A nice change of pace in life is always a good thing... (Oh, and NFL Week 7) (713 hits)
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Submitted by Jay Peg (View user info) at 2006-10-21 02:38:46 EDT
(ahead of time, sorry for the start-stop kind of writing. I'm just writing as it comes to me, and it's going to be a bit disjointed.)
"Well. I'm going to have to change your diagnosis, Jason. I don't believe that you're bi-polar."
I heard that about 4 1/2 weeks ago from my new psychiatrist.
Right before that, I had what I assumed was a manic breakdown, and basically went apeshit for 4 days.
Fight with a neighbor? Check.
Fight with my cousin? Check.
Argumentative with guests at the hotel? Check.
Did I realize any of it was going on?
Nope.
It all culminated with the fight with my cousin, Bill. We were sitting at our usual spots at the bar and, as we often do, we imbibed a few gloriously cold frosty adult beverages.
And I asked if he had watched the news that night, since I hadn't, and wondered about an accident on Colfax.
He told me what happened, and 99% of it was right and OK, but then he told me that the road had been closed for the past 4 hours.
I told him that wasn't true, because I had driven on it coming home from work 3 hours beforehand.
And we argued some more, and for some reason that I do not remember, I threw an elbow into his neck, and calmly walked away. A while later, I remember wondering why I was in my Trooper, 5 minutes from home.
Then I remembered everything, and basically broke down.
Imagine a 280-pound man sobbing at the wheel at a red light.
So I got a hold of my father at 11PM, and he talked me down for the second time in 3 nights.
Told me that I needed to go back into my doctor and get new meds, because the ones I was on (Risperdol) weren't working.
So I went to my old doc's office, to find out that he'd moved.
Time to find a new doc.
Aaaaaaaaaaand so I did.
Dr. Foss.
Went into his office, and after a nice 2 hour psych evaluation, he bluntly told me that my old doc was a crackpot, and had totally mis-diagnosed my problem.
So I asked him that if I wasn't bi-polar, what the fuck was wrong with me?
He then said the one thing that made me actually think that things were going to get better.
"I don't have a clue. But we're going to get a therapist to work with us and find out."
So we did.
Dr. Strong.
So, for an hour each week I've met with Dr. Strong, and every other week with Dr. Foss.
We've worked out a lot of things, and it's amazing. Dr. Foss is working with me to get a solid finger on the chemical problems, and we're pretty sure that we've figured them out.
I have an anxiety complex.
I also have an anger management problem.
I also have a problem with (and no, this isn't the dirty form) I have a problem with dominating/being dominated.
And finally, I might have a problem with OCD/perfectionism along with a mild case of adult ADHD. (Yeah, we can't figure out why I exhibit both traits, either.)
Just from those three problems, I'm now able to piece together a lot of shit in my life, and funny enough, here at Uber.
It explains why I tend to keep arguing with someone who won't stop acting like an ass.
It explains why I can't stop replying to the dumb shit people like Caul do.
And it explains why I constantly rail on fuckers who purposly act like 5-years olds.
With Dr. Strong, however, we're working on my life in general.
What I do, why I do it, how I can change it.
On this end, we're beginning to see the origins of inability to discern between agressive and assertive. We're also seeing the strings of a "middle-child" problem, where I think I can fix and do everything myself, because since people tended to overlook me growing up, I figured I didn't need help. Or something like that. Not exactly sure how to describe it in words.
We're also working on something that, for me, is pretty fucking bad.
I know it doesn't SEEM like much, but I have such a compulsion for lying it's scary.
I can actually remember lies that I've told people easier than I can remember truths.
Now, why do I have this problem?
I'm actually really afraid that people will not like me.
HOLYSHITNOFUCKINGWAYYOUDON'TSAY, you say.
Yeah. It's almost phobic.
I'm afraid that if people really knew me, and about me, they'd not want anything to do with me, because I see myself as not normal in any way.
For example, maybe you'd describe how a good conversation with a friend about whatever topic you choose makes you happy. it made you feel better, and it gave you a good outlook on the rest of your day.
I have a great chat with someone, I feel green. Not like, sick or envious or anything like that, but the color.
I describe things to myself in colors.
And I've convinced myself that to other people it's fecking strange.
So is the joy I get from just sitting down and reading 200 pages of a book.
You'd rather go skiing?
Maybe you'd rather go to a club and get fucked up?
Maybe gardening or whatever.
Me? I wanna read as much as I can about anything I can get my hands on. Right now it's pre-Civil War American history. I've read a Lincoln bio, a US Grant bio and a book about Congress from 1840-1861 and the long-term causes of the secessionist antagonism of South Carolina.
You're bored just reading that paragraph, I assume, but to me, it's amazing stuff.
And no, I can't explain it. Reading these actually makes me feel light blue. And yes, that's a good thing.
