The Insomniac (454 hits)
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Submitted by Hourman (View user info) at 2006-11-10 11:33:59 EST
You know what the most valuable item, in the world, to any 'human' is? Human...I fucking hate that word, so scientific and statistical in it's resolution. Anyway, the most valuable item to any one person, a much more humane word, is sanity. Fucking sanity, something that you receive mid life and something taken away towards the end. The lucky ones die before they lose it, the unlucky ones aren't even born with it.
For fucks sake these pills don't help, every time my head hits the goddamn pillow it's like another thought is pushed in. I mean Jesus what the hell was that doctor thinking 'Yeah these drugs will sort you out' a bit of humane compassion would have been nice. I can read his mind 'Oh God another addict better give him something light or he'll end up addicted trying to sell me his body for another hit'.
One sheep, two sheep, three sheep...four fucking furry sheep...now I hate sheep too, I got to go out.
Man it's so cold out here, and yet I can't help but feel right, the snow underneath my shoe is crunching, there's a phrase from a film 'Be careful Preston, you're treading on my dreams'. Snow was always my thing as a kid, but here it rarely snows, sure we get snow and snow falls, but it's not snow, it's black slush. Black slush filled with litter, a friend of mine once trod on a bottle and needed stitches; it was covered by 'snow'. Never that crispy white snow...it's three in the morning, and all those children out there, like I did, who dream of snow...well I guess I'm treading on all their dreams.
Drugs? Hey fuck you asshole! I'm trying to tire myself out not buzz myself for seven hours of jaw locking, head rubbing, and googly-eyed bullshit! Get a real fucking job...I need a job too. Who'll hire me though? I'm skinny as a pole and have no fucking muscle. I mean sure I can fight, If by fight you mean the one who walks away at the end, but I don't impose fear, like a security guard fucking should. I'm too judgemental to stack shelves...fuck it, I'm too god damned mental let alone judgemental.
Night nurse...Calpol...it all tastes the same with a different label. It's the government...ok I'm not that crazy yet, but the guy behind the counter is giving me the 'Don't fuck with me you drunken ass' look, we all know the look. I sure as hell do. A guy who has to pass out to sleep, well you'd be surprised at the looks I get.
Fuck it I'm going home.
This apartment must be the problem because now I got to tidy it, and then I'll be bored and awake, so I'll end up using that fucking computer, with the bastard internet. Then I'll spend the next eight hours in a chat room telling strangers how to sort their lives out when I can't even sort out my own! You've got to love hypocrisy.
My sanity...it's leaving, and I know it's leaving, I just don't know why. I wish I did, but I don't. I could be a coy cunt about the whole thing and be all 'oh but it helps me progress in my talent' all I'd need then is a fucking art or talent to progress... maybe some vodka and a pipe. Cord trousers a dinner jacket with a t-shirt on, and some brown loafers...then I'd be cool. Fucking pricks.
Alright I got to do something I'm going insane, no I'm not...you're insane or you're not, and since I'm able to apply logic to that, I can't be insane.
You know who's insane? Everyone, everyone's insane 'Oh my God I'm so fat!' "Fuck politicians' and possibly my favourite 'Equal rights!' Fuck equal rights, there I said it, fuck it because as soon as they're equal, then someone will look to worsen their least favourite peoples rights.
Charity workers, at seven in the fucking morning? Fuck off and do something for them that doesn't involve throwing money at the situation you fucking parasites!
Oh Jesus I need sleep...sweet sleep. There's one thing about being an insomniac, that I miss most, and one thing I despise most. The first is when people use the term insomniac because they stayed up two nights in a row, pilled off their tits or revising for exams. That's not insomnia. Insomnia is the small gap between being awake and dead or dead to the world asleep.
The thing I miss about sleep most though is the snow, the snow with its white outline, and delicate fragility, which if nothing else represents the delicacy in a person's life.
No one treads on my snow or my dreams, no one but me.
User Reviews
Submitted by drgoatcabin (user info) at 2007-01-05 09:57:22 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Excellent
Submitted by DrogoRoch (user info) at 2007-01-05 09:44:54 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Sorry I missed this, glad you linked it.
Nicely done.
Submitted by rorrim (user info) at 2006-11-13 07:57:44 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Straight 2's !
Submitted by MeeatG (user info) at 2006-11-10 21:32:52 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Awesome.
Submitted by Antioxident (user info) at 2006-11-10 18:43:34 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
wow
Submitted by ICO (user info) at 2006-11-10 16:55:45 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by Orgasmatron (user info) at 2006-11-10 12:50:35 (#)
Ranking: 2
If there are other creatures in this universe, I'd love to hear what they think of our sleeping habits and how we spend a third of our lives in a motionless, actionless state.
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They probably would do some form of sleeping, too. Humans are far from actionless while sleeping. Digestive systems work harder, your brain processes all the crap you've had to bog through the day before. If I didn't dream, I'd be a lot less happy than I am now.
Oh, and nicely written.
Submitted by TheUniter (user info) at 2006-11-10 14:13:10 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by Snark (user info) at 2006-11-10 13:44:33 EST (#)
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I know what I would think: "Mmmmmmmm Tender."
Submitted by Orgasmatron (user info) at 2006-11-10 12:50:35 EST (#)
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If there are other creatures in this universe, I'd love to hear what they think of our sleeping habits and how we spend a third of our lives in a motionless, actionless state.
Submitted by hour_man (user info) at 2006-11-10 12:30:52 EST (#)
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Well I'm off home, have a good weekend.
Submitted by ih8u2man (user info) at 2006-11-10 12:15:07 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Good.
Submitted by orph (user info) at 2006-11-10 11:59:08 EST (#)
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Yep
Submitted by Snark (user info) at 2006-11-10 11:51:24 EST (#)
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there's a phrase from a film 'Be careful Preston, you're treading on my dreams'.
Equilibrium.
Cool rant auto +2
Submitted by Axolotl (user info) at 2006-11-10 11:47:40 EST (#)
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Pff, I've already gone insane dealing with people on this website.
Submitted by hour_man (user info) at 2006-11-10 11:37:19 EST (#)
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Thank you :)
Submitted by JMG114 (user info) at 2006-11-10 11:36:23 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
I really enjoy your stuff.