No Pain Like Fear. (2402 hits)
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Submitted by Beano (View user info) at 2006-04-18 10:59:02 EDT
I'd been called a few weeks previously, the news was good. The hospital could fit me in before the end of the year. All these years of suffering would finally be over, the dreadful hay-fever, the sleepless nights, the asthma and the snoring.
OK so it isn't a life threatening operation but it would be life changing. That is what I'd been waiting for, my girlfriend even more so. A minor op but with a major outcome.
I was to have a septoplasty operation to correct a bent central septum, involving breaking and resetting the nose. This defect of the nose that I'd had since I was born is affectively closing one of my nostrils. This causes excessive build up of pollen hence the hay-fever and then asthma when the hay-fever gets severe. It causes snoring and if you snore then you understand how bad that makes the lady of the house react and of course it will eliminate sinusitis, a very nasty and painful complaint that you don't want to suffer from.
All in all, the good far outweighed the bad. There was a one in a million chance that I would die on the operating table and a 70% chance that the op would eliminate all of the symptoms. It was a quick and easy decision.
The preparation was minor, no food or drink for 4 hours before the operation and an overnight bag with a few bits to get me through. One night was likely, two only if I was to suffer some severe or strange reaction to the anaesthetic.
I was in an Ear, Nose and Throat specialist section of the local hospital, you try getting a nights sleep in this place. The world champion of snorers comes to visit this ward every night of the week, I was looking forward to the fact that I would be drugged to the eyes and hopefully wouldn't notice.
I was prepped for the operation. Obviously this was after the whole 'I love you' bit with the lady, just in case. But I was confident things were going to be OK.
The nurse was speaking softly to me, I was slightly cold where I had an open gown on and there were the faintest noises of clatter and metal on metal. Some activity upside of me was the nurse measuring out my dose, she explained that she would inject the solution and I'd feel the cool liquid run up my vein
At this point I was to count to ten slowly and backwards, by the time I reached ten I'd be under.
Ten, Nine, I felt the liquid like mercury racing up my arm, Eight, Seven, and the paralysis was starting to take affect and my movement was lost. It was strange because I hadn't tried to move, yet I knew if I did that would not be able to. Six, Five, Four, I'd had operations before and had never reached 4 before. Six or seven maybe, but not this low number. Still I didn't panic.
Three, Two, OK. Now I was worried. I should have been under, unconscious, knocked out.
One. I tried moving.
Nothing.
Now I was scared. No, that's a lie. I was fucking panicking. I was fully aware of what was happening around me, the doctors moving up a gear and starting to talk in a language that they hadn't been using when I was awake. My trolley was rolled into the operating theatre.
Lined up on a small metal frame next to the operating table and glistening and shining like museum pieces, were the tools of my upcoming torture. Try as I did, moving was not an option, flapping my eyelids clearly wasn't working either. I think that it was only in my imagination that they were moving. Unfortunately for me I was learning very fast that the imagination is a very powerful tool, but it could not tell the doctor I was in distress.
As I lay on my back the first doctor advanced with the 'hammer'. I'm sure there is a medical term for this device but what the fuck did I care about that, it was a tool designed for breaking bones. As the end was put against the base of my nose I think I'd have taken death at that point over experiencing what I was about to. I knew there and then that I was a coward.
I'd read stories about brave deeds, about men who had withheld punishment to protect their friends or fellow soldiers, political prisoners tortured for their beliefs, Christians ripped apart, criminals even that hadn't given up members of their gang under duress.
I was none of these; I'd have said anything there and then to be away from that table, to be unconscious as I was supposed to be or to be dead.
They broke my nose; they used wooded strips as splints and rammed things so far up my head that I thought my brain was in danger of being pierced. They reset the nose; they were brutal and uncaring in their treatment of me. All the while I was aware, aware of the damage that my body was taking, aware but in no physical pain.
Pain however is a fallacy. I learnt that day that there is no pain like fear.
Fear of the unknown is a mighty fear. But fear of the known is like no horror man can imagine.
User Reviews
Submitted by redskieslookfake (user info) at 2008-07-26 12:17:01 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
OH NOES MY RATINGS!
Submitted by maf54 (user info) at 2008-05-14 04:59:41 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Just to counter what that idiot Director did to you.
Submitted by Director (user info) at 2008-05-13 18:16:34 EDT (#)
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No Comment
Submitted by Beano312003 (user info) at 2006-11-08 12:00:41 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
That would be horrendous and probably HAS happened to some people !
Submitted by Nomad (user info) at 2006-10-26 11:49:21 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I liked it.
What really creeps me out is that this occasionaly happen under more involved procedures - such as open heart.
Could you imagine laying there while someone takes a saw to your chest?
Submitted by ballsonurchin (user info) at 2006-10-26 11:39:26 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
don't bother.
Submitted by corn_nugget (user info) at 2006-05-09 11:55:42 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
ah, so right on.
Submitted by sinna (user info) at 2006-04-19 07:06:30 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by Beano312003 (user info) at 2006-04-19 06:58:19 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Sorry if I put you off.....!
Submitted by JapanFour (user info) at 2006-04-18 18:43:27 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
great, glad i read this. i have to get the same thing done, but i've been putting it off for a long while now.
