Paint Myself Home (811 hits)
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Submitted by kaos-king (antius777) (View user info) at 2006-08-18 10:52:33 EDT
I sit here in this small dark apartment, my hands and and clothes covered in azure red and cadmium blue. I stare at the canvas and try to remember. I attempt to recreate a visual representation of a moment so filled with emotional context to me, it defies words.
I am failing at this endeavor.
We had been at the park, her and I. Just walking around, doing nothing spectacular but spending some time together on a September afternoon. There was a slight chill to the air, and she had brought a sweater but then had decided to leave it in the car. As we were walking back, the sky opened up unexpectedly and it began to release a torrent of rain. We raced to the car, laughing.
We made it back to the apartment, and unbelievably, the shower had picked up. By the time we got to our second floor door and inside, we were drenched. We stripped off our clothes right there in the living room and went into the bathroom.
She was shivering as I drew the hot water of the shower. I embraced her, hoping merely to warm her up as the water cascaded both behind me and outside. She kissed me and took my hand, leading me behind the curtain. We let the steam billow around us, the heat spilling down our bodies. I lifted her onto the small ledge and made love to her in the shower as I had many times before.
For some reason it was different that time, it stands out in mind. Maybe it was the words she whispered in my ear as we explored each other. Maybe it was because after we finished we crawled into bed together and took a nap, tangled up in the thin blankets. Maybe because it was all gone soon after that.
I'm trying to go back to that now, trying to recapture the essence of that with brush strokes. Not because I necessarily have feelings that still linger, but because I think a portrait of that sensation would be so beautiful, any viewer would weep. But I am not skilled enough, not accomplished enough of an artist. My subject is too vague, and yet too infinite.
John Cusak said in High Fidelity that "Some people just feel like home." I contemplate this statement as I stare at my canvas. And I daydream of September afternoon rain...
User Reviews
Submitted by apollo88 (user info) at 2006-08-24 19:28:38 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
meh
Submitted by ticklish_squirrel (user info) at 2006-08-24 19:10:12 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
That was so romantic.
I want steamy, hot, slick shower sex now!
Submitted by Crystle (user info) at 2006-08-24 18:46:09 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
awwwwwwwwwwwww
Submitted by coley (user info) at 2006-08-20 15:34:51 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by icarus1987 (user info) at 2006-08-19 21:25:20 (#)
Ranking: 2
I know how that is, kaos. One time this kid got all up on my lawn and I was like "dude what the fuck," and he was like "fuck authority," so I took out my hunting knife and slit into his foreskin and popped out his balls like peas from a pod. Then I shoved them in his mouth and sewed then in with some twine and a needle I made out of a sliver of green treated wood. I took the blood shooting out of the little slits in his mouth and made a rorshack blot postcard for his parents.
I think it looked like a bunny.
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No cookies for you!
Submitted by fried-green-potatoes (user info) at 2006-08-20 13:12:20 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
You know you have reached perfection of design not when you have nothing more to add, but when you have nothing more to take away. --Antoine de Saint-Exupéry
close... damn close
Submitted by I_love_Kracka (user info) at 2006-08-20 13:06:37 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I wana see it when your done - whatever it turns out to be
Submitted by munkeypants (user info) at 2006-08-20 11:09:28 EDT (#)
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No Comment
Submitted by Bigmike (user info) at 2006-08-20 11:05:23 EDT (#)
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"I'm trying to go back to that now, trying to recapture the essence of that with brush strokes. Not because I necessarily have feelings that still linger, but because I think a portrait of that sensation would be so beautiful, any viewer would weep. But I am not skilled enough, not accomplished enough of an artist. My subject is too vague, and yet too infinite."
Sometimes events happen to us that cannot be recreated by the mere use of ordinary things. We cannot capture the essence of a look, the feather of a touch, the whisper of a kiss.
Sometimes it is better to just remember and sooth the butterflies that occur upon the thought of another similar moment happening again in our lifetime.
This short passage you've written is beautiful and wrought with emotion. I commend you for it and hope that you experience this feeling many more times.
Submitted by PerkMan (user info) at 2006-08-19 21:35:35 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
oh, yeah I like you. Your artistic in that non arrogrant, non gift of the world way that most artist's are. You used to play sports I bet huh? You actually know how to function in soceity.
I know your cool. nothing like ETS.
ETS is kind of like your average artist, angry, brash, always right, and everyone else is stupid etc.... good show fat boy.
Submitted by PerkMan (user info) at 2006-08-19 21:27:33 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
thinking of you fatass having sex disgusted me then made me chuckle.
