Addiction (461 hits)
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Submitted by JapanFour (View user info) at 2005-11-28 00:50:35 EST
The loneliness sets in.
Memories of ruined relationships and burned bridges flood the mind. Things that were said that should never have been uttered even in a whisper. Things that were done that even the most self-destructive person would have put off as foolish. Trying to blame it on someone or something else, only to know that in the end, it is all on my shoulders.
The loneliness becomes unbearable as her memory becomes as real as the cigarette in my hand. She was the one, perfect in every way. But that means nothing now. There's no way to change the past.
But she's not the only reason. There are too many to list.
Its time to numb the pain, the memories, the loneliness. Send the first two pills of the day down on a wave of vodka. It's only 7 in the morning, but what does time matter to you when you can't sleep. Fifteen minutes later that beautiful daze starts to set in. The loneliness, the pain, the memories, they all start slipping away like a dream does after you wake up. Was it all a dream to begin with?
As the day wears on, the pills wear off. That much talked about moment of clarity arrives. The irony of it all is, I realize, the only thing that brings the comfort, is the thing that helped bring the pain.
Two more pills, but its time to move on to the scotch.
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Submitted by prozacaddict (user info) at 2005-11-28 22:23:44 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
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Submitted by shitfuck (user info) at 2005-11-28 22:18:14 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Drugs are fun.
Submitted by Magic_Monkey (user info) at 2005-11-28 02:27:56 EST (#)
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Why "Japanfour" ?? What's with that ?
23518 users ...
Submitted by PokeyPecker (user info) at 2005-11-28 01:31:25 EST (#)
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Yeah. You and about 5 billion other saps out there.