Suicidal Conundrum (1089 hits)
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Submitted by The Yellow Dart (View user info) at 2006-01-16 13:33:30 EST
I wake up (a bad day already) feeling infectious. My hair feels heavy, breathing is a strain and I can't remember the last time I'd eaten anything. I need some good news so I turn on the television with a bowl of mini-wheats in hand. The old box flickers before finally displaying a lovely picture of a riot in the Middle East that had apparently broken out.
Swarms.
Swarms is the word that comes to mind as I watch the human wall walking down the streets with a simple, set goal set out in front of them, written on signs to inform others of their main goal. Of course the signs aren't in English but the pictures tell me that they're anti-American. But this point is irrelevant as far as I'm concerned. I let out a painful cough right into my hands; I swear I can see the bacteria just flourishing around on them, swimming around with their set goal, their function, in mind at all times.
It looks familiar, I think as I lower my hands from my eyes and re-focus on the television. Oh God. The bacteria look just like the humans. They're everywhere; we're everywhere. I felt like a disease. Are humans nothing more than self-absorbed bacteria? It dawned on me that, yes, it would seem that way.
Entropy requires no maintenance.
The earth is like an apple in a plastic bag. Leave it there and it will eventually rot. It's inevitable; it's definable. The earth must be the same. Bacteria will eat away at it and eventually destroy it from what it once was. Sound familiar? What's happening to the earth everyday; what's causing all the problems that environmentalists choke on everyday; what's the goal of it all.
What is: the meaning of human life?
Nobody knows this, yet, we all feel compelled to _do_ things. There appears to be a unanimous human vision that we all should _do_ something. It seems to be irrelevant what we do as long as we keep busy. Could our meaning be to destroy this closed, secluded rock in the vastness of a bacterial space? Think for a minute about yourself as a human. Try to imagine yourself out of body; above the human race looking down. It all looks normal and what you're used to. There isn't much real damage happening; it's stable: stably being destroyed. Fast forward what you see. Really fast. So that all you can see is the degradation of the earth. Turning from green, to brown, to grey, to black? Nothingness.
Growth for the sake of growth is the ideology of the cancer cell.
It's what we do; it's who we are; what we aspire to be. Good little bacteria each doing our own little part to destroy this closed system. We can't help our function. Mass confusion seems to be quite relevant to whether we do our job properly or not. It doesn't matter what we do as long as we think we're doing some good. President Bush can invade Iraq or go ice fishing; it doesn't really matter as long as he thinks what he's doing is right; as long as he exists to help the cause. Our cause:
Destroy that which sustains us.
The battleground of life is a funny thing. People die constantly (if you hit yourself on the head you've killed cells); people are born constantly (we multiply). The world's population "crisis" is actually a good thing. By dividing and conquering, we dominate the earth and its harmonious past. It's all ours to discover and destroy. You should take comfort in the fact that you're a useful being. Of course, there are many among us who think there's something to be done about our purpose. I wonder if there are bacteria inside me who also fight to stop themselves. It all adds to the confusion, which is necessary for us rational diseases. We band together to destroy particular parts of the world; we fight for the right to own and destroy certain areas; we take what we find and turn it into something useless and dead; something that will rot. What we want.
No single raindrop believes it is to blame for the flood.
Am I infectious? If I go out today and chop down a tree and burn it all, thereby turning what once was natural into a smoke that clouds and contributes to the decline of this world, am I then just a disease. It is rational to justify our own sustenance; who wouldn't want to live. It seems obscure to stop now; it's already begun; it's almost done.
It's impossible to cleanse what makes you you.
Why are we so depressed, angry, and repressive? It's our purpose and our job. Who wouldn't be depressed to learn that your sole purpose of living is to destroy the thing that's allowed you to live?
Imagine your purpose in life was to kill your own mother.
You couldn't do it. Yet, you can. You can also deny it until the day you die. You're special. You're important. No doubt. Just not for the reasons you think you are. Just as we have bacteria destroying us, we are bacteria; we are cancerous atoms; also designed to get rid of our host. Maybe the earth is just a bacteria designed to destroy the universe; infinitely destructive purposes. Do you want to mess with this? Can you take it all by the horns and love the ground you drive your shovel in?
I can't finish my bowl of cereal (what a waste). I need to shower. I can't feel clean now. I told you today was going to be a bad day. I can't deny who I am, but damned if I'm going to continue being like this. I'm going to step into the shower, grab that bar of soap and scrub. Scrub until I'm nothing more. Scrub my core and then some more. Maybe then I'll be free of my disease.
Maybe.
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Submitted by TigerLilly (user info) at 2006-05-11 21:07:38 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Kale (user info) at 2006-01-25 21:24:25 EST (#)
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Submitted by Brdn_Nkd (user info) at 2006-01-19 13:36:07 EST (#)
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Submitted by ghola (user info) at 2006-01-18 13:50:01 EST (#)
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http://www.ubersite.com/m/82529
hit this.
Submitted by redskieslookfake (user info) at 2006-01-17 05:31:20 EST (#)
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mmmm Greenpeacy.
Interesting never the less.
Submitted by Berty (user info) at 2006-01-17 05:11:21 EST (#)
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You poor neurotic mess. How can you masturbate or go to the toilet without breaking down?