Anyway, I'm sure by now you're bored to tears, or confused as a dog with 4 tails. And I'm also sure that this post probably has some pretty shitty ratings because of those "superfriends" faggots.
Oh well.
Now, quick picks, because I'm fucking tired, and there's no point to expanding on anything, since you're going to probably gloss over it anyway.
Oh, and I recalc'd my standings, because for some reason I didn't work ties one way or the other consistantly. Fuck if I know why, it didn't help or hurt overall. Last week I went 5-7-1 for a total of 43-37-6. Personal picks were a suicidal 0-5-1, bringing that down to 19-14-3. (Only doing 4 this week)
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Cincy vs Carolina(+3) --> Carolina
New York Jets vs Detroit(+3.5) --> New York Jets (P#1)
Miami vs Green Bay(+5) --> Green Bay
Houston(+9.5) vs Jacksonville --> Jacksonville
Buffalo(+5.5) vs New England --> New England (P#2)
Tampa Bay(+5.5) vs Philadelphia --> Philadelphia
Altanta(+2.5) vs Pittsburgh --> Atlanta
Kansas City(+5) vs San Diego --> San Diego (P#4)
Cleveland(+4.5) vs Denver --> Denver
Oakland(+3) vs Arizona --> Arizona (P#4)
Seattle vs Minnesota(+6.5) --> Seattle
Indianapolis vs Washington(+9) --> Indianapolis
Dallas vs New York Giants(+3) --> New York Giants
So.
Yep.
That's about it.
Fuck it, it's beer time.
User Reviews
Submitted by foster (user info) at 2006-11-11 11:58:55 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
http://www.ubersite.com/m/95651
Submitted by Death_Metal_Dude (user info) at 2006-10-23 01:46:35 EDT (#)
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pantera is awful, go swallow too much medication you abnormal oaf
Submitted by jgreening (user info) at 2006-10-23 01:42:26 EDT (#)
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Says the man who proably sits aroundhis house stoned off his ass listening to Pantera talking about how it "speaks to him"
Cockslap.
Submitted by Death_Metal_Dude (user info) at 2006-10-23 01:17:56 EDT (#)
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if only you could channel the perfectionism into not being a fat retarded slob
Submitted by jgreening (user info) at 2006-10-22 21:03:20 EDT (#)
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Woody, that was an edit mistake. I listed the first 3, then added the OCD/perfection and ADHD. I didn't put those in at first, because they seemed minor overall, then I thought "shit, if i'm listing any, I should list all".
Submitted by Caulaincourt (user info) at 2006-10-22 19:59:32 EDT (#)
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Submitted by jgreening (user info) at 2006-10-22 19:35:38 (#)
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I have no idea why you guys do it.
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'we' are not assholes.
in life, social dynamics restrict people like you from sharing the diarrhea that serves you for cerebral influx. unfortunately, the internet gives you a voice.
normal people like me only try to bring you back on the natural course of things by reminding you where you belong.
Submitted by DCWoody (user info) at 2006-10-22 19:43:34 EDT (#)
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You went to a therapist for that?
you could have just made a post entitled, 'Seriously, what do you lot think is wrong with me?'
I wouldn't have got the ADHD or the synathesia (the colours thing) but the rest is pretty fricking obvious.
And another problem your Dr seemingly missed, you can't count.
"I have an anxiety complex.
I also have an anger management problem.
I also have a problem with (and no, this isn't the dirty form) I have a problem with dominating/being dominated.
And finally, I might have a problem with OCD/perfectionism along with a mild case of adult ADHD. (Yeah, we can't figure out why I exhibit both traits, either.)
Just from those three problems"
FIVE.
Six if you count the not counting.
Now stop fucking whining.
Submitted by jgreening (user info) at 2006-10-22 19:35:38 EDT (#)
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you're just an easy target and nobody gives a shit about you.
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I'm gonna shock you here, Caul.
Ready?
You're right.
I'm an easy target.
And most people dn't give a shit about me.
And try as I might, I actually still care a little.
Don't get me wrong, I don't give a shit that people who use Uber just to be an asshole they can't be in real life don't like me. Those are the people like you, georgemichael, wiggles, AJ etc etc.
I actually care more about what ETS thinks of me than you guys do, because he's at least an intelligent person whose sole goal in life ISN'T trying to act like a badass in front of others.
Y'all are just as false as I am. I'm false and I lie because I lead a boring dull life and am ashamed by it. I have no idea why you guys do it.
Submitted by Caulaincourt (user info) at 2006-10-22 19:12:24 EDT (#)
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Submitted by jgreening (user info) at 2006-10-22 18:52:02 (#)
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And ya know what?
People can hate me for these, but I'm gonna start doing a lot of them.
Why?
