Mummy loves you (746 hits)
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Submitted by LittleMonster (View user info) at 2007-02-21 08:07:07 EST
John and I never had a marriage based on love. Well, that's not entirely true, but it wasn't balanced love. I adored him with all my heart and I supposed he regarded me with a kind fondness. More convenience than anything else. I used to get jealous of the affairs, but as with most things, in time I came to accept them as part of the routine. I cherished his affection when it was directed at me, unfortunately this became continually infrequent as the years rolled by.
I busied myself as best I could in community work and with various charities. I often held our community watch meetings at home and I used to bake cakes for the local rotary groups. I tried to live a fulfilled and happy life, as John did. So busy he was with work, all his late meetings and corporate brakes away. Do I sound bitter? Oh no, I'm not bitter. That came later darling. Quite unexpectedly if truth be told.
I was in my late twenties before I was sure that I wanted a child. I knew it was selfish at the time. John didn't want children, but in the end I assume he realised how lonely I was and how I craved the adoration of another human being. Everyone loved John and now it was my turn to treasure the undivided attention of another. There is nothing quite like the unconditional love a child has for it's mother and no matter how the child and I argued I would always know it loved me. Unlike John.
Little Tommy was born just over a year later. He was perfect in every way, from his tiny hands and feet, to the adorable little smile he would give me when I bounced him on my knee. John reacted as expected and pulled further away from me, it stung for a while, but I knew I had this little ones love. John found the adoration he needed from that ghastly woman Maria he hired under the pretence that I needed help running the house. Nonsense really, I managed just fine, but if it kept him away from little Tommy and I, then it was worth it. I couldn't have John trying to compete for the boys affections.
I'm not a resentful woman at heart, but I must say I was terribly hurt when Tommy spoke his first word. How odd that it should be "Daddy" when I had spent hour after hour trying to teach him "Mummy". John of course was delighted and to my horror began to take an interest in the boy. Well, it just wouldn't do. Tommy started to cry when he left for work and would eagerly await his return each night. John began to come home more often. I was losing Tommy to him, MY Tommy.
It became too much after a while. They were closing me out. How could my darling little one love that monster of a man who didn't care about him. John couldn't care about him really, not like I did. I became despondent and found myself leaving Tommys care to Maria more often than not. I'm ashamed to say I really started to hate the child. Was my love not enough for him? Was he going to be like all men and take it for granted? Well I couldn't stand by and let that happen now could I?
It was on a Thursday night and John was late coming home. That wretched boy wouldn't stop crying for his daddy. Mummy apparently just wouldn't do any more. I think it was the crying that got to me in the end. He just wouldn't be quiet. Even a gentle shake wouldn't stop his wailing. Before I even knew what I was doing, I found the pillow in my hands. It was so easy and afterwards, there was just blissful silence. I managed to get a couple of hours sleep before John came home and found him.
It all got blamed on Maria of course. Everyone knew how I adored the boy and she would often complain bitterly to anyone who would listen about his crying and fussy habits. The jilted lover angle didn't do any harm either. No one ever suspected me. They were all so kind and thoughtful over the coming months, and to my joy John found his comfort with me. It had bonded us, brought us together. We could share our grief and if ever it looked like he was going to wonder back to his old ways, I would 'accidentally' leave out one of Tommy's toys for him to find.
John will never leave me now; I have him all to myself and glorious news to go with it. I'm expecting again! Let's hope for a girl this time. Mothers and daughter have always had a certain bond.
User Reviews
Submitted by Fey (user info) at 2007-02-22 04:27:49 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
I like it. I read lower down that you were rushed. It sort of shows, but it was still worth reading.
Submitted by LittleMonster (user info) at 2007-02-22 04:00:07 EST (#)
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Submitted by Snare (user info) at 2007-02-21 19:12:06 (#)
Ranking: 2
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Submitted by JonnyX (user info) at 2007-02-21 15:48:17 (#)
Ranking: -1
been done before, many times
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Sorry I don't spend enough time on here to know that. My bad.
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Fuck, man even The Bard reckoned there are only seven stories, told over and over and over again.
