living on the fringe. (559 hits)
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Submitted by Sharps <joesephsharps.at.hotmail.com> (View user info) at 2006-06-11 15:53:14 EDT
Life on the fringe.
Connection lost. Connection attempt started. Connection lost.
The conversation is getting worst. The cables flow info; the airwaves carry voices off to distant parts, yet none want to see what lies on the other side of the mountain. Nothing to see, nothing to talk about.
No groups of travelers with souls. No life livers, no life learners. The last bastion is the old school AA members at the coffee house, filled with tales, trying themselves to make any connection outside the bottle. Trying to break into a life that will never hear them, never know what there life is/was like. They gather in small groups, looking for anyone who might be able to talk on their level of life travel.
And I sit with these AA members, feeling once, twice removed. I get itchy for a drink while we chat. How do they feel about the younger members coming in? What gets their blood a-going? Why have we been talking about the good old days of drinking for two hours-why torture yourself with reminiscing about the old whore who gave you VD?
After a while, I have to leave for a drink, something. Read some Bukowski. If met on the street, would have hated him. Alone in his mind he was, as all the greats were. Perhaps one day he saw a door in there, went through. Some doors can never be closed when opened.
Once you've seen what's on the other side of the mountain, at the bottom of the bottle, thru that door, can you ever pretend it never happened? Can you talk for hours about making out after you've had sex? After your soul has touched another, can you be casual with love? If you've gone hungry, can you ever really take food for granted again?
If you've lived and learned, can you pretend you never had?
Who would you want to connect to anyways?
The phone rings, I shun it- I don't want to buy what's being sold.
User Reviews
Submitted by Bundaberg (user info) at 2006-06-11 21:11:36 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
Not bad. Could have been better. I smiled.
Submitted by charminglybeef (user info) at 2006-06-11 20:17:00 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
Surely not worthy of a +2, but made me smile nonetheless.
The disillusion felt real and very personal. You could come join me naked in the woods if only you desired some kind of connection.
And you're right -- Bukowski would have been an unpleasant man in person.
Consider suicide.
Submitted by joedaddy (user info) at 2006-06-11 19:14:56 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
yes
just yes
^^^^^^^^
E...your monday afternoon/thanks
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Submitted by c1ndy (user info) at 2006-06-11 15:54:03 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Like it.
Would like to read it developed into a proper story too.