I have memories like this as well. I always think I will make a film or something that will capture the moment the way it should be. But no artist I feel can capture the essense of life in a canvas or a film. We can all merely try.
Submitted by icarus1987 (user info) at 2006-08-19 21:25:20 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I know how that is, kaos. One time this kid got all up on my lawn and I was like "dude what the fuck," and he was like "fuck authority," so I took out my hunting knife and slit into his foreskin and popped out his balls like peas from a pod. Then I shoved them in his mouth and sewed then in with some twine and a needle I made out of a sliver of green treated wood. I took the blood shooting out of the little slits in his mouth and made a rorshack blot postcard for his parents.
I think it looked like a bunny.
Submitted by coley (user info) at 2006-08-19 21:07:13 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Jack_McCallum (user info) at 2006-08-18 13:11:21 (#)
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"She was shivering as I drew the hot water of the shower..."
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YOU FUCKING BASTARD ARTISTE! YOU LEFT HER STANDING THERE SHIVERING IN FRONT OF A NICE HOT SHOWER WHILE YOU DREW A SKETCH OF THE FALLING WATER? YOU HEARTLESS BASTARD FUCK YOU AND YOUR ART!
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BAAAAAAHAHAHHAHA
Submitted by coley (user info) at 2006-08-19 21:04:51 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Weird; I reviewed it with "lovely" because, although I never use that word, it was the perfect word that came to mind. And then I read the reviews and saw that inion called it the same.
Must be.
Submitted by coley (user info) at 2006-08-19 21:03:59 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
lovely.
Submitted by Method (user info) at 2006-08-19 20:24:19 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
This was fucking gay, pull the tampon out of your ass, pussy
Submitted by Sockster (user info) at 2006-08-19 20:04:50 EDT (#)
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No Comment
Submitted by ghola (user info) at 2006-08-19 10:08:37 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
You're so difficult to rate. I never know if I should rate you as compared to your other posts or as compared to uber as a whole.
Submitted by resignator (user info) at 2006-08-18 20:55:33 EDT (#)
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No Comment
Submitted by TheUniter (user info) at 2006-08-18 20:49:47 EDT (#)
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No Comment
Submitted by hot_pocket (user info) at 2006-08-18 13:59:38 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
yes, while you may not be able to recreate that moment on canvas you gave me a pretty accurate picture here in words....damn, shes hot
Submitted by Maltese (user info) at 2006-08-18 13:39:37 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
ain'T goT no how whaTchamacalliT
Submitted by Susie_Derkins (user info) at 2006-08-18 13:37:24 EDT (#)
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Beauty. I understand your frustration.
Submitted by Jack_McCallum (user info) at 2006-08-18 13:11:21 EDT (#)
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"She was shivering as I drew the hot water of the shower..."
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YOU FUCKING BASTARD ARTISTE! YOU LEFT HER STANDING THERE SHIVERING IN FRONT OF A NICE HOT SHOWER WHILE YOU DREW A SKETCH OF THE FALLING WATER? YOU HEARTLESS BASTARD FUCK YOU AND YOUR ART!
Submitted by Sacrilicious (user info) at 2006-08-18 12:47:05 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
This is beautiful.
You strike me as the kind of guy who would go all Perry Farrell in "Gift" style and make love to your wife's corpse one last time, in the bath.
Submitted by JonnyX (user info) at 2006-08-18 12:45:40 EDT (#)
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Dude,
http://www.imageblast.com/ibpages/det40.htm
this is where I got that JonBenet pic from - they have a bunch of others as well - it's a digital imaging company.
Submitted by Kaelic (user info) at 2006-08-18 12:38:43 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
What a totally awesome post.
Submitted by sicosemen (user info) at 2006-08-18 12:00:44 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I'm sure after a good strong shit, you'll be able to get your point across.
In all honesty, this was fucking smooth, man, really smooth.
Submitted by alwayspeach1 (user info) at 2006-08-18 11:56:03 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Because in addition to being fodder for your comic relief, she should be exposed to examples of truly good writing.
I'll try not to do it again.
Submitted by awesome_face (user info) at 2006-08-18 11:43:21 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Ok where did all this emo stuff come from?
Why would you bring thedarknessfromabove!
WHYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Submitted by Jack_McCallum (user info) at 2006-08-18 11:40:07 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
(Imagine hearing this with a fast backbeat and some twangy country and western guitar...)
Chorus from 'I'm Just a Tumbleweed with a Dick'
Love 'em and leave 'em and go roarin'
Down the open road
She ain't no princess, so stop actin'
Like a fucking toad
Go find another floozy, bust out your meat
And blow your fuckin' load
Great ass ain't worth heartaches, so wise up
Cause bubba you done been told...