Its the style, the way you tell them, that makes you a writer.
And this peice works.
More please...
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I think thats the first time someone has ever stuck up for my writing on uber........
Cheers! I will try and write something else later, bloody work.....always getting in the way.
Submitted by Sacrilicious (user info) at 2007-02-21 21:13:40 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
bad mommy
Submitted by lungfish (user info) at 2007-02-21 20:58:55 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
My kid's first word was "moon."
Submitted by Crystle (user info) at 2007-02-21 19:28:25 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by Snare (user info) at 2007-02-21 19:12:06 EST (#)
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Submitted by JonnyX (user info) at 2007-02-21 15:48:17 (#)
Ranking: -1
been done before, many times
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Sorry I don't spend enough time on here to know that. My bad.
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Fuck, man even The Bard reckoned there are only seven stories, told over and over and over again.
Its the style, the way you tell them, that makes you a writer.
And this peice works.
More please...
Submitted by LittleMonster (user info) at 2007-02-21 18:27:58 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
Submitted by JonnyX (user info) at 2007-02-21 15:48:17 (#)
Ranking: -1
been done before, many times
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Sorry I don't spend enough time on here to know that. My bad.
Submitted by JonnyX (user info) at 2007-02-21 15:48:17 EST (#)
Ranking: -1
been done before, many times
Submitted by Lib (user info) at 2007-02-21 14:43:41 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
hehe nice : )
Submitted by Snark (user info) at 2007-02-21 14:14:43 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Little Monster indeed.
Submitted by fruity_tootie (user info) at 2007-02-21 11:42:15 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by Ducky (user info) at 2007-02-21 11:18:42 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Good.
Submitted by hot_pocket (user info) at 2007-02-21 11:12:41 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
that is sicksicksick
Submitted by Susie_Derkins (user info) at 2007-02-21 11:06:23 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by LittleMonster (user info) at 2007-02-21 11:06:18 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
Submitted by apollo88 (user info) at 2007-02-21 09:26:45 (#)
Ranking: 0
kinda obvious and needs a spell check.
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Sorry, this was a bit rushed.
I'll try harder to be a bit less predictable.
Submitted by DrogoRoch (user info) at 2007-02-21 10:37:02 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Mummy never loved me enough to smother me; there are lots who don't like her for that.
Submitted by TechnoRatty (user info) at 2007-02-21 10:27:32 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
Wow
Submitted by Amontillado (user info) at 2007-02-21 10:05:28 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by MyTeeOne (user info) at 2007-02-21 09:44:51 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
You're pretty awesome yourself Little Mosnter.
Submitted by HurtByTheSun (user info) at 2007-02-21 09:42:24 EST (#)
Ranking: 1
Cool story. Kill the new baby too.
Submitted by apollo88 (user info) at 2007-02-21 09:26:45 EST (#)
Ranking: 0
kinda obvious and needs a spell check.
Submitted by wookie (user info) at 2007-02-21 09:21:07 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by JoeyG (user info) at 2007-02-21 08:57:50 EST (#)
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No Comment
Submitted by sicosemen (user info) at 2007-02-21 08:42:00 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by rorrim (user info) at 2007-02-21 08:19:29 EST (#)
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Submitted by lungfish (user info) at 2007-02-21 08:11:28 (#)
Ranking: 2
LM, don't have time to read. On my way out. Meeting at City Hall of all places. I know it's good. Just wanted to start the bidding.
That guy's so sweet, it's almost like he's a girl himself !
'We cal him Nate, if it's a boy " - prince's "Sign o the times"
Submitted by particle_man58 (user info) at 2007-02-21 08:17:25 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
hhmmm I'm glad my mom didn't smother me.
Submitted by LittleMonster (user info) at 2007-02-21 08:12:32 EST (#)
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oh lungfish, such faith. Have a good meeting.
Submitted by hidden101 (user info) at 2007-02-21 08:11:52 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by lungfish (user info) at 2007-02-21 08:11:28 EST (#)
Ranking: 2
LM, don't have time to read. On my way out. Meeting at City Hall of all places. I know it's good. Just wanted to start the bidding.