ADD: If only you knew (1997 hits)
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Submitted by (V)eTHoD (View user info) at 2006-07-31 14:12:30 EDT
"It'll never come to that. You'll always have friends and family."
I remembered having that conversation, but I don't remember why, or with whom. I do remember however, that, man, was I ever feeling down on life.
Don't they have family? Don't they have friends? Come on, EVERYONE has friends.
Give me a break, brotha, all it takes is a few bucks to get to where you're going, and the basic drive of self preservation to get you through the ordeal. A job is a job is a job. Anything beats laying your head on an old pile of rags on a winter day that feels like the inside of a witches tit, trying to get some sleep while the world works double-time around you, the city's ants swarming up and down the streets with their W Hotel umbrellas and heavy trench coats, being oh-so-careful not to step on you.
The mind plays tricks, though. Anytime, anyplace, anywhere. Sure, once I was doing all right for myself (living paycheck to paycheck is all right, infinitely better than no paycheck at all), enjoying myself, going out, meeting new people, and generally just putting some words on the pages of my book between page 1 and page 100 (give or take a few pages - hell, might as well take a good 30 pages, I smoke)
That, however, slowly became unacceptable. Unexpectedly, the shame I had over every stupid little thing I had ever done slowly took control, making me regret even saying hello to that cute receptionist at my job. It consumed me, invaded my every thought, and slowly turned me into a dejected, anti-social monster.
"Don't make waves, champ." My good friend used to tell me not to make waves. Waves cause trouble, and trouble just ain't worth it, man.
So I stopped making waves. I gave up. I don't know why. There's no rhyme or reason. I was just too terrified of the consequences of even the most insignificant actions.
I couldn't brush my teeth. The water from the sink would wake the neighbors.
I couldn't cook. The clicking of the stove would mess up the flight pattern of some random plane passing overhead.
I couldn't leave the house.
TV? You must be insane.
The doctors, I'm sure, had a name for it, I just couldn't remember what it was.
Finally, they just outright kicked me out on my ass.
Couldn't pay the rent. Hadn't shown up for work in weeks.
They forced me into the world I didn't want to be a part of. I just wanted to be left alone.
I walked through the streets for days, looking for someplace to hide. Nowhere was good enough.
I was tired. Exhausted, really, from trying to do nothing.
That alley looks dark enough. Let me just sit for a minute, and rest my mind and soul.
So what if it's wet? I'll dry eventually, right?
I slid down the wall, my knees up against my chest, my head down. A few feet away, I could hear the general cacophony of life milling about all around me, mocking me and twisting that knife just a little more.
I had become.
The Eye of the Storm.
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Submitted by corn_nugget (user info) at 2007-12-18 16:03:49 EST (#)
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No Comment
Submitted by Istaros (user info) at 2006-08-08 13:55:51 EDT (#)
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Submitted by GetNakeddd (user info) at 2006-08-04 10:10:05 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Method (user info) at 2006-07-17 21:38:41 (#)
Ranking: 2
I love you, make rape to me
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You never cease to amaze me
Great story, I need more!
Submitted by redskieslookfake (user info) at 2006-08-02 05:01:56 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Carry on.
Submitted by ColchesterDr (user info) at 2006-08-02 04:03:38 EDT (#)
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Submitted by inion_de_trua (user info) at 2006-08-01 13:01:53 EDT (#)
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535
douchebag.
Submitted by phauna (user info) at 2006-08-01 08:33:04 EDT (#)
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Okay.
Submitted by ess-arr (user info) at 2006-08-01 01:32:26 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
woot woot
Submitted by shitfuck (user info) at 2006-07-31 23:38:29 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
file_fuck.god
Submitted by TigerLilly (user info) at 2006-07-31 22:41:42 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
That WAS a joke.
Submitted by HadToBeDone (user info) at 2006-07-31 22:21:33 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
HAR HAR STREAK BREAKER
It hadtobedone. smooches.
Submitted by munkeypants (user info) at 2006-07-31 21:45:20 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
excellent
Submitted by Method (user info) at 2006-07-31 21:36:45 EDT (#)
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And it'll be a cold day in hell before any broad fagifies me
Submitted by Method (user info) at 2006-07-31 21:35:59 EDT (#)
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I'll have you know that she's speaking of another George. It most certainly is not me.
