To Falter (Again) (376 hits)
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Submitted by mockidol (View user info) at 2006-09-07 01:37:04 EDT
"It'll be okay. Don't go killing yourself or anything. You do that and I'll have to bring you back to life to kill you myself." Leara and her blunt, aggressive, hidden statements of love; got to love her.
I lower my head and stare at my feet balancing on the edge of the step. A deep drag of nicotine pulls into my lungs and I say in my finest mumble, "I'm not going to kill myself. Geeze."
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"Umm." I know my answer before I even think, say it. "I'll have a Captain and coke."
As per tradition, Regina responds with yet another question. "Tall or short?"
Also per tradition I respond, "Tall."
She hand me the drink and I can feel the cold wet glass in my hand. "So Eddie. Happy birthday man."
I take that beautiful first sip of my drink and it slides down like a beautiful sin. "Ahh man, that tastes good. I haven't had a drink for like three days now."
"Damn." Eddie starts to say back. "What's wrong man? You need to get on that shit."
Another drink slides down and I smile.
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"What you put in?" Leara asks.
"Mulholland Drive. Maybe I'll find it less pretentious this time." The words don't actually make it out of my mouth, but she can imagine they're there.
"Fun." She says the words sarcastically. Obviously not in the mood to watch T.V., to stay awake, the have me there.
I lay back to watch the movie and hope she'll cheer up a bit. It's been a long day, week, month, and I just need to relax with my baby.
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"You know you're ABCs right?"
"Yeah."
I'm short. A bit angry actually. Of course you smell beer. It's reeked of Tequiza for a few weeks now. Probably should have cleaned my car, but we all know I'm a bit too lethargic for that.
"Okay. Now, try saying them from 'D' to 'P'. Got it?
"Yeah. Yeah. D. P. Got it." I can picture myself standing there, colored by the lights,, trying not to roll my eyes.
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"You tell them yet?"
"No." I'm fearing that quite a bit. "I'm going to finish a cigarette or two first. Probably tell my Dad."
"Yeah. Don't worry babe."
"Love you." I say the words so I can hear them back.
"Love you." She says back.
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Leara is passing out and I'm already bored up the pretentious piece of crap movie. Rolling over in the process, I throw my arm over her and gently kiss her on the cheek.
"I'll just go babe." I'm not happy that nothing has really gone on tonight and she knows it, but oh well. "You seem like you want to go to bed anyway."
As I stand up she rolls over to look at me. I look at her lying there, so gentle, so sweet, so beautiful, and I can't help but feel like nothing can go wrong.
"By babe."
"Bye."
As I walk out, quietly locking her door behind me, I realize I don't want to go home and wonder what to do. I'd like to call that one dude that lives right down the road, but we all know that's not a good idea and my mind moves on.
"Secor." My brain says. "Stop by the bar for a drink or two."
So I do.
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"Damn. Just .002 over. You'll be legally sober in five minutes."
He's kind of laughing, which annoys me a bit, but I let it go.
"So?" I can't help but ask, "What's this brown stuff on the floor? Puke?" At first I thought it was dry, stickey cola, but then I thought about the chair I was in.
"Who knows?" he says. "That chair your in. It used to be cloth but we had to get a plastic one after some girl forgot to tell us she was on her period. Gross man. Gross."
The image pops in my head, but I shake it off.
"So... you're going to stop on the way to take me home so I can get smokes?"
"Yeah. No problem. You've been cool."
"Thanks."
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Regina walks over and me sitting up at the bar. I'm next to Eddie who's getting ready to leave a when she asks, "'nother?"
"Sure. Why not."
Another drink can't hurt, it's only going to be my second and last.
The drink slides down my throat with ease and it continues that way until it's gone; until I leave.
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I'm zoned out at the light thinking of Leara and the crappy movie we were watching earlier. Sucky night I guess. It was a good time at the bar but it's always so lame just stopping by and leaving before you've drank too much.
Better to be safe I guess.
I think about sending her a message for a second, but she's probably asleep so I let it go. Don't want to bother her for nothing.
Suddenlly out of the corner of my eye I see a cop car pull up next to me. I grab the seatbelt and slide it on.
Thank God I only drank two drinks. That'd never put me over. Right?
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"At this point could you turn around and face your bumper?"
Slowely, my head pointed at the road, I turn around.
I can feel the smooth metal cuffs close around my hands as he starts to talk. "I am placing you under arrest under suspicion of drunk driving. We are going back to my station and your car will be towed. Could you please spread your legs to shoulder length?"
I spread my legs and I feel his hands patting me up and down for hidden weapons and shit. Continuing to hang my head low I turn around and walk back towards his car.
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Thank God I only drank two drinks. That'd never put me over. Right?
Sure. Why not.
.002 over. You'll be legally sober in five minutes.
and I can't help but feel like nothing can go wrong.
You tell them yet?
Yeah. Yeah.
Fun.
I'm not going to kill myself. Geeze.
User Reviews
Submitted by Orgasmatron (user info) at 2006-09-07 10:38:13 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
On Moctnem
Submitted by mockidol (user info) at 2006-09-07 09:43:58 EDT (#)
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Again is implying another fuck up in general, not another dui or arrest.
Submitted by Stagger_Lee (user info) at 2006-09-07 08:34:17 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
You boozehound, you.
Submitted by UnderOathMeal (user info) at 2006-09-07 08:27:21 EDT (#)
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Did I start a trend or something?
Suicide posts are a fad, people!
Submitted by Bob_Dole (user info) at 2006-09-07 04:42:11 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
again?
Submitted by TheUniter (user info) at 2006-09-07 02:12:26 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1