Submitted by creep_firebombing (user info) at 2006-04-18 18:22:55 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by Coleslaw_Murphy (user info) at 2006-04-18 17:29:03 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Oh, for real? I liked it.
Submitted by shadow (user info) at 2006-04-18 16:20:34 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
it's called simply "awareness"
don't know if some one already mentioned that but i didn't have the energy to read all reviews
Submitted by BrownEyedGirrl (user info) at 2006-04-18 16:05:23 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
HOLY SHIT!!!!
I had a similar experience this past January only with a Dentist weilding the blade!!
This brought back all the horrible sensations... I FEEL your PAIN/FEAR.....
Submitted by JonnyX (user info) at 2006-04-18 15:30:17 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
freaky
Submitted by Nellypaal (user info) at 2006-04-18 15:23:03 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Yup, good stuff.
Submitted by inion_de_trua (user info) at 2006-04-18 15:06:09 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
i like the lawsuits that result from stuff like that.
liked the last line too.
Submitted by Chroniclysm (user info) at 2006-04-18 14:24:50 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
That would be quite a situation...
Submitted by sicosemen (user info) at 2006-04-18 13:59:23 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I would've smacked the piss out of the surgeon with my super-powered penis.
Submitted by MichelleNJ (user info) at 2006-04-18 13:17:03 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by Orgasmatron (user info) at 2006-04-18 13:07:24 (#)
Ranking: 2
This was really good.
Read Stephen King's 'Autopsy Room Four.'
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I knew I had read a story kinda like this one. King kicks ass.
Submitted by Stagger_Lee (user info) at 2006-04-18 13:13:34 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by Orgasmatron (user info) at 2006-04-18 13:07:24 (#)
Ranking: 2
This was really good.
Read Stephen King's 'Autopsy Room Four.'
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I second that. In fact, read the whole of Everything's Eventual.
Submitted by forthewin (user info) at 2006-04-18 13:11:58 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I'll add this to the list of reasons I don't want my wisdom teeth pulled.
Submitted by Orgasmatron (user info) at 2006-04-18 13:07:24 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
This was really good.
Read Stephen King's 'Autopsy Room Four.'
Submitted by retrospect (user info) at 2006-04-18 12:44:48 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
do it. she felt the pain though. SHE FELT THE PAIN! she was knocked down enough to not be able to move but she was fully conscious and it hurt and she screamed in her head in vain... SHE SCREAMED IN HER HEAD IN VAIN!
actually, dont watch it. its spooky
Submitted by Beano312003 (user info) at 2006-04-18 12:41:39 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
I'm not a nip/Tuck watcher, but I do have a morbid fasination with this type of event. I'll see if i can find that episode.
Submitted by loki (user info) at 2006-04-18 12:32:42 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Thanks for fueling my irrational fear of all things hospital related.
Submitted by AsshOly (user info) at 2006-04-18 12:04:04 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Sophomore year of high school I broke my arm in a football game (on a punt, when I wasnt even supposed to be in...) and I didnt feel any pain in my arm until I got to the hospital, and even then it was faint. They put me under to set my arm straight again, and I'm pretty sure I was under for the shortest time imaginable, because I distinctly remember the doctor grabbing and twisting my arm under a really cool portable x-ray thing, but the pain was fucking intense. I was pissed, and then they gave me morphine, so I was happy.
Submitted by retrospect (user info) at 2006-04-18 12:01:47 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by Method (user info) at 2006-04-18 11:39:34 (#)
Ranking: 2
They did an episode about this on Nip/Tuck - it was horrifying
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honestly one of the most disturbing things i have ever watched.
that. poor. girl.
Submitted by Method (user info) at 2006-04-18 11:39:34 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
They did an episode about this on Nip/Tuck - it was horrifying
Submitted by Cyrus (user info) at 2006-04-18 11:38:30 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I've only been in that situation twice, and never gotten past about 8. I'm a lightweight.
Submitted by firefly (user info) at 2006-04-18 11:35:30 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by MistressFist (user info) at 2006-04-18 11:34:03 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Wow. There are documented cases of this happening. Truly frightening. I've only been under once for getting 4 impacted wisdom teeth out...as soon as he stuck me I was out thank goodness.
Submitted by Stagger_Lee (user info) at 2006-04-18 11:20:50 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by Beano312003 (user info) at 2006-04-18 11:20:20 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Submitted by earth_collapse (user info) at 2006-04-18 11:05:32 (#)
Ranking: 2
True or no? Still good writing.
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Fictional, though based on some stories I have read where this shite actually happened and an operation that I have had.
I know it'd be better if it was true, thank god it isn't in my case.
Submitted by extacy_red (user info) at 2006-04-18 11:12:44 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
hospitals should use rufies instead
Submitted by LittleMonster (user info) at 2006-04-18 11:08:24 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Holy fuck
Submitted by congo (user info) at 2006-04-18 11:07:22 EDT (#)
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No Comment
Submitted by MichelleNJ (user info) at 2006-04-18 11:06:24 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
That sucks.
Hopefully the recovery is good and you get a positive outcome. Good luck!
Submitted by earth_collapse (user info) at 2006-04-18 11:05:32 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
True or no? Still good writing.