My sexual history (1921 hits)
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Submitted by Cheryl Duffybuffyboo <sionscumslut.at.yahoo.com> (View user info) at 2005-11-20 02:09:39 EST
how to start?
i have had a sexual awareness as far back as i can remember, and that's really fucking far back. just to give you an example, i have at least one memory from when i was around two-three years old, believe it or not, but it's true. ok, i don't remember having a sexual awareness at that age, but i do during all of my meoeries after that.
i'm a little drunk by the way. i'm trying to avoid typos, but i'm sure they will sneak in.
i don't know where my sexual awareness snuck in, but it did. sometime after turning three, but before turning five, i had a little girlfriend of the same age. we played and explored eachother like some kids do. i clearly remember there being more to the games than just curiousity. i felt a kind of intimacy and the beginnings of a sexual stirring. i don't know wheer it came from, exactly, but i have an idea. more about that later.
i turned five and my family moved. i met a couple more little girls and, somewhere between the ages of five and seven, i had sex with one of them (vaginal and oral) and expiremented with a couple more of them. i also expiremented with a boy my age who was the brother of the girl i had sex with (he watched a couple of times, but i don't recall them interacting sexually), and.... i had sex with my older sister, but only once. when i was a little bit older i expirimented and had oral sex with an older male cousin and an older female cousin. they were both adopted so i don't know whether or not to consider that incest. everything but the encounters with my sister and cousins was initiated by me.
even though my sister and cousins were older, and were the initiators, i never felt bad, gulity, or in the least bit traumatized. i never considered myself a victim of molestation. i, for the most part, enjoyed everything, or was at least curious enough to engage without too much coercion. besides, i was an unusually sexual and horny kid. i wanted things to happen, and my innocence (or ignorance) made it easy for me to see nothing wrong with what was going on. the only time i remember feeling uncomfortable at all was the time with my sister, but only a little.
when i was ten years old it came out that my father had been molesting my then sixteen year old sister since she was very young. this explains why she did what she did with me. and, since adulthood, i've wondered if it played any part, whether i could remember it or not, in my unnaturally early sexual development.
i once talked to my mother about it and she told me an interesting story. she said that my fahter had been having an affair when i was very young, and that she accepted it (my parents were hippies and my mother was trying to be an accepting, modern woman). she said that apparently my father would occasionally take me with him to visit his other woman. one time, after the affair was supposedly over, my mother, my father, myself, and some of my parents friends went to visit the woman my father had had an affair with. my mother says that when we got there, i climbed up on the couch and immediatly, and excitedly, took all my clothes off.
my mother thought this was strange behavior, but didn't think anything of it until years later when she found out about my father and my sister. so now she wonders, as do i, whether or not i was involved in something with my father and his mistress, whther it was just watching or participating. i can't remember, but it would explain my sexual awareness at such a young age.
i also have two very dim memories of my mother that i don't know what to do with. they could be innocent, but i don't really know. the first took place sometime before, or right after i turned five. i was in the bathtub with my mom and she was bathing me. she was either pregnant with my little brother, or had just recently given birth to him. either way, she was lactating. we played a game where she would squeeze her breast and nipple so that it would squirt her milk at me, and i would try to catch it in my mouth. we both thought it was fun and i rememeber us both laughing. that memory is one i would like some feedback on from anybody who might read this. does that sound like innocent fun between a mother and child, or something more? the second memory was sometime after i turned five and had started having sex with a giel my age. i was curious about tits, little girls didn't have them, but my mom did. i walked up to my mother as she was reclined on a sofa and reached for her breasts. i eaither touched them, or acted as though i was going to pull her shirt away and look under it. my memory is hazy, but i seem to remember my mother telling me it was ok to explore her breasts, but i got too nervous to go through with it. i was nervous because it wasn't just biological curiousity, it was a sexual impulse. it felt naughty and i was horny.
anyway, i've kind of lost track of where i was going with all this. but i know that now, as an adult, i don't get shocked by much, and what most people consider kinky or gross, i consider hot or at least interesting. i have not had sex with an animal (got a dog to lick my penis once in junior high) but the idea of a girl fucking an animal is a turn on. incest stories and illustrations really turn me on, but i don't feel sexually attracted to any of my own family members. i have fantasized about some of them before, but mostly because it felt taboo and heightened my masturbatory sensations. the biggest trn on for me as far as this stuff goes is mother son incest or older woman/young boy sex. i have been fantasizing about that since the first time i masturbated.
