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Submitted by GuinnessSince1759 (View user info) at 2006-01-29 21:49:44 EST
and I probably look like shit. A neighboor came over and returned a lamp today and just started crying on my porch. I was a bit weirded out by this. My mother later explained that her dog is either dead or dying.
Anyway that's not my point of this post. Not sure what the point of this post is...but I am sure to find out as I continue writing.
I recently broke up with a girlfriend of mine and the next day I ended up sorta having a party..or something. The bottom line is, I kinda wasted 90 dollers. Now I am flat broke and not that much more changed.
For me everyday is a day of contemplation. I think a lot...and it's becoming a problem. I ponder life and what we are here for. I think about times past. I live in a subhuman existance. The glow of the computer monitor eluminates the room with an eery glow.
I leave my feelings here. I should probably dress emo...but I don't...I only share my true feelings with one friend who I can trust and all those interested uberers. Life for me is an existance...nothing more, nothing less. I have slept for 15 hours and I still feel like I am about to collapse out of exhaustion. I can barely think about anything rational. People around the world will never hear about me, never care, never wonder. Do I really matter in all of this then?, maybe.
Is it just me or do other people ponder like this? It seems to me that most of the people I know have their lives all in a nice package. My parents think that I really exert myself at my school. Which is considered on of the hardest academic schools in the area. But I can basically pull B's out of the hat. Which keeps my parents overjoyed. While other students flownder in the work...I let it all breaze by. To me it doesn't matter if I get a B or an A. I don't study almost at all for tests and do just fine on them.
My question now is...Why are we here? and, Do we really Matter?
I don't care if this is another uber-cide. Call me emo, call me whatever. I just wanted to get some thoughts out in writing. I don't really care what you think of me. So go ahead chastise my work all you want to. I don't mind on bit. Other than that I hope you all are having a better day than I am.
Here is a picture just to sooth my mind at least...
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Submitted by Berty (user info) at 2006-01-30 11:17:12 EST (#)
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Submitted by scourge (user info) at 2006-01-30 10:18:35 (#)
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Submitted by Orgasmatron (user info) at 2006-01-30 00:17:45 (#)
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I'd suggest trying to find something that challenges you, since school clearly isn't doing the trick.
I know what that feels like, and it can completely fuck up your chi* if you let it get to you (and don't think it ends when you get out...it's quite possible to feel completely underwhelmed by your form of employment as well).
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This last bit, about work, explains why Uber is what it is.
Every time I get a promotion and a raise, I have less to do and consequently hate my job more.
Listen to Mr Poemetry, he speaks the truth.
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Get married and settle the fuck down. Or join the army and get shot at, what do I care?
Submitted by electrictoothsyndrome (user info) at 2006-01-30 11:03:52 EST (#)
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neighbor
dollars
existence
illuminates
eerie
flounder
breeze
soothe
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You should probably spell check.
About the post, though... I wish I could tell you the real world is nothing like high school, but I can't. People are pretty much the same as they were then. They just have a little more tact now. That's about it.
For what it's worth, though...you're not the only one who feels this way. Everyone does at one time or another. But then again, that only means you're not in any way special, so that might be a bad thought too.
I hate to break it to you, but everything is circles and they will follow you the rest of your life. If you can't laugh at them, you're going to be fucked. Don't take everything too seriously. But don't take everything too lightly either. Life is a struggle to maintain balance. Sometimes we're all going to lean too far one way or the other.
Submitted by inion_de_trua (user info) at 2006-01-30 10:30:15 EST (#)
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is school ever really expected to challenge anything?
Submitted by scourge (user info) at 2006-01-30 10:18:35 EST (#)
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Submitted by Orgasmatron (user info) at 2006-01-30 00:17:45 (#)
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I'd suggest trying to find something that challenges you, since school clearly isn't doing the trick.
I know what that feels like, and it can completely fuck up your chi* if you let it get to you (and don't think it ends when you get out...it's quite possible to feel completely underwhelmed by your form of employment as well).
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This last bit, about work, explains why Uber is what it is.
Every time I get a promotion and a raise, I have less to do and consequently hate my job more.
Listen to Mr Poemetry, he speaks the truth.
Submitted by williamson (user info) at 2006-01-30 07:33:21 EST (#)
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No Comment
Submitted by redskieslookfake (user info) at 2006-01-30 03:48:22 EST (#)
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I'm tired, and this post has irritated me slightly. I don't know why. I may return later just to pass better judgement
Submitted by Hairsphincter (user info) at 2006-01-30 02:05:56 EST (#)
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"So go ahead chastise my work all you want to."
Where is this "work"? If this post is what you consider "work" then I feel that you need a better understanding of the definition.
Bury your contrite, twee overly emoted feelings with your mother's dog and get to "work" - when you understand what it means.
Poor form.
:'-(
Submitted by Death_Metal_Dude (user info) at 2006-01-30 00:32:48 EST (#)
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uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Submitted by r0fl (user info) at 2006-01-30 00:23:06 EST (#)
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You're on the emo border brother. Get the A's. The schoolwork will keep you busy. Put it on the fridge.
Submitted by Orgasmatron (user info) at 2006-01-30 00:17:45 EST (#)
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I'd suggest trying to find something that challenges you, since school clearly isn't doing the trick.
I know what that feels like, and it can completely fuck up your chi* if you let it get to you (and don't think it ends when you get out...it's quite possible to feel completely underwhelmed by your form of employment as well).
*Swordfish quote, motherfucker. Bung!
Submitted by weasul (user info) at 2006-01-30 00:16:00 EST (#)
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Everyone ponders the same shit from time to time. Don't let it bother you.
