Another late lonely night (617 hits)
Category: GeneralRating: 1.74 on 11 reviews (Rate this item) (V)
Submitted by Life101 (View user info) at 2006-11-13 02:06:11 EST
I could never let things go. Some people always have something they never let go, maybe a stuffed animal an old picture of a friend. Who knows what it is but the fact is a most people always cling on to something. I grew up pretty normal Middle American family. Middle class everything a middle class education that allows me to scrape by like the rest of middle America. Growing up was a blast you could say. I found my self though constantly slipping further away from society, while the teacher blabbed away at some old cold war history that no one cared about I went off into the old memories. Nothing was ever more important that thinking of the past. It could have been what happened just yesterday. It could have happened 10 years ago or 20 and id still dwell over it going over every detail over and over again.
I guess you could say I'm a perfectionist or a slob, which ever makes more sense. I am disgusting with my habits sometimes but in my personal space I'm the office guy that everything is color coded and neat and organized but the desk is covered with cheetos drinks and stale cold coffee. Thinking of the past is depressing no matter how you look at it. You think of a friend and suddenly you wonder where they are now. Are they rich poor married single? What happened the drug addict friend? Probably rolling in the gutter but is he clean or still shooting up. What happened to old ex's who you told a secret to just to get the lights turned off in the bedroom?
Where did the nights go of sitting on the porch listening to it rain? The stupid drunken high school parties? What happened to the simple enjoyment of raking the leafs during fall? The sunny beach wind blowing into your face tasting just like salt water. It all just blew away and I remember every single moment. I remember every single moment of my life and that's all I think about.
At least I dont live here.
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Submitted by HotWillie (user info) at 2006-11-13 22:57:29 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
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Submitted by JonnyX (user info) at 2006-11-13 19:05:39 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
have a deuce
Submitted by morontian (user info) at 2006-11-13 16:29:03 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by morontian (user info) at 2006-11-13 16:28:54 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
shit, sorry
Submitted by morontian (user info) at 2006-11-13 16:27:00 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
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Submitted by JoeyG (user info) at 2006-11-13 09:00:20 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
This is great, how come so few reviews?
Submitted by Allyson (user info) at 2006-11-13 02:27:23 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
+2NAMI!!!!!
Submitted by Danger_Ranger (user info) at 2006-11-13 02:26:25 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
hmm..
Submitted by Lisa (user info) at 2006-11-13 02:20:44 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
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Submitted by jfreakman (user info) at 2006-11-13 02:16:05 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
I hate the fucking past.
and I'm glad it's over.
Submitted by frankthebear (user info) at 2006-11-13 02:13:15 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
you're lucky you have such a clear memory of the past.
my memory has always been like a bog. sometimes memories will float to the surface like dead bodies. but mostly I'm an existential creature: I live in the moment, never thinking about the past or the future. I figure the past is behind me where it belongs, and the future will take care of itself when the time comes.