Fuck, if I can actually be truthful on an anonymous website where NO ONE is exactly who and what they say they are, why can't I be truthful in the real world?
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jeez, stfu!
no one cares about your reflexions or your 5 mental diseases or how you care way too much about the internet or that time your fat ass sobbed while eating your emotions out of an ice cream tub.
you're just an easy target and nobody gives a shit about you.
deal with it.
Submitted by jgreening (user info) at 2006-10-22 19:04:33 EDT (#)
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Oh, and if Denver holds one (which I have no reason to believe they won't) I'm 6-5-1.
Houston and Oakland... Christ... And SD...
At least the Broncos will be alone atop the AFC West. Which is nice.
Submitted by jgreening (user info) at 2006-10-22 18:52:02 EDT (#)
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Here's a fun thing, now.
And this isn't being rude to Circe or anything.
She's ALMOST right. But not enough that I can say "yeah, OK"
I will follow packs for things that I like, but my dislikes tend to be my own. It's a bad example, but I don't "follow" the pack on people like stok/PiB/WTH/whoever. I just can't stand idiocy from people I know aren't idiots.
And there is a lot of boiling down in this post, too. Some things I went over in a way that make sense to me, some things I went over in a way to try and make sense to others.
And ya know what?
People can hate me for these, but I'm gonna start doing a lot of them.
Why?
Fuck, if I can actually be truthful on an anonymous website where NO ONE is exactly who and what they say they are, why can't I be truthful in the real world?
Submitted by Caulaincourt (user info) at 2006-10-22 17:24:39 EDT (#)
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Submitted by Circe (user info) at 2006-10-21 13:20:14 (#)
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I'm actually really afraid that people will not like me."""
That actually explains the one thing about you I find ridiculous and pathetic - your sycophantic, based-on-the-numbers attitude towards everything.
If the majority like it, you'll like it louder. If the majority dislike it, you'll go on all-out hate campaign. It's ludicrous, really - I've seen you change your rating on a post after everyone else said they like it. You're always so fucking desperate to be seen as agreeable that you come off as contemptible.
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so much truth in two paragraphs.
Submitted by Caulaincourt (user info) at 2006-10-22 17:09:26 EDT (#)
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LMAO!!!
Submitted by 8track (user info) at 2006-10-22 08:40:55 EDT (#)
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Fuck off no one cares
Submitted by STIXS (user info) at 2006-10-21 19:55:17 EDT (#)
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There are actually lots of people who relate colors to emotions. I forgot what it's called, but it's most common in terms of listening to music, i.e. if you don't like yellow and the french horn, every time you listen to anything with lots of French horn you see yellow.
It is actually a very interesting thing that you have going on, and it makes you somewhat unique, but not in a contemptable way - in fact, sometimes I wish that I could see colors or feel colors when I felt an emotion.
I know there's a word to describe a similar process, but I can't, for the life of me, spell it - it sounds as if it is spelled 'Qualay,' but I know that's incorrect. Regardless, the way it is defined is: How can you describe 'Green' to a man who was born blind?
I don't know enough about sports to actually put my two cents in, but since I'm from Chicago, let's say Bears at that game where they won't lose.
Submitted by Unabonger (user info) at 2006-10-21 18:15:42 EDT (#)
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"I'll take 'the rapists' for 500, Alex."
"Once again, Mr. Connery, that is 'therapists'."
Submitted by Jeanneee (user info) at 2006-10-21 15:44:08 EDT (#)
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It takes balls to talk about your personal problems in this kind of depth on a site where you're guaranteed to get nothing but grief for it.
Submitted by JulsInsane (user info) at 2006-10-21 15:24:59 EDT (#)
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Submitted by UnderOathMeal (user info) at 2006-10-21 10:59:55 (#)
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Guy gets mad at self.
Guy tries to vent on website.
Guy finds no utility in doing so.
Guy seeks help from therapist.
Therapist shows guy his complete lack of mental stability.
Guy gets books. Guy reads them.
Guy writes post about it on aforementioned website.
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Dude, you are truly a pathetic case. We don't care about your issues or your football projections. Give up, give in and go away.
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I don't even like Jay but...
This is pretty fucking hysterical commentary coming from you emo boy.
Submitted by Serious_Melvin (user info) at 2006-10-21 15:07:10 EDT (#)
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This post was interesting. I don't know if I believe much in therapy, but honesty is important. People have a knack for sensing when things don't add up, and they never do with someone who cascades lies on top of lies (even when they don't say anything). When you're honest you don't have to remember what you've said, and that's the key. I've had people say "so how is XYZ" and I would think, "I told you that?" You can just talk without having to worry if it contradicts something you've said previously. It's much easier on the senses.
I would say that honesty is the number one thing that you should focus on if that is a problem. You mentioned not knowing the difference between agressiveness and assertiveness? If you have the honesty thing down, then assertiveness is just asking simple questions (or making simple observations) when things don't add up, and making decisions based on whether those things are resolved.