Look, I used paragraphs this time.
User Reviews
Submitted by DudeThatsBOSH (user info) at 2006-12-08 09:58:08 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
hahahahahahahha
Submitted by fluff (user info) at 2005-12-20 02:10:05 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
get banned already.
Submitted by bigbabylons (user info) at 2005-11-22 11:39:39 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Beaucse i want to fuck my cousin, but she won't let me
Submitted by Istaros (user info) at 2005-11-21 19:02:26 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
hell, i liked it
Submitted by punkerrjess (user info) at 2005-11-21 18:54:49 EST (#)
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i do during all of my meoeries after that.
i'm a little drunk by the way. i'm trying to avoid typos, but i'm sure they will sneak in.
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hahahaha
good call on the typos
Submitted by redskieslookfake (user info) at 2005-11-21 18:43:33 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
This one is *still* pissing me off. FFS.
Submitted by JonnyX (user info) at 2005-11-21 18:36:36 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
apparently, they fucked all the capital letters out of you.
Submitted by clit_commander (user info) at 2005-11-21 12:19:03 EST (#)
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Im horny
Submitted by GoodGirl (user info) at 2005-11-21 11:48:41 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
a girl with a penis. marvelous.
Submitted by Average_Dan (user info) at 2005-11-21 11:36:48 EST (#)
Ranking: -1
??
-1 PENOS
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Submitted by ozzy (user info) at 2005-11-21 06:57:20 EST (#)
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No Comment
Submitted by nahnoneofit (user info) at 2005-11-21 03:01:28 EST (#)
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w....t...f
Submitted by kolenabobena (user info) at 2005-11-20 22:59:06 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Damn, Shitfuck. Will you be my husband?
Submitted by kolenabobena (user info) at 2005-11-20 22:58:30 EST (#)
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Well, in real life I am a girl. But this is all a dream I had. At least the part involving my penis is.
Submitted by a_palindrome (user info) at 2005-11-20 21:01:53 EST (#)
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I thought you were a girl until the last paragraph, where you mentioned having a penis. -2
Submitted by shitfuck (user info) at 2005-11-20 20:59:45 EST (#)
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Genius1
Submitted by Oleannder (user info) at 2005-11-20 19:08:07 EST (#)
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didn't need to see all the copies of this floating out there.
Submitted by MrSparkle847 (user info) at 2005-11-20 18:15:20 EST (#)
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Total stock character. I envision you as a sort of "wicked Uncle Ernie" character later in your life.
Submitted by matnotharry (user info) at 2005-11-20 17:58:48 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
Submitted by yuvalset (user info) at 2005-11-20 08:45:33 (#)
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What is an alter?
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One Uberer posting using an alias
Oh and -2 for the shit above
Submitted by shandythedog (user info) at 2005-11-20 17:34:23 EST (#)
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we played a game where she would squeeze her breast and nipple so that it would squirt her milk at me, and i would try to catch it in my mouth. we both thought it was fun and i rememeber us both laughing. that memory is one i would like some feedback on from anybody who might read this. does that sound like innocent fun between a mother and child, or something more?
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hhahahhah
brilliant
are you me?
Submitted by apollo88 (user info) at 2005-11-20 13:34:37 EST (#)
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<ejaculates>
Submitted by ryan5012 (user info) at 2005-11-20 12:56:58 EST (#)
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what the hell man if they are comin at you , means they want somthin ,more better you look after them and care for them ,than they get on the street uh?