Submitted by darko (user info) at 2006-07-31 21:15:42 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Cyrus (user info) at 2006-07-31 21:04:40 EDT (#)
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No comment
Submitted by apollo88 (user info) at 2006-07-31 21:01:06 EDT (#)
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Submitted by TigerLilly (user info) at 2006-07-31 19:04:53 (#)
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apollo88 I haven't been in love in months. I've been in serious 'like' but not love.
His name is George. ""
popopadopopopaopodadadapolous?
no wonder he is going gay with his 'stories'
YOU MADE METHOD A FAG I HOPE YOU ROT IN HELL.
Submitted by firefly (user info) at 2006-07-31 20:14:00 EDT (#)
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Submitted by rad1101 (user info) at 2006-07-31 20:03:23 EDT (#)
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fsdakjv v vsfdswee efdfds
Submitted by Crystle (user info) at 2006-07-31 19:42:08 EDT (#)
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What's this? Method showing signs of compassion?
Submitted by kaos-king (user info) at 2006-07-31 19:28:03 EDT (#)
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Submitted by TigerLilly (user info) at 2006-07-31 19:04:53 EDT (#)
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apollo88 I haven't been in love in months. I've been in serious 'like' but not love.
His name is George.
Submitted by apollo88 (user info) at 2006-07-31 18:43:46 EDT (#)
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Submitted by TigerLilly (user info) at 2006-07-31 18:18:48 (#)
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The very top of that guys hat, looks like the tip of a penis.
Just thought I'd share that with all of you.
PS. I'm in love! ""
who with this week?
Submitted by TigerLilly (user info) at 2006-07-31 18:18:48 EDT (#)
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The very top of that guys hat, looks like the tip of a penis.
Just thought I'd share that with all of you.
PS. I'm in love!
Submitted by c1ndy (user info) at 2006-07-31 15:45:49 EDT (#)
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Submitted by professorfuckface (user info) at 2006-07-31 14:25:34 (#)
Ranking: 0
stories are gay
Submitted by inion_de_trua (user info) at 2006-07-31 15:37:07 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by awesome_face (user info) at 2006-07-31 15:16:35 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
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Submitted by scourge (user info) at 2006-07-31 15:14:19 EDT (#)
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Submitted by apollo88 (user info) at 2006-07-31 14:42:06 (#)
Ranking: 2
what's this ADD business?
i might do one.
fuck face's review made me laugh.
the last line of your story was crap the rest was cool.
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http://www.ubersite.com/m/91007
Do it.
Submitted by Poots (user info) at 2006-07-31 14:58:19 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Fucking Awesome. I wrote a story like this a lonnnnnnng time ago, it wasn't as good as this but similar still... I think it was called "stop the music."
Props Method, on writing a story similar to mine.
Submitted by recall (user info) at 2006-07-31 14:51:21 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
This reminds me that I do, in fact, suck at writing.
Great work.
Submitted by Professional_Peon (user info) at 2006-07-31 14:49:36 EDT (#)
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WTF I'm not reading all that
Submitted by BuckeyesTHEGAME (user info) at 2006-07-31 14:49:00 EDT (#)
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http://www.ubersite.com/m/91068
Submitted by sicosemen (user info) at 2006-07-31 14:48:31 EDT (#)
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I just started singing "Eye of the Tiger" and replaced it with a storm, trying to stretch "orm" into two syllables. Thanks, metard.
Submitted by apollo88 (user info) at 2006-07-31 14:42:06 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
what's this ADD business?
i might do one.
fuck face's review made me laugh.
the last line of your story was crap the rest was cool.
Submitted by MANICMOTHER (user info) at 2006-07-31 14:38:04 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by professorfuckface (user info) at 2006-07-31 14:25:34 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
stories are gay
Submitted by scourge (user info) at 2006-07-31 14:24:52 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I did not know that Method still wrote fiction of any sort.
Amazing.
Submitted by whysenheimer (user info) at 2006-07-31 14:23:25 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Antioxident (user info) at 2006-07-31 14:18:09 EDT (#)
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Submitted by BobLobla (user info) at 2006-07-31 14:14:39 EDT (#)
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Submitted by JonnyX (user info) at 2006-07-31 14:13:28 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Ubersite is my only friend
WEEPS