And That's All She Said (869 hits)
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Submitted by Mario (View user info) at 2006-05-22 15:21:16 EDT
I sit, staring at the blinking vertical line. Follow my pulse, echo the tick of the clock. Mark time, daring each one to cease. Alone, the line is. Here one moment, gone the next, its presence in a sea of white barely registring.
To remember is to breathe you in. Your scent was sent to linger. Trigger the memories, memories like these.
You are beyond stunning. Exquisite in appearance, your longs legs were made to dance. Chance, it seems, brought us together. You're too tall for me, they say. Let them think that. 5'11", sent from heaven and complimentary to this height of mine, 5'9".
Your eyes dance, your skin glows, "talk to me". Happily, I oblige. We spend time together, we talk. What we say, I don't remember. It's you and me, and this November. I'd never guess, but it's you that's nervous. Hurt by another man, I suspect, one more callous. "Mario, I'm glad we met." So am I, my dear Cosette.
I lean in to say goodbye, going for a kiss. You turn your head and I get a cheek, a cheek on that beautiful face. You blush again, you blushed again when you came to me in lace. I've never had a home, but I think this is it.
You walk with an elegance few posess. Bold and striking, you intimidate most men. But in my arms, you are like a child. You are fragile. I listen to you, it seems few do. I give you shit and clearly, you're not used to it.
The months move on, as they tend to do. I must leave, I'm in the Army, but I still think of you. Thinking we're over, I immerse myself in my own life. You said you'd call, and you do, would I like to come see you?
And so it goes, you continue to fly me to New York. I feel home in your apartment next to the Park, down the corner from the Met. It's even close to the little cafe, the very place where we met. You want to live together, that you know I cannot do. "I'm not ready doll, I'm only 22." You do not like it, but you bregrudgingly submit, let's be together and not think about it.
I get home, and you don't call like you usually do. Something's a matter, I think I've hurt you. I call, I write, I give you space. Two weeks later, your voice whispers "Mario, I'm late." I'm stunned, I sit in silence, I can't feel my face. I'm scared, full of dread, "I love you", that's all she said.
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This happened about a month ago. Since then, we found out she was just stressed and skipped that month, but my God, I've never been so scared and excited at the same time. Since then, though, she's getting more and more adamant about "settling down". I told her from the beginning I won't do that, not for a long time. She keeps on raising the issue and I just don't see this going well. I really care for this woman but I can't follow her plan, we're of different ages and stages in life. I'm not looking forward to this.
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Submitted by Berty (user info) at 2006-05-23 03:04:52 EDT (#)
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Yeah so, in the movies this is usually the point when your charachter dies or get horribly maimed or something. For Gods sake man get another job.
Submitted by Herpes (user info) at 2006-05-23 01:55:31 EDT (#)
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This probably woulda been better without the whole "this is my life" part at the end.
Made me want to give it a minus, but I didn't.
Submitted by ih8u2man (user info) at 2006-05-22 20:27:32 EDT (#)
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Why is my arm so numb.n.''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''
Submitted by street-pirate (user info) at 2006-05-22 20:16:38 EDT (#)
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Meant to plus 1. Sorry.
Submitted by street-pirate (user info) at 2006-05-22 20:14:41 EDT (#)
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"Submitted by ubetidid (user info) at 2006-05-22 18:57:15 (#)
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i think you should end it NOW.
why risk having freakishly tall children?"
"Submitted by Shlongy (user info) at 2006-05-22 16:16:34 (#)
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If you decide to kill her, make sure you watch a LOT of "Foresnic Files" and "Investigative Reports" on A&E so that you don't make the mistakes and get caught like all the other dumbasses do."
The only two normal replies by Uber standards.
Submitted by gravitas (user info) at 2006-05-22 19:15:24 EDT (#)
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baby scares = suck
Submitted by mockidol (user info) at 2006-05-22 19:07:38 EDT (#)
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No Comment
Submitted by ubetidid (user info) at 2006-05-22 18:57:15 EDT (#)
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i think you should end it NOW.
why risk having freakishly tall children?
Submitted by MonkeyingAround (user info) at 2006-05-22 17:32:35 EDT (#)
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appearantly I can't spell today either... mairrage = marriage... shush don't tell
Submitted by MonkeyingAround (user info) at 2006-05-22 17:23:07 EDT (#)
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Seriously Mario, if you love this woman so much... then sit her down and actually talk with her. Tell her you are scared and feel a little to immature for mairrage... maybe if you guys have a long enough engagement that will help a lot. Let her in on your doubts and feelings so she knows whats going on. Ask the same about her... make sure you understand where she is coming from too. She obviously in love and does love (two different things) you, she wants to settle down with you.
Both of you travel a lot, you with the army, her with her job. Maybe you two can comprimise or hell... even just move in together since neither of you two are home... thats what it will be like when you two are married. Please, please please... don't move in with her until you two have talked and you have proposed. If you move in before then, one of the two of you will get comfy and feel no need for mairrage which eventually will lead to a breakup and will end the relationship or a possible engagement to fix the situation which won't make a mairrage last...the whole, resentment of feelings... he only proposed to save the relationship... so on and so forth...
If you care for her enough and she does you... you two will make it work. Just be mature about both of your feelings and how the situation of breeching the subject of settling down. Don't close up or storm off if you get mad... stick through it and talk (calmly) with her about everything regarding the situation.
Thats all I can tell ya.
Submitted by Mario (user info) at 2006-05-22 17:19:20 EDT (#)
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livEvil-thanks, I appreciate it.
