My biggest Regret (988 hits)
Category: NoneRating: 0.6 on 62 reviews (Rate this item) (V)
Submitted by Nyxmar (View user info) at 2007-03-19 18:18:26 EDT
Much of my life I have been lost. I mean this literally as well as figuratively. All through my life I have searched not for a goal, but an idea with a goal in mind. Money has never made me happy, neither has possessions. On some level I enjoy the things I have. My computer, I pod, and DVD's usually serve as a great distraction from the world. I wonder if we spend so much money to fill the void in our lives. I have the nagging feeling that life is not right. It is somewhat off. Almost as if I am on a time delay, and the important instances of life pass by before the mind is able to grasp them.
As was once said, if you dig up the past, all you get is dirty. Its an apt saying. I have few regrets in life. The chief one, as could be guessed, was a woman. Sarah. The name itself brings pain, and pleasure. Pleasure in the fact that she matched me. The pain is because it was one of those moments that I should have grasped, but didn't. She filled a void that I was not even aware of until it was gone. She's married now, and I wish her well.
After much contemplation I realized that it was my fault. I loved her in simple way. She brought me joy. I would feel alive when she touched me. We talked nearly every day for hours at a time. The first time I met her she smiled and all my defenses were gone. People who knew me were stunned. I've always been the person who people could not get close too. I learned at an early age that emotions can run too deep for comfort. Words can hurt, more than any physical altercation. Most often it was the people I loved most that could hurt me. I learned to guard myself well.
I am not a person who makes good first impressions. I am blunt and honest to a fault. I am smart and like to have intellectual discussions that raise passions. I am opinionated and stubborn. These are my good qualities. Above all else I love to argue. Debate is a skill that is in poor use today. I thrive on it. She was only person who has ever stopped me speechless. I was defenseless before her, and I reveled in it. Her smile lit up my soul like basking in the sun, and it left me just as warm. Life with her was a glorious battle. She gave as good as she got. It was the only time in my life that I did not mind being defeated. She made an art of victory, and I could not deny her when she won.
During the young portion of my life I often viewed myself as helpless to stand in the way of fate. Being young and naive I simply felt that life would be as it turned out. I didn't have faith in myself or my ability to change things. I lack desire or ambition. I have rarely been stirred to grab life and hump it into submission. As it unfolded we never ended up seeing each other. I have a rule. I never steal my friends girlfriends. It creates such a quagmire that will drag you down. Even if it is love. Each year I would arrive at college hopeful that she was finally single and we could start, what I felt would last an eternity. Each summer I would return to college to find her with a different friend. Each year I would resume my post as best friend like nothing happened. I would talk to her for hours about everything. Occasionally I would spend the night and we would sit there looking at the stars.
It's the little things I remember. Holding her hair when she was sick and praying to the porcelain God. Helping her study for finals. Taking long walks that led to nowhere. Arguing till dawn about the silliest things. In the end I didn't realize fully what I had and what I would miss. For her part I think she tired of waiting for me. As I look back I realize that was the case. I remember the one kiss we shared. All others are judged by it. I remember how I could simply get lost in her eyes, and love every minute of it. I found out much later that she was waiting for me to make a move. I was incapable at the time. She dated my friends to keep me close and make me jealous. It worked, but I would not break on that one rule. Much to my regret.
So, ubersite, what is your biggest regret?
User Reviews
Submitted by Void_Where_Prohibited (user info) at 2007-03-22 14:18:09 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
Interesting and well written.
Submitted by Davros (user info) at 2007-03-21 11:44:48 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I try not to regret anything, but if I had to say one thing, it would be the fact that I never really got to know my Father as a "Friend" before he died.
I think the important thing is to learn from whatever experiences you have, bad or good.
Here endeth the support group.
-Dave
Submitted by rorrim (user info) at 2007-03-21 07:24:42 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Also:
Submitted by ubetidid (user info) at 2007-03-20 13:20:01 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
never regret loving someone.
The 0th rule..
Submitted by rorrim (user info) at 2007-03-21 07:22:19 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
My life is a stinking pile of Whatishould's and Whatinevershouldhaveaccepted's.(bad spelling!)
Maybe the best thing i did do : Burn the past to to the ground.
Ashes is great soil to build on. Very fertile.
Submitted by Istaros (user info) at 2007-03-20 21:21:48 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
not rebelling
Submitted by nyxmar (user info) at 2007-03-20 20:11:00 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
I only know how she made me feel indoninja.