People always talk about bacteria like it's some sort of monster, some hideous nightmarish boogey man that hides under your bed waiting to have sex with you in your sleep. Well it's not and you know it. You probably just need more excercise or to stop tying your shoelaces so tightly.
Brilliant read.
(p.s. I didn't sleep well last night and I'm in a foul mood, sorry.)
Submitted by junyer (user info) at 2006-01-17 04:47:01 EST (#)
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"People suck, and that's my contention, I can prove it on a scratch of paper with a pen, give me a fuckin' Etch-a-sketch, I'll do it in three minutes. The proof, the fact, the factorum, I'll show my work, case closed. I'm tired of this back-slapping, 'aren't humanity neat?' bullshit, we're a virus with shoes, ok? That's all we are."
-- Bill Hicks
Submitted by BadAssJulie (user info) at 2006-01-17 00:25:11 EST (#)
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Well, does that mean murderers and serial killers are like white blood cells and antibiotics that kill off infectious bacteria? And since there are so many murderers in the world, does that mean the human race could be developing chronic myelogenous leukemia?
Submitted by corn_nugget (user info) at 2006-01-17 00:14:58 EST (#)
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This post reminded me of how I felt when I wrote this: http://www.ubersite.com/m/62259
Submitted by corn_nugget (user info) at 2006-01-17 00:13:33 EST (#)
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I think most people have had thoughts like these at one point or another, but you wrote it really well... I felt it. Bravo and Thank God for Medication.
Submitted by The_Yellow_Dart (user info) at 2006-01-16 23:56:27 EST (#)
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http://www.theabsolute.net/minefield/humevas.html
It's on the internet. I think I will read that. Thanks. :-)
Submitted by jimmiss (user info) at 2006-01-16 23:35:20 EST (#)
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O.W.G.
You should read 'The Human Evasion' by Celia Green.
Submitted by fried-green-potatoes (user info) at 2006-01-16 22:14:49 EST (#)
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Don't usually see disciplined writing on a topic like this. Makes it interesting.
Submitted by The_Yellow_Dart (user info) at 2006-01-16 22:04:44 EST (#)
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Submitted by kitchens_closed (user info) at 2006-01-16 21:47:14 (#)
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Best post I've read in a while. I think about shit like this all the time.
Submitted by munkeypants (user info) at 2006-01-16 21:11:01 (#)
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this was really really good.
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Thank you both. I think this is the most depressing thing I've ever written (yes it's one of those days). But honestly, this was written more in a stylistic manner. If I just flat out argued a point with premises and such I think it's a fairly strong argument.
Submitted by kitchens_closed (user info) at 2006-01-16 21:47:14 EST (#)
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Best post I've read in a while. I think about shit like this all the time.
Submitted by munkeypants (user info) at 2006-01-16 21:11:01 EST (#)
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this was really really good.
Submitted by spidernutz (user info) at 2006-01-16 21:03:31 EST (#)
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crazy fucker
Submitted by leilani (user info) at 2006-01-16 14:46:41 EST (#)
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whoa
Submitted by loki (user info) at 2006-01-16 14:24:03 EST (#)
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maybe you just need some antibiotics
or
you
could
skate it off
Submitted by ghola (user info) at 2006-01-16 14:08:40 EST (#)
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Imagine your purpose in life was to kill your own mother.
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So-yea.
I could be ok with a world like that.
OR
I am ok with a world like that.
Submitted by LadyPlural (user info) at 2006-01-16 14:06:38 EST (#)
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Our lives are in the hands of men no smarter than you or I. Many of
them incompetent boobs. I know this because I've worked alongside
them, gone bowling with them, watched them pass me over for promotions
time and again and I say this stinks.
-- Homer Simpson
Homer's Odyssey
Submitted by The_Yellow_Dart (user info) at 2006-01-16 14:02:16 EST (#)
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Submitted by FilthyAssistant (user info) at 2006-01-16 13:57:13 (#)
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I have several things to say to this but lack the will to type them out. More later.
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What?
*Turns up volume*
Submitted by The_Yellow_Dart (user info) at 2006-01-16 14:01:22 EST (#)
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Submitted by sicosemen (user info) at 2006-01-16 13:58:46 (#)
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Blah blah blah, self pithy bullshit.
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Far from hombre. I guess it's hard to read between the lines.
Submitted by sicosemen (user info) at 2006-01-16 13:58:46 EST (#)
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Blah blah blah, self pithy bullshit.
Submitted by FilthyAssistant (user info) at 2006-01-16 13:57:13 EST (#)
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I have several things to say to this but lack the will to type them out. More later.
Submitted by inion_de_trua (user info) at 2006-01-16 13:49:42 EST (#)
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No Comment
Submitted by seasofseems (user info) at 2006-01-16 13:44:55 EST (#)
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"Take all that money that we spend on weapons and defenses each year and instead spend it feeding and clothing and educating the poor of the world, not one human being excluded, and we could explore space, together, both inner and outer, forever, in peace." ~ Bill Hicks, Revelations
Submitted by simple_catalyst (user info) at 2006-01-16 13:38:33 EST (#)
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rockitlikeamasochist.