Submitted by Whiplash (user info) at 2005-11-20 12:56:39 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
"i logged in just to -2 this peice of excrement"
Couldn't apply more.
Fuck you.
Submitted by c1ndy (user info) at 2005-11-20 11:04:01 EST (#)
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blimey.
Submitted by WillZone (user info) at 2005-11-20 10:44:34 EST (#)
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if this is true, then its fascinating. sure incestous sex and molestation is bad, we all agree on that...i don't think this deserves -2's because of a subject context that is very taboo...and its written well enough and thought was put in to it, so i can't give it a negative...if this is fiction...good job, you wrote it in an honest enough way that it is freaky and made me feel sick and scared for you...if your goal was to be shocking, good job...if its true, then congrats fro drinking enough to get it out of your system...and go see a therapist...but then again, if you don't feel as if you're a danger to yourself or others (especially children) then you might be fine...
go see a therapist anyway...if this is true...
if its not true, then congrats for writing in a way which brings out peoples emotion.
i don't know your uber history so that played no part in my opinion of this post...
Submitted by Shlongy (user info) at 2005-11-20 09:46:12 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
Are you fucking kidding me?
Make sure the lock on the trailer door is secured.
Submitted by Circe (user info) at 2005-11-20 09:03:31 EST (#)
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Don't care. Not funny.
Submitted by yuvalset (user info) at 2005-11-20 08:54:59 EST (#)
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i just noticed for the first time, that the Simpson part changes every time you come to same article. So to give relevance to my last post, I will post the Simpson I saw:
Nobody, but NOBODY, eats my family.
(Homer Simpson in the enchanted tree episode)
Submitted by yuvalset (user info) at 2005-11-20 08:50:54 EST (#)
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the Simpson's part, I think, is pretty good. It is an interesting question: what quality should a man have, for cannibals not to want to eat him?
is it the same thing that deters carnivores to eat us, as in the story of Daniel in the Bible, or is it something else? a little unexplained rigidity perhaps? some mysterious awe? a self-conciousness that arises when approaching the eatee?
I would appreciate it if someone posted his views on this. I'll check in here later.
Submitted by yuvalset (user info) at 2005-11-20 08:45:33 EST (#)
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What is an alter?
Submitted by darkspoon (user info) at 2005-11-20 08:30:36 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
-2 obvious alter
Submitted by redskieslookfake (user info) at 2005-11-20 07:44:45 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
Baking Lady...
i was curious about tits, little girls didn't have them, but my mom did. i walked up to my mother as she was reclined on a sofa and reached for her breasts. i eaither touched them, or acted as though i was going to pull her shirt away and look under it. my memory is hazy, but i seem to remember my mother telling me it was ok to explore her breasts, but i got too nervous to go through with it. i was nervous because it wasn't just biological curiousity, it was a sexual impulse. it felt naughty and i was horny.
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For fucks sake.
This isn't even in bad taste. It's clearly written to aggravate and cause disgust.
Submitted by baking_Lady (user info) at 2005-11-20 07:41:22 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
so whats wrong with this?
Submitted by Magic_Monkey (user info) at 2005-11-20 07:16:19 EST (#)
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How can you live with yourself knowing that you did all this shit ?!
Submitted by MyNameIsTim (user info) at 2005-11-20 05:12:28 EST (#)
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No Comment
Submitted by redskieslookfake (user info) at 2005-11-20 05:08:14 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
-2 Die painfully and with amused onlookers
Submitted by Serious_Melvin (user info) at 2005-11-20 03:18:11 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
Hahaha good show.
Submitted by scourge (user info) at 2005-11-20 03:10:42 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
Alright, alter. Go get fucked by a dog.
Method, is that you?? Is it? ANSWER ME DAMN YOU. If you are Method, why did you quit yelling? That made me laugh more than anything else on Uber this week.
-2
Submitted by thecaes (user info) at 2005-11-20 02:19:48 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
I don't believe a word of this. Except maybe the drunk part.