What she did to me, bad story of love. (422 hits)
Category: RomanceRating: -1 on 10 reviews (Rate this item) (V)
Submitted by Tim H <psychodude98.at.hotmail.com> (View user info) at 2006-09-28 15:52:07 EDT
Hello everyone, I am New Alchemy. I am 15 years old. I used to be called Mich Selbst Und Ich on this forum when I was a huge conservative, but I've changed greatly. I post on this forum to tell my story, and to ask for help (You will see why)
My story is about love, lust, a little betrayal, and lots of heartbreak. Before I go on, let me say that I have changed ALL names.
To start, let's go back in time. 8 Months to this day to be exact. There were two people together in a room. Meghan, a short girl with dirty blonde hair, dressed gothic, had lots of freckiles, and was very unpopular. Rick was a very unpopular man who dressed gothic as well. Musclear in stature and large in frame, he stood in his room with Meghan. On that day they "so called" fell in love when they both had sex for the first time. With each other. 2 Days later they started going out. Meghan stopped going out with the guy Joey who she was going out with when she had sex with Rick(yes, she technically cheated on him).
Now that I have the foreward done, let me go on to the actual story. about the greater half of 3 to 4 months later, Meghan and I are talking. WE become fairly close (or so I thought). We both talked about how we were depressed, and about how she cut herself whenver she felt bad. She told me that she felt Rick was the first person to ever love her. We become closer and closer, and she starts giving me more and more attention when we're around other people. This behavior continues for about 2 months. Around late May Rick tried to break up with Meghan for 2 days but eventually they got back together.
On about June 1 we took a class trip to Dorney Park. Meghan, I, and a few meutal friends came. Rick did not. We sat next to each other on the bus and hang out all day together(pritty much). She talked very little about how she loved Rick. We got back and it was a great day. Then 2 days later everything changed.
On June 3rd, Meghan was over at Rick's house. They were talking, and Rick said something extremly shocking to Meghan, which caused her to cry for 2 hours. Rick had cheated on her with another girl. When she got home she told me and we were all sympthizing for her and pissed at Rick. We flooded his myspace, talked about revenge plots, and sympthizied for Meghan.
The day after he cheated on her, we were talking and another mutal friend of outs, Danny, told Meghan that he liked her. She said that she promised another guy, Nick that she would go out with him. She later took that back and told me she was confused over 2 people whom she liked.. Me and Danny. That week was hell. Danny kept on "going afteR" Meghan in the creepiest ways, and basically sexually harrased her. At the same time Meghan was trying her best to keep Rick away from her.
Then on that follwoing Friday we were over at Danny's house with 2 mutual friends. Rick had come at the door and asked to talk with Meghan, and Danny (stupidly) let him in. We guided Meghan out of the house and tried to distract Rick. Rick ran out and chased after Meghan, and our friend Matt who is really tough talked him and basically beat him up. We walked about a mile away from the house and then got driven back to Danny's house, all the while I was comfurting Meghan and Danny was hitting on her.
2 Days later as soon as I came online Meghan said she loved me and wanted to go out with me. We were offically going out, and she was ignoring Ryan. 2 days after that she came after and we made out a few times, and 2 days later we had oral sex. We would have Oral sex 4 times in that week/week and a half. She said she wanted to keep Ryan out of her head, but I told her she had to talk to him so she could get all her emotion out for him.
I left for vacation the following week, and during that time she tried to call me about 5 times nad flooded my myspace with love messages and comments. The day I came back we met and we had oral sex again. 2 days after that she told me that if she could she would be going back out with Rick. Her emotions changed in the blink of an eye, and she told me she wanted Ryan. However she told me she would never break up with me for the world, and to not be worried. After this I became a lot more clingy and obsessed, probalby in an effort not to lose her.
Then guess what happened 2 weeks later? I will never forget this day as long as I live, love and until I die. July 15, 2006. I was meeting her after work around 5 to hang out with her. Today was going to be the day we had sex. She calledm e and told me she was hanging out at Rick's house, which was across the street from where she worked. I went to go pick her up. We walked to the spot where we normal did "stuff"(hehehe) which was in the woods. We went in there, made out, eventually got naked, I started fingering her and well, it ended up in us having unprotected sex(I pulled out though). We left the woods and as we were walking back, I heard the 8 words which I feared most.
I
Just
Want
To
Be
Single
For
Now
I started to cry and when I got back to my house I cried even more. She promised me we would get back to gether. I became even more clingy for the next week, always bringing this up every time we talked and always making sure she loved me. I, in some ways, appeared really needy and sort of insecure. I aksed her every day that week if she still loved me. Then the following weekend she sent pratically the whole weekend with Rick. On that Saturday during the weekend I appoligized for everything I did to bother her and promised her I would stop, as logn as we got back together eventually. She said she just liked being single and didn't want a relationship. The next day I was informed that Rick and Meghan had sex again.
Then she started liking another random guy, her friend Mike, became ubsessed with him but eventually started fuckign Rick again. Since most of her friends can't stand Rick and neither can her fater, they keep the fact they're having sex a secret but still are "in love".
I went through a period of grief and sadness that I still don't think I'm out of. whenever I see them together I get angry. Today I saw them on the bus going home, they were sitting next to each other, she was leaning on his sholder, and he was wispering something in her ear. She had a huge smile on her face. It gave me many emotions.. anger, anxiety, heartbreak, hopelessness.. emotions like
Now I need help. Can someone tell me how to shake this feeling? I can't help it and it feels horrible..urg...
User Reviews
Submitted by JonnyX (user info) at 2006-09-29 19:04:16 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I love how you kept switching back from Rick to Ryan.
This is so incredibly shitty its halarious!
Submitted by QueenAshlee (user info) at 2006-09-28 17:12:47 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
Lord...
Get over it, way worse shit will happen when you grow up.
Submitted by forensicgirl3 (user info) at 2006-09-28 16:53:46 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
Hahahahahahaha!
Thanks for the laugh!
Submitted by forthewin (user info) at 2006-09-28 16:45:34 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
I know this is an alter, because in real life, no one loves goth girls.
Submitted by VileSin (user info) at 2006-09-28 16:20:19 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
What the fuck is this pile of horseshit?
End yourself with a couple shots of Drano.
Submitted by apollo88 (user info) at 2006-09-28 16:16:55 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
alter
Submitted by nya_nyo (user info) at 2006-09-28 15:57:17 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
A bullet to the head will end your sorrows
Submitted by Crystle (user info) at 2006-09-28 15:56:25 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
"On about June 1 we took a class trip to Donkey Porn."
No wonder they haven't had the time to teach you how to spell or write.
Submitted by Maltese (user info) at 2006-09-28 15:55:48 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
-2BBQ
Submitted by Fartman (user info) at 2006-09-28 15:55:05 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
"Musclear"?
Who are you, George Bush?