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Submitted by KindaLikeJesus (View user info) at 2007-02-02 16:05:59 EST
I seem to have lost control over my life. It's not as bad as some people in the world have it, I'm not really looking for sympathy, just somewhere to vent some pent up anger and frustration that will bring a smile to some peoples' faces. Regardless my situation has been circling the drain for quite some time now, and now I think I finally lost it. What follows will be a general explanation as to how and why I seem to have lost control. It won't all make sense or fit together, I recommend reading it quickly in order to compensate.
Currently, I'm watching some crappy talk show where they just reunited an adopted daughter with her biological mother. The mother is almost comically old and has three huge moles on her face. Both are crying now after their reunion and say they feel complete. I don't know about that but what I do know is that the reason I am watching it is not a good one, it's simply that it is on. I'm feeling slightly stressed and bothered while writing this somehow thinking the stream of -2s that will follow this stream of consciousness. Oh well, I guess it really doesn't matter; I think I am writing simply to release some of this crap somewhere. Anyway on with my explanation of the loss of control over my life.
I think the primary reason my life has entered a death spiral is my job. If you've read any of my past posts (which I seriously doubt anyone has) I work at Dunkin' Donuts, It's a weekend job because I go to school but still I am always stuck doing the same thing every weekend, order taking. Since I doubt that anyone here knows what the hell I am talking about, I will explain. I'm the guy who answers at the drive-thru. I deal with the customer, basically it consists of saying, "Hi how can I help you?" then entering their order into a computer so the idiots I work with can then make it. Doesn't sound hard, it really isn't, stressful? In my case yes, when my boss sees that our timer has gone over 2mins 30secs for an order, which is often give the amount of food and junk people order. (the time is from the second they pull up to the speaker to the time they drive away, it is really not enough time but try telling that to a moron of a boss and the system really doesn't make sense, but whatever, we're forced to live by it). Anyway, the instant that timer goes over the allotted time our boss gets angry and the person he chooses to yell at and essentially blame is me.
Being blamed for a lot and stupid management is not the only reason i hate my job it is the customers too. They come in droves, never relenting always ordering more and more always rude and always stupid. They all are the same and they all are morons, I won't go into examples but there are a plethora of them. The thing about it is that our location while being near an airport (literally across the street, jets go for landings right over our building) where technology is everywhere. We have headsets at least 20 years out of date. These are the type of things that could cause neck damage if left on too long or brain cancer. They cause headaches and neck aches and our idiot boss and general management refuses to get new ones. The ones we have break and they order the same kind even after every employee says that we should get the new models (which every Dunkin' Donuts in the region has). The combination of these things leads to days at work that become physically painful.
My job isn't the only thing making my life bad right now, school is, high school that is, I'm not going to say that I'm unpopular (which I am) and therefore unhappy, I've made peace with that. It really just comes down to one class AP (advanced placement) Physics, Our teacher is not a good one I won't say his name because if this somehow gets out there and gets him fired or something I rather not be sued for slander. So to protect him and myself I won't mention his name. Regardless, he only teaches to certain parts of the class, the super smart kids (i.e. the ones who are at the top of the class, including our valedictorian) he completely ignores the rest of us and doesn't teach. He doesn't explain anything about the principles and the mathematics behind what we are learning or even teach what we should be learning. His favoritism is evident and his teaching skills are poor, he basically lectures about his political philosophies. I mean no one really gives a crap about how you think the government should be libertarian. If it were a political class that would make sense but this is physics, the man is worse at teaching than Kepler. (For those of you who don't know Kepler was a great scientist who discovered a lot of important things about planetary motion and such and when he taught classes he would mumble trail off and often just not talk while scribbling out theories he was working on.)
The thing that has finally put me into my current terrible pathetic condition, is that on Sunday I developed a sinus infection then Monday complete with horrible head aches terrible pain and general malaise I went to school, I kept my head down in all my classes and just prayed the day would end, then I went to work that was a miserable experience and I know I'm going to get yelled at for it because things went to hell quickly because I was not in good physical health at the time of working and the drive thru backed up (it always happens) customers had ridiculous wait times for simple things and I we barely managed to complete the duties that we were assigned (most of them were half-assed).
If you made it this far into reading you probably aren't sympathizing with me, but I don't care I'm not looking for it. I'm just venting. By posting this I have finally got a lot of long pent up anger off my chest, relieving a little stress. I'm rather stressed out I probably shouldn't be, and people will say that they have it worse than me and I shouldn't complain, but I'm not really complaining just stating. By knowing it is out there I can at least get some kind of benefit from stress relief. From the job and school that have consumed my life and made me loose control of my life, by posting this I can at least put the reigns back in my hands.
As for the title I just don't feel like explaining the reference because many people won't get it, but it involves loosing control of one's life.
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Submitted by BLITZKREIG_BOB (user info) at 2007-02-03 02:27:40 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
You sound like you need to break out of your routine. Grab your life by the balls and change shit around.
Submitted by particle_man58 (user info) at 2007-02-03 02:26:01 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
dude you need to get laid.... seriously
Submitted by strwbryfanatic (user info) at 2007-02-02 19:23:14 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
Seems like you should probably just off yourself.
Submitted by Fungah (user info) at 2007-02-02 18:42:06 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
Eat shit asshole.
Submitted by JonnyX (user info) at 2007-02-02 16:50:15 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
I am going to give this a +1, for the sole reason that this post was _not_ some disgusting tubgirl-stylee jpeg.
Submitted by Shlongy (user info) at 2007-02-02 16:31:50 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
Sounds like you've also lost control of your bowels, puddinhead.
Submitted by messmind (user info) at 2007-02-02 16:30:18 EST (#)
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No Comment
Submitted by Jack_McCallum (user info) at 2007-02-02 16:22:35 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
Oh, and thanks for telling us who Kepler was, you condescending cunt.
Submitted by Jack_McCallum (user info) at 2007-02-02 16:21:42 EST (#)
Ranking: -2
This is completely fabricated horseshit.
It's like somebody transplanted Pauly Shore's brain into rob_berg's body.
He THINKS he's funny or ernest, when he's just a fuckin tard.
Two words for you, bro.
GIVE UP.
Submitted by skrapmetal (user info) at 2007-02-02 16:14:59 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
I read it. As I did so, I entered a fugue state in which I was aware of reality but somehow separated from it. I could sense time passing without being able to quantify that passage. An inner peace began to make itself known to me as I scanned further down the page. The words melded together to form a panorama of ever-changing possibilities. Relaxation took me as the text left the screen and wrapped around me, transporting me to new levels of conciousness. Enlightened, I marvelled in my newfound knowledge until the telephone rang and, startled, I woke up.