A Token Of My Infection. Part - 35. Undo. (2344 hits)
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Submitted by MickGinny (View user info) at 2006-01-10 09:36:20 EST
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Well, the girls strict "no touching policy" was in place based on how deep these drunken bastards were willing to go into their wallets. They were freaks for money and drugs just like every shaker I ever encountered. I wasn't surprised by the things they would do for money, I was just disappointed. It's a hard thing for me to explain but every time I pulled security for them I would feel embarrassed and ashamed for the girls. I suppose it is tied to me being the father of two girls.
I would make the girls pray with me before every gig they did. Which is something they fought me on tooth and nail... and we are talking about tweaked out whores here people, so sometimes it was actually fighting me with teeth and nails. It had to be a bizarre scene for people to witness. At times we would be in some of the darkest creepiest places with dark scary fucking people. I will tell you that no matter where you live and no matter what outward appearance your town has I guarantee you there are deep dark crevices where activities that would sober you to the core are being played out by very unlikely people.
But I would make them pray with me. I would say my prayer to god as we held hands and I would not let go until they said amen. I think they suffered my prayers because I told them that I didn't know who or what god was I was just sure there was a god and I figured that no matter how low we were, he was obligated to a certain degree to at least listen.
The people in these places were not used to seeing this and it made them uncomfortable. These girls were making a name for themselves in this world because of their looks and the things they were willing to do. And as they grew in popularity, people were making them offers to make some serious money. These same people were in their ears about my presence in their "career".
I was eventually pushed out. Well that's not exactly what happened...the girls fired me. They took an offer to go to California and make skin flicks for a production company owned by vivid video. Apparently they were not top shelf pornstar material but they did make a buttload of films in their particular genre and hopefully made a good buck.
I was glad in a way that I was fired because the guilt I experienced working with these girls was overwhelming at times, although I did miss the money. But lying to my bride about the dope compounded by running with whores was taking a toll on me.
I wanted to get back to an innocent place in life so badly. I wondered what happened to a boy so high on ignorance. I am here to tell you that ignorance is in fact bliss. Wanting to touch something very badly is a better high than garnering the courage to reach out and actually touch it.
I wish I had never succumb to my curiosities. I wish I simply did not know. I wish I could be back in the place where I was overwhelmed by all the unknowns.
MickGinny
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Submitted by Can_Always_Trust_A_Liar (user info) at 2006-01-26 22:09:31 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
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Submitted by MickGinny (user info) at 2006-01-11 08:16:06 EST (#)
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Faidel, What I believe is the fear of another's misfortune befalling them cannot help a person help themself.
Submitted by Faidel (user info) at 2006-01-11 01:45:34 EST (#)
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Can I print these out for my brother to read?
I see myself in him so much it hurts sometimes, and I think I'm attracted to these recollections so much because again I see myself in them.
"I wondered what happened to a boy so high on ignorance. I am here to tell you that ignorance is in fact bliss. Wanting to touch something very badly is a better high than garnering the courage to reach out and actually touch it."
That's what made me want to show my younger brother. Nothing I could say, no revelations of mine would impart the things I want him to see before I saw. But maybe, a complete stranger, depths that we would be unlikely to sink to but just degrees of seperation away... maybe this will show him something.
Then again, maybe he'll just like the story. Maybe the benefit will be that he'll actually READ something. Maybe he'll light up the neighbourhood brush fences with the printouts.. who knows.
Submitted by Quint (user info) at 2006-01-10 18:21:04 EST (#)
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crown royal
Submitted by Phinch (user info) at 2006-01-10 16:35:42 EST (#)
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"I wish I had never succumb to my curiosities. I wish I simply did not know. I wish I could be back in the place where I was overwhelmed by all the unknowns."
Thats why I love this series mick.
Submitted by Brdn_Nkd (user info) at 2006-01-10 14:49:31 EST (#)
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Submitted by sublime (user info) at 2006-01-10 14:29:03 EST (#)
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you know the full quote is, where ignorance is bliss tis folly to be wise.
The fact that the shorter version is the most reknowned is amusing. Thomas Gray is probably rolling in his grave.
Submitted by cuberat (user info) at 2006-01-10 13:04:55 EST (#)
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Submitted by GodChicken (user info) at 2006-01-10 12:02:51 EST (#)
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it's hard to go reading all of these, but hey, they're worth it.
Submitted by Bigmike (user info) at 2006-01-10 11:52:40 EST (#)
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Good shit, Mick.
Submitted by Yes (user info) at 2006-01-10 11:35:14 EST (#)
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Submitted by Beer_bong (user info) at 2006-01-10 10:11:18 EST (#)
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Amen.
Submitted by wookie (user info) at 2006-01-10 10:09:57 EST (#)
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Submitted by BLITZKREIG_BOB (user info) at 2006-01-10 09:51:25 EST (#)
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Damn.
Submitted by Electro (user info) at 2006-01-10 09:51:10 EST (#)
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*ka-ching*