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Submitted by fluff (View user info) at 2005-12-28 19:13:39 EST
I know it is a little too late for the call; Anyways.
I have to get this off my heart because it is hurting me. A lot.
I have spent my 24th at the place that I used, some years ago, to call home.With my parents, my sister and my sole remaining granddad.
Most of us, if asked, would state that they had spent a nice, comfy and even slightly romantic evening amongst their most beloved.
If a coworker asked me, I'd tell them just exactly this.
This year I have been there again, and I have shared this moment with what I call my family.
Embracing and kissing my mother was as beautiful as it has never been before. Giving a hug to my dad and then discussing with him about live in general was great. Seeing my little sister achieving great things in life made me very proud of her.
It was an almost perfect christmas Eve.
But there are no such things.
Perfect moments only last for a tiny spec of time called present. And present has gone before you blink your eye.
In the middle of a random and trivial discussion my grandpa suddenly broke the magic of the moment. Not that he was involved in the discussion anyway with his 80 years of age, but he managed to wake us up. He reawoke something in all of us.
Horror and disorientation suddenly painted his facial feautures in pale tones.
Fear.
A blank stare.
He remembered something.
His wife. She wasn't there.
And then he called for her, looked at my mother and asked where mom was.
"Where is mom?"
She died 2 years ago.
My mother stumbled over the words she could not find. Me and my sister were shocked; not knowing what to say at all. My father got a grip, pulled himself together and managed to say the words.
"Edwin; your wife is dead".
Edwin seemed not to have heard this. I think he did not want to hear it. Because he knew it. He pushed the truth away. That's what he always did for his own sake.
"She was tired?"
"Ah. She went to bed?"
With tears in his eyes he looked down at his unfinished, no, untouched desert.
We agreed.
And I was glad to be able to agree, too.
In this moment I was glad I could.
We all were.
But now that I write this.
I cry.
For all the things I have missed. For all the things I haven't discussed about with my deceased relatives. And all the more I cry about me not being able to talk to my grandpa about it.
Have a better Christmas uber.
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Submitted by nya_nyo (user info) at 2006-09-21 15:54:44 EDT (#)
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suck a dick
Submitted by BobLobla (user info) at 2006-08-23 18:49:24 EDT (#)
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No Comment
Submitted by redskieslookfake (user info) at 2006-08-05 21:46:17 EDT (#)
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shite
Submitted by Hairsphincter (user info) at 2006-04-16 22:22:06 EDT (#)
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He's perfectly healthy. He's just doing it to fuck with you.
And you are stupid enough to believe him.
What a loser.
Submitted by leilani (user info) at 2006-03-23 18:24:25 EST (#)
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No Comment
Submitted by TimmBuck2 (user info) at 2006-02-16 15:48:41 EST (#)
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wow. what utter drivel. fucking idiot.
Submitted by gothica (user info) at 2006-02-12 15:51:20 EST (#)
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no comment
Submitted by ryan5012 (user info) at 2006-01-22 20:32:08 EST (#)
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Submitted by Santa_Claus_ (user info) at 2005-12-28 19:39:45 (#)
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I bet he forgot all the times he molested you, too. Poor guy, what is he going to jerk off to now?
Submitted by Dead_0hi0_Sky (user info) at 2005-12-28 19:48:00 (#)
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sorry for your emo tears, but this is hardly a decent post so...
-2 no sympathy from me
Submitted by Feijuada (user info) at 2005-12-28 20:13:33 (#)
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I bet it's a real pleasure to forget you exist.
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You fucking trash
Submitted by mattseanbachman (user info) at 2006-01-20 23:11:20 EST (#)
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No Comment
Submitted by psychabillyjean (user info) at 2005-12-29 11:20:05 EST (#)
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Alzheimers is heartbreaking. Consider yourself lucky, some get violent. My grandfather was always trying to kill everyone (out of fear) when he got it. On the lighter note of that, his favorite intended victim was his male nurse Tony. It always made me laugh to see Tony being chased out of the bedroom by an old man with a shillaly.
Submitted by el_em_en_oh (user info) at 2005-12-29 09:20:50 EST (#)
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Euthanize him... only humane thing to do.
Submitted by Chroniclysm (user info) at 2005-12-29 02:16:34 EST (#)
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No Comment
Submitted by forensicgirl3 (user info) at 2005-12-28 22:07:46 EST (#)
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We went through this with my Grandmother (Alzheimers). She would get the blank stare, the horrification stare, the panic stare, all of it. She thought her husband was still alive (he died in 1983) and her sister (died 1985).
After a while it became clear that saying; "Grandma, Grandpa died. Don't you remember?" was just upsetting her needlessly. She had no short term memory.
We just told her; "Grandpa went to town, he'll be back."
It was the most humane thing to do.
I feel for you.
Submitted by Feijuada (user info) at 2005-12-28 21:05:39 EST (#)
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Pfft. Those posts were made on the days when Bart fucked up Uber and there was no texy in ANY posts, you dumb ho.
Submitted by fluff (user info) at 2005-12-28 20:38:15 EST (#)
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hahahahahahaha!
Thanks bubba!
You cheered me up there!
Submitted by Bubba2341 (user info) at 2005-12-28 20:32:09 EST (#)
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Submitted by Santa_Claus_ (user info) at 2005-12-28 19:39:45 (#)
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I bet he forgot all the times he molested you, too. Poor guy, what is he going to jerk off to now?
Submitted by Dead_0hi0_Sky (user info) at 2005-12-28 19:48:00 (#)
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sorry for your emo tears, but this is hardly a decent post so...
-2 no sympathy from me
Submitted by Feijuada (user info) at 2005-12-28 20:13:33 (#)
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I bet it's a real pleasure to forget you exist.
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For what it's worth, may all of you and your loved ones
be anally raped by a Yeti.
Submitted by Bubba2341 (user info) at 2005-12-28 20:28:29 EST (#)
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Hang in there.
Submitted by Feijuada (user info) at 2005-12-28 20:13:33 EST (#)
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I bet it's a real pleasure to forget you exist.
Submitted by Sacrilicious (user info) at 2005-12-28 19:51:49 EST (#)
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No Comment
Submitted by Dead_0hi0_Sky (user info) at 2005-12-28 19:48:00 EST (#)
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sorry for your emo tears, but this is hardly a decent post so...
-2 no sympathy from me
Submitted by FATMANTPK (user info) at 2005-12-28 19:43:18 EST (#)
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I lost 3 cousins this summer ( http://www.ubersite.com/m/74762 ), one of which I was close to and I regret not hanging out with him as much. It has brought us closer together as a family but it still hurts.
I am down to one Grandma and I talk to her every few weeks. She is starting to forget things, not sure if it is Alzheimers or just old age.
It sucks to get older and see your relatives getting close to the end. I dread the day I get the call about Grandma, or anyone else I love.
Submitted by Santa_Claus_ (user info) at 2005-12-28 19:39:45 EST (#)
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I bet he forgot all the times he molested you, too. Poor guy, what is he going to jerk off to now?