Submitted by Saeki (user info) at 2007-03-20 15:51:47 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Reading this post....just kidding.
Submitted by TheUniter (user info) at 2007-03-20 14:25:41 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
Submitted by ubetidid (user info) at 2007-03-20 13:20:01 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
never regret loving someone.
Submitted by zimm0r (user info) at 2007-03-20 09:46:33 EDT (#)
Ranking: -1
No Comment
Submitted by indoninja (user info) at 2007-03-20 09:30:36 EDT (#)
Ranking: -1
So every year she was boning another one of your friends and you think this was the "one".
Kids today.
Submitted by drgoatcabin (user info) at 2007-03-20 09:28:42 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
Your last sentence is what saved this from being a blog...
Submitted by shitfuck (user info) at 2007-03-20 09:11:10 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
She sounds like a whorish cunt. Nice pick.
Submitted by c1ndy (user info) at 2007-03-20 09:08:53 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by skrapmetal (user info) at 2007-03-20 08:59:13 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
My biggest regret was not believing that the 'gag reflex' was real and grabbing her hair so I could finish. Ahhh, well, she's in a better place now.
<reflects momentarily, moves on>
Submitted by i_can_get_you_a_toe (user info) at 2007-03-20 08:41:36 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I read this over again, and read my subsequent comment and later on I realised there was something that I did regret, just one thing. A little girl I was babysitting when I was 12 years old told me something, something that I should have told people, and I didn't, and I don't know why.
Submitted by sicosemen (user info) at 2007-03-20 07:35:10 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
I didn't read it but I'm being generous. I once took an electric eel and shoved it into a boar's ass.
Submitted by Merlina (user info) at 2007-03-20 03:37:29 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by deelo (user info) at 2007-03-20 02:51:58 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
when i was 16, i walked 8 miles on a gravel road to see a girl and never fucked her...i've always regretted that
Submitted by nyxmar (user info) at 2007-03-20 02:05:41 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Please elaborate Hookhand, I sense a story, all be it a sad one I reckon.
Submitted by Hookhand (user info) at 2007-03-20 02:01:55 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
I regret reading this, but not for the reason you think
Submitted by forthewin (user info) at 2007-03-19 23:51:36 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Good enough.
Submitted by rob_berg (user info) at 2007-03-19 22:43:02 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by Zebra (user info) at 2007-03-19 18:22:26 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
That last sentence is quite a straight line, as I'm sure you will soon see, but I expect many pedestrian punch lines.
---
That is some fine prognostication Z.
Not surprising, but still, enjoyable call.
Submitted by rob_berg (user info) at 2007-03-19 22:41:04 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Didn't read it... but if Coley and Zebra think it should be positive, by gum it should be.
Submitted by ghola (user info) at 2007-03-19 22:07:11 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
Submitted by ghola (user info) at 2007-03-19 22:04:16 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Zebra, I have a question here:
http://www.ubersite.com/m/99813#2351976
Submitted by Sacrilicious (user info) at 2007-03-19 21:21:09 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Ubersite isn't the place I want to answer such a personal question tonight, but the confessional nature of this is touching.
Submitted by Zebra (user info) at 2007-03-19 21:12:44 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I'm so close to positive territory, though.
Submitted by Zebra (user info) at 2007-03-19 21:12:08 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Fuck it. Last one.
Submitted by Zebra (user info) at 2007-03-19 21:11:42 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I'm not sure this is worth it.
Submitted by Zebra (user info) at 2007-03-19 21:11:06 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
More.
Submitted by Zebra (user info) at 2007-03-19 21:10:45 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Fuck.
Submitted by Zebra (user info) at 2007-03-19 21:10:32 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Closer.
Submitted by Zebra (user info) at 2007-03-19 21:10:14 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
This is hard.
Submitted by Zebra (user info) at 2007-03-19 21:10:00 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No, not quite.
Submitted by Zebra (user info) at 2007-03-19 21:09:39 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Positive at least, for now.
Submitted by Zebra (user info) at 2007-03-19 21:09:11 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
ahahahaha
Coley's right, but you really opened yourself up with that last line.
I'll help out a bit.
Submitted by SPECIALk (user info) at 2007-03-19 20:25:47 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
I regret ending the best friendship I ever had for my own irrational reasons...i have a bad habit of running away when things aren't perfect....and I suck at forgiving people, and myself.