My two cents.
Submitted by apollo88 (user info) at 2006-10-21 14:17:21 EDT (#)
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this post is everything that is wrong with America.
Submitted by Sphagnum (user info) at 2006-10-21 13:36:28 EDT (#)
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Wonderful
Submitted by Circe (user info) at 2006-10-21 13:22:31 EDT (#)
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*whose, not whos. Typo.
OCD, she is a bitch.
Submitted by Circe (user info) at 2006-10-21 13:20:14 EDT (#)
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I'm actually really afraid that people will not like me."""
That actually explains the one thing about you I find ridiculous and pathetic - your sycophantic, based-on-the-numbers attitude towards everything.
If the majority like it, you'll like it louder. If the majority dislike it, you'll go on all-out hate campaign. It's ludicrous, really - I've seen you change your rating on a post after everyone else said they like it. You're always so fucking desperate to be seen as agreeable that you come off as contemptible.
If I were to choose between a person whos opinion changes with the popular vote, or a person who I may not agree with but who at least had integrity, I know who I'd choose.
You should work on this.
Submitted by UnderOathMeal (user info) at 2006-10-21 10:59:55 EDT (#)
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Guy gets mad at self.
Guy tries to vent on website.
Guy finds no utility in doing so.
Guy seeks help from therapist.
Therapist shows guy his complete lack of mental stability.
Guy gets books. Guy reads them.
Guy writes post about it on aforementioned website.
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Dude, you are truly a pathetic case. We don't care about your issues or your football projections. Give up, give in and go away.
Submitted by Shlongy (user info) at 2006-10-21 10:08:54 EDT (#)
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You also have a problem picking NFL games...add that to the list of shit for you to talk with Dr. Venckman about.
Submitted by HotWillie (user info) at 2006-10-21 04:04:57 EDT (#)
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This was not boring.
It was very interesting.
I saw your comment on the other post and clicked over here.
I'm glad I did.
Submitted by 8track (user info) at 2006-10-21 03:41:39 EDT (#)
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No Comment
Submitted by rad1101 (user info) at 2006-10-21 03:34:13 EDT (#)
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you're coming out my way?
Submitted by rad1101 (user info) at 2006-10-21 03:34:00 EDT (#)
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WOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
GO BEARS
Submitted by jgreening (user info) at 2006-10-21 03:14:44 EDT (#)
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Well in NFC Norris, they're going to have the division locked up by probably Week 14. Unless Minnesota goes on a tear and doesn't lose for 6-7 weeks, you're looking at 2 weeks of Brian Greise.
Submitted by bart (user info) at 2006-10-21 03:09:15 EDT (#)
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I really hope they don't rest the starters in weeks 16 and 17. That's what they did last year and I think that's why they were out of the playoffs so quickly... the players were overconfident and hadn't played in three weeks.
Submitted by rad1101 (user info) at 2006-10-21 03:08:50 EDT (#)
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WOOOO GO BEARS
Submitted by jgreening (user info) at 2006-10-21 03:02:16 EDT (#)
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The Skins are fucking annoying this year. Two weeks of looking pretty damned good, two weeks of looking "meh" and two weeks of looking like SHIT.
The reason I'm taking Indy is because the Redskin pass defense is horrid against teams that can throw the ball downfield, like the Giants and Cowboys.
Oh, and the only game where the Bears *could* lose is 11/24. In New England. Third week in a row on the road and everything.
Sorry, but only one team goes into NE and destroys the Pats year in/year out, and that's my Broncos.
:-)
Of course, I also won't put it past them rest every starter against the Lions and Pack in Wk's 16-17.
Submitted by bart (user info) at 2006-10-21 02:55:49 EDT (#)
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I'm picking the Redskins over the Colts as the upset of the week in a total offense shoot out.
And this also happens to be the only week the Bears won't win.
Submitted by paint_it_black (user info) at 2006-10-21 02:54:37 EDT (#)
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Anyway, I'm sure by now you're bored to tears, or confused as a dog with 4 tails. And I'm also sure that this post probably has some pretty shitty ratings because of those "superfriends" faggots.
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STOP PROJECTING YOUR SELF LOATHING ONTO A BUNCH OF DICKHEADS FUCKING AROUND ON UBER FOR THEIR OWN ENJOYMENT.
Submitted by paint_it_black (user info) at 2006-10-21 02:51:55 EDT (#)
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oh boo hoo you fucking bitch,
you got a case of bitch
just shut the fuck up you self involved little bitch
stop taking meds, don't drink, dont eat processed foods, fucking exercise every day and stop caring about what happens on the internet.
Submitted by paint_it_black (user info) at 2006-10-21 02:44:33 EDT (#)
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