The Queen of Pharmaceuticals (450 hits)
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Submitted by Ais (View user info) at 2007-02-01 05:17:06 EST
Well, my doctor dumped me on citalopram (Celaxa for you Yanks) about a week and a half ago to combat my panic attacks and social anxiety, plus the depression he thinks I suffer from. Panic attacks seem to be lessening to the point where I don't freak out before leaving the house (yay!) plus I've lost about a stone in ten days. Ais is a happy girly. I'm nearly back down to 8st 7lb. Anyways I was rummaging through my old scribblings and found this. Its part of a poem I wrote while I was stuck in hospital with anorexia.
There's humiliation in self-hatred,
And the bitter-sweet aftertaste of triumph.
Self-punishment or self-improvement?
Definitions side, depending on perspective.
Deserving of my hatred?
Myself? Or the excesses I bear?
It's not myself I hate. Just
the fleshy awkward body that I own.
Stripping it down. Molecule by
ugly molecule.
Bare essentials. Not fleshy
But bones and skin
Carrying the burden of though.
Brittle but less fallible,
Than mortal bodies.
Thoughts can shatter with one glance.
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Submitted by TheCrystalShip (user info) at 2007-02-01 15:50:45 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
I like girls with low self-esteem.
Hello, I'm Dr. Roger, I'm going to stick my thermometer in you.
Submitted by Amontillado (user info) at 2007-02-01 15:14:41 EST (#)
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I can't understand anorexia. Food is just so damn tasty, and skeletonlike people so ugly.
Submitted by BLITZKREIG_BOB (user info) at 2007-02-01 15:09:02 EST (#)
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Rad saved this post from a -2.
Submitted by JonnyX (user info) at 2007-02-01 14:50:45 EST (#)
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Ana says to keep walking past that refridgerator.
Submitted by Fungah (user info) at 2007-02-01 12:03:49 EST (#)
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Most of the drugs doctors prescribe people for mental problems leave them more fucked up than when they started taking the medication.
Considering people don't even really know exactly how most of this shit works, well, enjoy the fucked up life you're swallowing every day.
Submitted by scourge (user info) at 2007-02-01 11:21:35 EST (#)
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well, this wasn't anything i liked, but i don't want to bash your efforts.
a nice round zero should do the trick.
Submitted by Luther (user info) at 2007-02-01 10:27:43 EST (#)
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I can not BELIEVE this didn't get -2ed to hell.
Oh, wait, she gives you an image of her body- she has to mention it because she's obsessed with it- and y'all start panting and dry humping the pencil drawer on your desk.
Isn't someone going to ask for a camwhore already?? Geez guys, get on the ball!
Submitted by sicosemen (user info) at 2007-02-01 09:12:25 EST (#)
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Drugs are bad, mmmmmkay.
Submitted by Beano312003 (user info) at 2007-02-01 06:51:20 EST (#)
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DO NOT TRUST THIS MAN
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Submitted by rad1101 (user info) at 2007-02-01 06:47:19 EST (#)
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okay, a horse then, but I get two male children plus however number of female are produced intermittently.
how old is she currently?
Submitted by pirate_pipi (user info) at 2007-02-01 06:41:41 EST (#)
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You want to breed with my lil sis then. I'm way to scrawny to produce a professional athlete. Though I did ballet for several years and used to play rugby. She's built like a farmers wife though.
Submitted by rad1101 (user info) at 2007-02-01 06:38:46 EST (#)
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oh its all about money really.
the child will be my mealticket in 18 years.
Submitted by pirate_pipi (user info) at 2007-02-01 06:23:15 EST (#)
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I'm teasing with the racism - mocking Americans is a popular hobby over here. But your country is just a little dysfunctional...
And why do you want to breed an athlete anyway?
Submitted by rad1101 (user info) at 2007-02-01 06:18:20 EST (#)
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oh, and regarding mental illness - have you ever seen any american athletes?
Submitted by rad1101 (user info) at 2007-02-01 06:17:23 EST (#)
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your racism is disturbing.
Submitted by pirate_pipi (user info) at 2007-02-01 06:16:36 EST (#)
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I could never breed with an American. Plus - although I'm a broke student, £1000 is not enough to make up for the damage it'd do to my body.
Anyway, do you really want an athlete with a family history of extreme mental illness? My little sister's a professional rider though, and she's almost as tall as me. She'd probably do it for a new horse.
Submitted by rad1101 (user info) at 2007-02-01 06:04:52 EST (#)
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I will give you £1,000 for every male you and I produce, and you don't keep the child.
I am looking for a nice tall girl to make athletes with.
Submitted by pirate_pipi (user info) at 2007-02-01 05:59:05 EST (#)
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I think the bloke might object :)
But thanks for the offer.
Submitted by rad1101 (user info) at 2007-02-01 05:53:59 EST (#)
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do you want to make babies with me?
Submitted by pirate_pipi (user info) at 2007-02-01 05:41:36 EST (#)
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I'm about 5"10, 5"11 on a good day, but I have a tiny bone structure.
Submitted by rad1101 (user info) at 2007-02-01 05:31:12 EST (#)
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how tall are you?