopted, and I wasn't allowed to have contact with his birth mother until he was 18. Now, I think he maybe has meet her once in his life, and she only did it because he wanted her to.
You obviously care about the little creature you created and that is very commendable. Have a +2 for being such a loving mother.
Submitted by KillerCowz (user info) at 2005-10-26 16:50:36 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
great story ray
Submitted by Teephphah (user info) at 2005-10-26 13:16:08 EDT (#)
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Oh man.
Submitted by badassmofo (user info) at 2005-10-26 13:12:00 EDT (#)
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Submitted by HadToBeDone (user info) at 2005-10-26 12:30:29 (#)
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We're into "I don't want to break the streak" and "I don't want to appear to be an insensitive clod by not +2ing such a tearjerking post" ratings....We're such sad sheep.
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Submitted by Professional_Peon (user info) at 2005-10-26 13:02:47 EDT (#)
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Submitted by HadToBeDone (user info) at 2005-10-26 12:30:29 (#)
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We're into "I don't want to break the streak" and "I don't want to appear to be an insensitive clod by not +2ing such a tearjerking post" ratings....We're such sad sheep.
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Well, I don't know about you, but I wouldn't give it anything but a plus one. Mostly because her effort is awesome!
I have two cousins who are adopted. When we found out the little one had Muscular Dystrophy (sp?) They tried to contact her birth parents (they also had an open adoption) but they didn't respond to calls or letters.
My cousin's heart was broken. She was only 6 at the time and didn't understand why her birth parents didn't love her.
+2 for anything that makes a child feel loved.
Submitted by HadToBeDone (user info) at 2005-10-26 12:30:29 EDT (#)
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We're into "I don't want to break the streak" and "I don't want to appear to be an insensitive clod by not +2ing such a tearjerking post" ratings....We're such sad sheep.
Submitted by TigerLilly (user info) at 2005-10-26 12:28:15 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Wow Ray, You're second on Best Ever.
Go you!
Submitted by mbstateside (user info) at 2005-10-26 12:27:51 EDT (#)
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Submitted by rayrayshanaynay (user info) at 2005-10-26 12:22:33 (#)
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Submitted by The_Yellow_Dart (user info) at 2005-10-26 12:18:35 (#)
Ranking: 2
Does the birth father do this too?
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No. Everything was done to try and contact said father, from a legal standpoint. No response.
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Don't you just love guys like that. Makes you proud to pee greater than you own height.
Submitted by rayrayshanaynay (user info) at 2005-10-26 12:22:33 EDT (#)
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Submitted by The_Yellow_Dart (user info) at 2005-10-26 12:18:35 (#)
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Does the birth father do this too?
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No. Everything was done to try and contact said father, from a legal standpoint. No response.
Submitted by The_Yellow_Dart (user info) at 2005-10-26 12:18:35 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Does the birth father do this too?
Submitted by LiquidPaper (user info) at 2005-10-26 12:15:17 EDT (#)
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I was adopted. Nice story.
Real good that you keep intouch with her.
Submitted by jack11058 (user info) at 2005-10-26 12:14:58 EDT (#)
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you're lucky. a lot of adopted parents wouldn't let my er their children see the birth parents.
Submitted by Professional_Peon (user info) at 2005-10-26 11:53:57 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
My luck I woulda done that and my kid woulda ended up sleepin in a crate in Ohio.
But don't get me wrong, I do cherish the little picklehead.
Submitted by rayrayshanaynay (user info) at 2005-10-26 11:51:31 EDT (#)
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Submitted by TigerLilly (user info) at 2005-10-26 11:43:16 (#)
Ranking: 2
Ray, drinks this weekend?
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Why must we always wait for the weekend? Why can't we go to Sully's tonight?!
Submitted by TigerLilly (user info) at 2005-10-26 11:43:16 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Ray, drinks this weekend?
Submitted by mbstateside (user info) at 2005-10-26 11:29:14 EDT (#)
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Please take this +2 and give it Emma's adopted parents when you see them.
Submitted by missflibble (user info) at 2005-10-26 11:09:12 EDT (#)
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you're very lucky to be able to be in contact with her.
Submitted by Pentameter (user info) at 2005-10-26 10:58:18 EDT (#)
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Sometimes it's hard to do the right thing.
Submitted by TigerLilly (user info) at 2005-10-26 10:52:51 EDT (#)
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Submitted by rayrayshanaynay (user info) at 2005-10-26 09:59:45 (#)
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Submitted by apollo88 (user info) at 2005-10-26 09:54:00 (#)
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that must have been difficult.
got anymore i can have?
i'll 'love' 'em alright.
Oh yes.
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Meet me by the dumpster in the alley on Lafayette in half hour. You'll have your kid in nine months.
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Ahahahaha...that's my slut!
I love being your friend too. Lets make out.
Submitted by rayrayshanaynay (user info) at 2005-10-26 10:28:14 EDT (#)
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Submitted by CHR15 (user info) at 2005-10-26 10:15:00 (#)
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I meant that you seem very genuine, infact it is difficult to explain what I meant, just the girl I was talking about, her birth Mother caused a lot of hurt to everyone.
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I appreciate that. I may not send a card every freaking holiday, but my intentions are always good. Thanks.