Submitted by runswithscissors (user info) at 2006-05-22 17:11:52 EDT (#)
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no big deal, sometimes we get too wrapped up in our own thought processes to see the
obvious......
best of luck to you!
Submitted by Mario (user info) at 2006-05-22 17:10:19 EDT (#)
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runswithscissors-you know what, no, I haven't. I am such a dumbass...it's just coming at me really quickly, I'm not thinking straight. Thanks.
Submitted by runswithscissors (user info) at 2006-05-22 17:03:49 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Mario (user info) at 2006-05-22 16:48:43 (#)
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Peon- No, usually when that's said its because we don't give a fuck about you and are just trying to selfishly bust a nut, your own pleasure not being a priority. Does that sound like the case here? I care deeply for this woman. Sorry if that's your experience with it, not all men are the same. I don't sugar coat, I'm honestly scared she won't be happy in a little house outside an Army base.
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Um, have you asked her????
Submitted by livEvil (user info) at 2006-05-22 16:58:50 EDT (#)
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nice. i feel your pain. i've been there, done that. btw, i like your poetic style
Submitted by Mario (user info) at 2006-05-22 16:48:43 EDT (#)
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Peon- No, usually when that's said its because we don't give a fuck about you and are just trying to selfishly bust a nut, your own pleasure not being a priority. Does that sound like the case here? I care deeply for this woman. Sorry if that's your experience with it, not all men are the same. I don't sugar coat, I'm honestly scared she won't be happy in a little house outside an Army base.
Submitted by Professional_Peon (user info) at 2006-05-22 16:31:45 EDT (#)
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Dont use the 'standard of living' as an excuse.
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The above statement only exists for guys who suck in bed.
Submitted by leilani (user info) at 2006-05-22 16:28:49 EDT (#)
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HAHAHAHA
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Submitted by Shlongy (user info) at 2006-05-22 16:16:34 EDT (#)
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If you decide to kill her, make sure you watch a LOT of "Foresnic Files" and "Investigative Reports" on A&E so that you don't make the mistakes and get caught like all the other dumbasses do.
Submitted by Tormencha (user info) at 2006-05-22 16:08:21 EDT (#)
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Stick with your insight, your feelings, what you need!
Change that.....and your FUCKED! Once you have kids, your life is over and theirs begin!
Run for the mother fucking hills!
Submitted by BranDo (user info) at 2006-05-22 16:01:12 EDT (#)
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Snap out of it and hold on to that woman!
Submitted by runswithscissors (user info) at 2006-05-22 15:59:38 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Mario (user info) at 2006-05-22 15:43:14 (#)
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It's not that simple. I'm still in the Army (though I might be getting out soon, injury) and she has a contract, plus a standard of living far above what I can provide for her now. To make matters worse, she's always all over the place, she's rarely in NYC. Even if I do decide to move forward with this, I still can't do it for a while.
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Dont use the 'standard of living' as an excuse. If she knows you and wants to be with you, then
it is a moot point. I am currently somewhat on the other end, being left by someone who is an independent contractor, so travels to where the paycheck is; however, he is leaving a
guarenteed contract (1+year of work) to go somewhere else simply because the money is better.
His biggest concern is 'what if I am in a position where I am unable to provide....?' So
he leaves under the guise of making more money so he wont be in that position, but
in reality he is leaving the responsibility (not that I ever asked to be supported....)
Submitted by Mario (user info) at 2006-05-22 15:52:07 EDT (#)
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Well said. I've got a lot of thinking to do.
Submitted by WildcatMcGee (user info) at 2006-05-22 15:49:34 EDT (#)
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Don't be fag, go for the girl.
Submitted by Mario (user info) at 2006-05-22 15:43:14 EDT (#)
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It's not that simple. I'm still in the Army (though I might be getting out soon, injury) and she has a contract, plus a standard of living far above what I can provide for her now. To make matters worse, she's always all over the place, she's rarely in NYC. Even if I do decide to move forward with this, I still can't do it for a while.
Submitted by Merlina (user info) at 2006-05-22 15:43:01 EDT (#)
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You don't get to feel like that many times in your life.
Your passionate writing says it all.
I say take it and be happy.
Submitted by Mario (user info) at 2006-05-22 15:37:12 EDT (#)
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Hahahaha...thanks bud.
Submitted by WildcatMcGee (user info) at 2006-05-22 15:36:54 EDT (#)
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I concur with Loki. Do you let her be the one that got away and regret it for years or do you wait to settle down and follow your own plan?
What's there to lose? What's worth more? Her or your immaturity?
Submitted by JonnyX (user info) at 2006-05-22 15:35:51 EDT (#)
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y'know what sounds good for you right about now?
Being stationed in Germany.
Or maybe Iraq! That's it, you fake your own death and you're off the hook!
Submitted by loki (user info) at 2006-05-22 15:33:04 EDT (#)
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tough call
not ready for this yet vs. the one that got away
Submitted by Mario (user info) at 2006-05-22 15:29:25 EDT (#)
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I'm rooting for your second point there. I'm a little too immature right now though.
Submitted by Mario (user info) at 2006-05-22 15:27:39 EDT (#)
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Always do, Leilani. The fucker broke.
Submitted by leilani (user info) at 2006-05-22 15:26:38 EDT (#)
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1. use condoms..... even if she SAYS she's on the pill it doesn't mean squat.
2. i hope all works out for the best.... even though you are not at the same place in your lives now.... maybe you will be down the road.
Submitted by TigerLilly (user info) at 2006-05-22 15:26:21 EDT (#)
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Wow. Very well written and sort of sad. I think we've all been there at one point our lives.
Follow your heart.