Didja laugh? Huh? Didja? Didja?
I hope you did. Laughing beats feeling blue.
Submitted by COMountain (user info) at 2006-08-18 11:38:11 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
auto +2 shower bang
aw, crap... I ruined the moment didn't I? I got a lot to learn about self censorship.
Submitted by alwayspeach1 (user info) at 2006-08-18 11:30:26 EDT (#)
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Submitted by inion_de_trua (user info) at 2006-08-18 11:18:50 (#)
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Submitted by alwayspeach1 (user info) at 2006-08-18 11:07:59 (#)
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Superb. Sorry to drag thedarknessfromabove into your post but...
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you should have to make that up with a blood sacrifice.
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I'm in.
Call me.
We can collaborate.
:D
Submitted by TigerLilly (user info) at 2006-08-18 11:24:49 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Excellent work.
Submitted by inion_de_trua (user info) at 2006-08-18 11:18:50 EDT (#)
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Submitted by alwayspeach1 (user info) at 2006-08-18 11:07:59 (#)
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Superb. Sorry to drag thedarknessfromabove into your post but...
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you should have to make that up with a blood sacrifice.
Submitted by dove666 (user info) at 2006-08-18 11:17:28 EDT (#)
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Title +2
Submitted by Orgasmatron (user info) at 2006-08-18 11:14:12 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Life can be brought to greater splendor
In oil paint and gold leaf
So as I ponder life
And this yellow-blue motif
I sharpen my knife and wonder
If the sad and petty thief
Bound and begging at my feet
Ever dreamed he'd one day find
An artist to cut out his mind
And smear his brains with dash and flare
Upon a canvass
Along the stairs
That lead up to the Chapel
I save the gold frames for my victims
The ones who stand up straight
And accept my knife as punishment
For their crimes of rage and hate
An artist of the Lord's revenge
I lick the cold steel shaft
I carve into this sinner
And gleefully spread my craft
I save the gold frames
For their smeared brains
And hang their minds upon my wall
Submitted by SilvrWolf (user info) at 2006-08-18 11:08:46 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Sweet sweet brevity
an excellent post
Submitted by alwayspeach1 (user info) at 2006-08-18 11:07:59 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Superb. Sorry to drag thedarknessfromabove into your post but...
thedarknessfromabove, this is eroticism...
"She was shivering as I drew the hot water of the shower. I embraced her, hoping merely to warm her up as the water cascaded both behind me and outside. She kissed me and took my hand, leading me behind the curtain. We let the steam billow around us, the heat spilling down our bodies. I lifted her onto the small ledge and made love to her in the shower as I had many times before.
For some reason it was different that time, it stands out in mind. Maybe it was the words she whispered in my ear as we explored each other. Maybe it was because after we finished we crawled into bed together and took a nap, tangled up in the thin blankets. Maybe because it was all gone soon after that."
Nary an "ooohhhh or ahhhhh" in sight. Erotic because it gives you just a glimpse of the setting and action yet allows you to further the story in your own mind. Zero crudeness. 100% evocative. Not just that part but the entire story in itself. It made you want to KNOW more, the backstory, what she whispered that had so much power over him, why she was gone, hoping she will return, all the while knowing she won't.
kaos-king, I really liked this very much.
Submitted by Beano312003 (user info) at 2006-08-18 11:07:51 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
label-king
Submitted by inion_de_trua (user info) at 2006-08-18 11:06:09 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
absolutely lovely. it's brevity is perfect.
btw, i stumbled at the azure red and cadmium blue i was like NOOO those don't go together it's the other way around!!!
Submitted by scourge (user info) at 2006-08-18 11:04:34 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Sometimes you have to paint it with words, my man.
This brought up a few memories of my own.
Sex in the shower is great, isn't it? One of my favorites.
Submitted by UnderOathMeal (user info) at 2006-08-18 11:03:56 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
A+ fucking awesome shit.
I have a keen appreciation for this stemming from my own penchant for hot shower sex.
God I miss Tara.
Submitted by awesome_face (user info) at 2006-08-18 11:03:16 EDT (#)
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Holy shite batman!
That's alot of labels.
Submitted by kaos-king (user info) at 2006-08-18 10:57:39 EDT (#)
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I finally got around to organizing all my posts with the lable thingy...
That was a pain in the ass.
Submitted by awesome_face (user info) at 2006-08-18 10:57:01 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Is this that chick that you used to bang but is moving back into the complex?
Either way good shit.