Submitted by apollo88 (user info) at 2005-10-26 10:26:25 EDT (#)
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Submitted by rayrayshanaynay (user info) at 2005-10-26 09:59:45 (#)
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Submitted by apollo88 (user info) at 2005-10-26 09:54:00 (#)
Ranking: 2
that must have been difficult.
got anymore i can have?
i'll 'love' 'em alright.
Oh yes.
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Meet me by the dumpster in the alley on Lafayette in half hour."""
um, that means absolutely nothing to me.
I understood 'alley' and 'half hour'.
damn, i need to brush up on my 'merican considering i will be one on monday.
Submitted by CHR15 (user info) at 2005-10-26 10:25:04 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
*Watches Chris dig hole in wry amusement*
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Shovel, anyone?
Submitted by Mike00295 (user info) at 2005-10-26 10:23:57 EDT (#)
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On a much lighter note...http://www.ubersite.com/m/77780
God, I am such a whore.
Submitted by Berty (user info) at 2005-10-26 10:21:11 EDT (#)
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Submitted by CHR15 (user info) at 2005-10-26 10:15:00 (#)
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I meant that you seem very genuine, infact it is difficult to explain what I meant, just the girl I was talking about, her birth Mother caused a lot of hurt to everyone.
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*Watches Chris dig hole in wry amusement*
Submitted by HadToBeDone (user info) at 2005-10-26 10:15:38 EDT (#)
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Well written? Not really.
Beautiful sentiment? Yup.
+2 worthy? Not exactly.
But people hate me enough already, so here you go.
Submitted by CHR15 (user info) at 2005-10-26 10:15:00 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I meant that you seem very genuine, infact it is difficult to explain what I meant, just the girl I was talking about, her birth Mother caused a lot of hurt to everyone.
Submitted by rayrayshanaynay (user info) at 2005-10-26 10:10:20 EDT (#)
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Submitted by CHR15 (user info) at 2005-10-26 10:05:39 (#)
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Beautiful.
The only girl I've ever loved was adopted, her birth Mum was crap though.
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That's why we're birth mums and not the actual Mums.
Submitted by CHR15 (user info) at 2005-10-26 10:05:39 EDT (#)
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Beautiful.
The only girl I've ever loved was adopted, her birth Mum was crap though.
Submitted by Berty (user info) at 2005-10-26 10:04:00 EDT (#)
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Submitted by rayrayshanaynay (user info) at 2005-10-26 09:59:45 (#)
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Submitted by apollo88 (user info) at 2005-10-26 09:54:00 (#)
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that must have been difficult.
got anymore i can have?
i'll 'love' 'em alright.
Oh yes.
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Meet me by the dumpster in the alley on Lafayette in half hour. You'll have your kid in nine months.
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Is that wise? I mean, you have SEEN the size of that mans head haven't you?
Submitted by Ballare (user info) at 2005-10-26 10:00:47 EDT (#)
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I didn't think it was all that amazing like the other raters did, but I'm not going to break a streak and I did read it, so here.
Submitted by rayrayshanaynay (user info) at 2005-10-26 09:59:45 EDT (#)
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Submitted by apollo88 (user info) at 2005-10-26 09:54:00 (#)
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that must have been difficult.
got anymore i can have?
i'll 'love' 'em alright.
Oh yes.
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Meet me by the dumpster in the alley on Lafayette in half hour. You'll have your kid in nine months.
Submitted by apollo88 (user info) at 2005-10-26 09:54:00 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
that must have been difficult.
got anymore i can have?
i'll 'love' 'em alright.
Oh yes.
Submitted by Average_Dan (user info) at 2005-10-26 09:53:53 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Berty (user info) at 2005-10-26 09:49:37 (#)
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What sickening girly love.
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Ahaha
Submitted by ozzy (user info) at 2005-10-26 09:53:34 EDT (#)
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After the first paragraph I had my -2 trigger finger ready, but this just evolved into a better and better peice as I read.
Well done.
Submitted by Berty (user info) at 2005-10-26 09:49:37 EDT (#)
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What sickening girly love.
Submitted by rayrayshanaynay (user info) at 2005-10-26 09:47:24 EDT (#)
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You know I love being your friend TL!
Submitted by TigerLilly (user info) at 2005-10-26 09:46:16 EDT (#)
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I
LOVE
YOU
RAY
THANKS FOR ALWAYS BEING MY BEST FRIEND.
Submitted by Berty (user info) at 2005-10-26 09:45:03 EDT (#)
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I'm not too sure what to say.
Submitted by Average_Dan (user info) at 2005-10-26 09:42:23 EDT (#)
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Nice RayRay.
Submitted by Compulsory (user info) at 2005-10-26 09:41:47 EDT (#)
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Very well written.
Submitted by Jeanneee (user info) at 2005-10-26 09:39:55 EDT (#)
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Amazing.
Submitted by badassmofo (user info) at 2005-10-26 09:37:32 EDT (#)
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was not ready for this.
Submitted by Fabit (user info) at 2005-10-26 09:36:57 EDT (#)
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wow, very cool. Good work,
Submitted by Mike00295 (user info) at 2005-10-26 09:32:03 EDT (#)
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