I promise... (417 hits)
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Submitted by TheRedUnderYourBed (View user info) at 2006-08-25 10:05:41 EDT
Dear John,
I can't tell you where I've gone. It's not pride, not shame, not even self-preservation. You're a pompous ass-wipe with a temper, I'll grant, but it's really just because I don't know yet.
You remember how I said I would? Yes, I have, finally. Too many years, I've tried to explain things away. The sex was too good, or I couldn't afford anywhere else - the sorts of reasons you used worked; but not forever. You could have had forever, John, and you gave it all away for a bottle of bourbon and half a pack of cigarettes.
I don't have a problem with what I caught you doing. I have a problem that you didn't say anything. I have a problem that I only found out because he said it. He found out, and he felt he had to tell me. I'm so fucking glad it had been going down the toilet for that long, because otherwise I'd have more problems than just leaving. For fuck's sake, I could be dying by now.
A friend of mine once said that everybody shits, but some people want a gilded toilet. I'll give you a goddamn gilded toilet, a toilet for you and him to shit on together. It's not the deception that makes now the time to leave. It's not even sleeping with someone else, even though you lost a lot of trust there.
Under the circumstances, the fact that you're a deadbeat, never got a house, had kids, all the normal sort of things I wanted for us, well that's a good thing. It means there isn't anyone else to hurt. No lawyers. You can file for divorce if you like, but I don't plan on getting married again. All that hope in a ceremony, plays with your head when you don't get it.
I don't think commitment is for chumps. It's all well and good for those who have it, but if you have it, or if you don't, the legal statement isn't worth the paper it's printed on. Yeah, fuck you and your moral values; you already gave them up, I don't see why I shouldn't.
I don't think I'd have written this if I didn't think you need to read it though. Go see a doctor. As much as I'd like to see you die a slow, painful death, I don't think your friends do. See a fucking doctor about it, and either do something about it for as long as you've got left, or put yourself out of that misery. While I'm on the subject of misery, don't you dare pick up that bottle, you ass-wipe. Drinking yourself into a coma won't help anyone. Your friends still think we have a good relationship. They're fucking retards.
Go set them straight, they'll appreciate your honesty. What's more, they know you have something to tell them. They can't figure you out right now, and you're oblivious to their over-the-shoulder glances at parties - Oh, is that John? I still don't know why he's acting so strangely. Get your fucking act together. Suicide is not an option. My uncle works at the morgue. You do not want my uncle taking it out on your parents. I do not need the newscast to get to the other side of the country.
Yes, I know I sound angry. Took you that long to figure, dipshit? I don't need my parents to know about this. Yes, that's the other reason I won't bother filing for divorce. I quite like my bodily organs, and they like me. You know how religious rednecks get.
I promised myself I wouldn't waste too much more time on a guy who got AIDS by cheating on me. Go fuck yourself, and don't ever talk to me again.
Up yours and forever
Cindy
User Reviews
Submitted by apollo88 (user info) at 2006-08-27 20:40:05 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
crap
Submitted by dr_weazel (user info) at 2006-08-27 20:03:13 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
This was shit.
Submitted by goferforhire (user info) at 2006-08-25 12:55:28 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Didn't kick ass, didn't make me smile, didn't suck donkey nads.
Congratulations?
Submitted by ghola (user info) at 2006-08-25 11:17:01 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
this would have worked better as an actual narrative.
Submitted by Shlongy (user info) at 2006-08-25 10:24:20 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Uhhhh...isn't there a better place for THIS than Uber, mixed in with the cartoon penises and the photoshopped heads and baby bashing?
Submitted by FuckTheArmy (user info) at 2006-08-25 10:09:20 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Yes, I know it's a little short. But we'll get there. I'm just throwing off the cobwebs... haven't even started to stretch. Felt like giving it something different.
It's difficult to get inside someone's head when you've got a different set of hormones. Tell me if I'm way off here, or if indeed anyone thinks this would be a plausible reaction.