I got my medical marijuana card today from Arizona!Submitted by Murphy1844 at 2019-04-12 20:23:15 EDT
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A couple weeks ago I applied for a MMJ card in AZ. I wrote about that in the last post.
After checking the mail exactly once per day, it finally came today. Aesthetically, it looks really nice. It has a governmenty feel to it, but was overall professional and official looking.
I’ve been doing nothing but researching all week the different strains, dispensaries, user reviews, etc. I settled on a place close to home. What a dump! The place was located out in the middle of nowhere, some place you’d likely find a porn shop. I really didn’t like it at all… it had the creepy feeling of thousands of masturbating male customers. That can also be a very pleasant vibe to have about a place, by the way. The vibe was desperate and sticky feeling.
The dude who helped me was so good that I wrote a review on Yelp giving him praise. I told him I had zero tolerance for weed, really bad experiences in the past, and an underlying issue with anxiety and panic attacks BEFORE I smoke weed. He was super understanding, and recommended a few strains. Importantly, and impressively, he didn’t give me the spiel about indica vs. sativa and THC vs. CBD. He seemed to intuitively understand that I’m not an idiot, and did my research.
Why did I decide to give it a try again? Because I’ve had positive experiences in the past, and because I’m trying to wean off Xanax. It would be nice if I could stop the antidepressant I’m taking as well, and feel naturally anti depressed!
I bought four strains and smoked the first one he recommended, called Critical Mass. No paranoia, not bad munchies, and I feel more distracted rather than relieved of anxiety and most of my self-loathing depressive thoughts. I’ll have to explore this internally further as to this being a good or bad thing. I suspect that, if I can train myself to meditate while stoned, I think this will be a good thing.
I’m stoned right now, and functional. I’m not seeing shit, my heart isn’t racing, and I feel I got a tweak in my perspective. I'm more in the present moment I think. And things don't seem as serious as they did before. Outstanding! Things aren’t so much funnier as they are sillier. And I’m not such much as happy, but distracted from constant unhappy thoughts.