Submitted by coley (user info) at 2007-03-19 20:12:07 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Seriously,
Submitted by coley (user info) at 2007-03-19 20:11:58 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
this
Submitted by coley (user info) at 2007-03-19 20:11:48 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
rating
Submitted by coley (user info) at 2007-03-19 20:11:29 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
is
Submitted by coley (user info) at 2007-03-19 20:11:21 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
too
Submitted by coley (user info) at 2007-03-19 20:11:11 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
low.
Submitted by nyxmar (user info) at 2007-03-19 19:56:59 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
simple, that comment made me smile.
Submitted by simple_catalyst (user info) at 2007-03-19 19:51:59 EDT (#)
Ranking: -1
Submitted by Shlongy (user info) at 2007-03-19 19:05:31 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
1) Discovering Uber
1a) Reading this post
*
if you didn't expect this answer or one very much like it, you deserve a
pudding cup.
a very empty pudding cup.
Submitted by LittleMonster (user info) at 2007-03-19 19:35:39 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
Well, good then. It's quite easy to say 'I regret nothing' because in the end you will always find an upside to something if you look hard enough. I have met very few people who genuinely have no regrets. The trick is, not to have too many.
I miss that person I mentioned every day, without fail. I would dearly love to go back and change everything. I can't though, so I'm doing everything to move forwards.
Submitted by coley (user info) at 2007-03-19 19:33:08 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
You people are friggin difficult.
I have many things that I guess you could say I "regret"...things I probably should have done differently, etc..but when it comes down to it, I can't say that I'd change anything in my past.
Submitted by nyxmar (user info) at 2007-03-19 19:30:03 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Thanx LM, I wrote this because its a rainy monday and I happened to see Sarah's picture in my room. I actually wondered what people regret in their lives. If they want to -2 me and write borish, simplistic and obvious comments, well good for them. I could care less about the rating as long as once in awhile I get an honest answer, which you have supplied.
Submitted by i_can_get_you_a_toe (user info) at 2007-03-19 19:29:24 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
I don't really have any regrets, lots of things i'm ashamed of, but no feelings of 'i wish i had done that'
Submitted by LittleMonster (user info) at 2007-03-19 19:22:24 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
Telling someone I love that I never want anything to do with them again......and sticking to it.
I'm sorry your going ot get burnt for this. I thought it was quite good. Unfortunately your end question there leaves you wide open.
Submitted by Shlongy (user info) at 2007-03-19 19:05:31 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
1) Discovering Uber
1a) Reading this post
Submitted by Foolproof (user info) at 2007-03-19 18:50:41 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
That was your downfall.
Submitted by nyxmar (user info) at 2007-03-19 18:49:37 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
The originality of your comments is astounding. I expected better of even bored 15 yr olds.
Submitted by Foolproof (user info) at 2007-03-19 18:49:21 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
Somebody call the Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhbulance.
Submitted by Sinistral (user info) at 2007-03-19 18:46:25 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
My biggest regret is clicking on this post.
Submitted by The_Drake (user info) at 2007-03-19 18:42:40 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
In all honesty though... my biggest regret is killing that frog when i was 14. I had no reason to do it, I just found one, threw it up in the air over a parking lot and watched it drop to its death. I felt horrible afterwards and nothing bad I have ever done since has made me feel worse. I just wanted to see it die. Weird.
Submitted by JonnyX (user info) at 2007-03-19 18:42:25 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
So, ubersite, what is your biggest regret?
----
not being able to rate lower than a -2.
Submitted by nyxmar (user info) at 2007-03-19 18:42:20 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Love or oppisite sex as in a fling or one night stand. Basically whether or not the oppisite sex is the cause of the most regrets. Sorry I didnt make that clear.
Submitted by The_Drake (user info) at 2007-03-19 18:39:40 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
Don't those two (usually) go hand in hand?
Submitted by nyxmar (user info) at 2007-03-19 18:37:01 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
My original draft had that line right after I asked what your biggest regret was. I asked that question because I wondered if love or the opposite sex is the biggest regret of most peoples lives.
Submitted by The_Drake (user info) at 2007-03-19 18:30:45 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
I liked it.
Expect a lot of "my biggest regret is reading this, LOLZ!!"
Submitted by Zebra (user info) at 2007-03-19 18:22:26 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
That last sentence is quite a straight line, as I'm sure you will soon see, but I expect many pedestrian punch lines.