Submitted by GuinnessSince1759 (user info) at 2006-01-29 23:52:38 EST (#)
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what....thanks scourge. I'll try to be a bit more practical..or atleast make better posts in the future....thanks
Submitted by scourge (user info) at 2006-01-29 23:37:11 EST (#)
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drunken fingers make typos galore.
Damn.
Submitted by scourge (user info) at 2006-01-29 23:36:00 EST (#)
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The problemn isn't in expressing how you feel.
The problem is in saying you are going to express how you feel and then blathering for a moment, not really delving into anything. The post was rather pointless. Your attempt to express didn't go anywhere.
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Do what you feel. I'm a decent sort, I likely won't bash you. Many others will.
I could give a fuck either way. Do your thing kid. This may not be the place to help with any attenmpt at soul searching you may be chasing down. Just saying.
Good luck with life.
Submitted by GuinnessSince1759 (user info) at 2006-01-29 23:22:38 EST (#)
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Submitted by scourge (user info) at 2006-01-29 23:06:09 (#)
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God damn it. Just stop this shit. If you're over the age of 12, you're a god damn retard. If you're under the age of 12 you shouldn't even be on Uber.
What's your back story man? Tell it to me now man. Details, so I can decide if I hate you or what...
Have a +1 on faith.
Details. Now.
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Hah...that puts me in a pickle. I am over the age of 12. I am in high school. I live in the Bay Area, CA. I'm very young for ubersite but whatever. Thanks for the +1 heh. Sorry I like to express how I feel. I probably will only post an occasional one of these. Hate me or not I won't really mind. If you want more details...ask more specific questions. Have a nice day.
Submitted by scourge (user info) at 2006-01-29 23:06:09 EST (#)
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God damn it. Just stop this shit. If you're over the age of 12, you're a god damn retard. If you're under the age of 12 you shouldn't even be on Uber.
What's your back story man? Tell it to me now man. Details, so I can decide if I hate you or what...
Have a +1 on faith.
Details. Now.
Submitted by SadClown (user info) at 2006-01-29 22:59:26 EST (#)
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...because my gf and I broke up not so long ago and it sucks big donkey balls and even before then I was always thinking about similar things that you mentioned and now it makes it even worse.
Submitted by charminglybeef (user info) at 2006-01-29 22:54:19 EST (#)
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Life is for the living. You my friend are dead; dead inside. Sit back and let the empowering futility of it all sink in. You've got nothing to lose.
Submitted by Jack_McCallum (user info) at 2006-01-29 22:54:00 EST (#)
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+2 for this...
"I recently broke up with a girlfriend of mine and the next day I ended up sorta having a party..or something. The bottom line is, I kinda wasted 90 dollers. Now I am flat broke and not that much more changed."
Nice to see you are a normal guy and not a badass ass-whuppin megabucks sex-machine like most of the guys on Uber APPEAR to be.
Submitted by apollo88 (user info) at 2006-01-29 22:41:49 EST (#)
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No Comment
Submitted by Byrd (user info) at 2006-01-29 22:33:32 EST (#)
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I can't type. I'm dunk.
Submitted by Byrd (user info) at 2006-01-29 22:33:03 EST (#)
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We can drastically matter to the people around us, imagine if we were on a desrt island. if we had no one else we probably would have all kill ourselves long ago.
I don't know about God, all you have at the end of the that day is yourlsef and your mind.
1+ instead of +2 because if you really don't care what we think, you probably wouldn't have mentioned t.
Submitted by PokeyPecker (user info) at 2006-01-29 22:32:00 EST (#)
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Give it another 25 years, a nasty divorce, losing your job, your parents dying, your kids hating you, your hair turning grey and your skin beginning to wrinkle, THEN come talk to me.
Decent post though.
Submitted by trent_nz (user info) at 2006-01-29 22:28:41 EST (#)
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=) some people are retards but u seem alright
Submitted by odetotheoldlife (user info) at 2006-01-29 22:27:55 EST (#)
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I'm pretty sure that image is from a Christmas card . . . the animals knowing Jesus has been born. Maybe that's a sign of what you need.
No, life doesn't really matter unless something immortal exists that can remember what you've done. Everyone and everything will die eventually and nothing they remember about you will survive in the end. If something immortal does remember you and what you've done, than I would say worth is life living in the way that immortal thing tells you to live.
Submitted by TheSunGod (user info) at 2006-01-29 22:26:57 EST (#)
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moderately whiny post, but i dig the pic.
the raccoon reminded me of the one i killed, butchered, and ate yesterday. surprisingly tasty, but the meat was as tough as chewing rubber bands. i'm thinking i need to make gumbo from the hindquarters, so that the meat has a chance to soften up a bit.
on the up side, his head made great bait for my crab trap, and i'll get to keep his skull once the sea critters have picked it clean.
that's what life is. keep on groovin in it.
Submitted by PoTtY (user info) at 2006-01-29 22:06:11 EST (#)
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When your skin is dry, jism is a very deceptively bad solution.
Submitted by GuinnessSince1759 (user info) at 2006-01-29 21:56:40 EST (#)
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Submitted by pragmatic (user info) at 2006-01-29 21:54:43 (#)
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Here's a +2 to cheer you up.
Don't think so much, thinking is overrated. Just go with the flow.
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Thanks...I can't really help it. Sometimes I enjoy the thinking...sometimes the thinking hits me hard.
Submitted by pragmatic (user info) at 2006-01-29 21:54:43 EST (#)
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Here's a +2 to cheer you up.
Don't think so much, thinking is overrated. Just go with the flow.